So i have a hydromorphone prescription enough to shove 48mg up my nose a day for a month....done for a long time....im stopping tho and i mean it as i keep burning the script and suffering wds.....thankfully ive a very supportive gf who will never bug.me about it but wants me to get better.ive a good job and life but in wd all i can think about is ending the pain....i have very legitimate reasons for using.so i ran out as i always do however this time i couldnt find anything except H and it is the brown powder kind....i prob bought about 8 points for the 3 days ill need it to stave off the sicknes....this is day 2 nightime i just did a bump and i am fuxkin terrified of getting addicted to h i know i like it and this has taken down much better people than me.im not stupid i know i will fall into the trap which is why i want to change....this time i feel different and will try my fkin hardest to taper myself off the hydro....dont tell me to not use h as im doing it to stave off sickness velieve me or not its fact....last night i nodded pretty good and tonight just got mega itch going so far.so my question is this please dont flame me for other shit and just answer what i ask lol dont mean to sound rude ive been reading for hours before making this post. If all goes according to plan and i just use between my scripts will i develop a dependence to H? It really scares me but i simply cannot take the sickness i know itll get worse if i travel the H road i really hope i dont and am committed to getting it together this time.....havent felt this way in the years ive been doing this,honestly a first time for that.....so i rewlly.hope i follow thru on the promises to myself and my woman to taper down and stop....im just hoping 3 days of heroin,literally 8 points tops,wont completely fuck me up or send me down an ugly WD road which im trying to avoid! When i start on start on my script again will it all go back to good or have i set myself up for a huge fall?any advice greatly appreciated i love that this site exists and have gotten great advice from just reading....i hope my experiences can help the person just like me whos doc wont early release anything. I am terrified of H but fuck it helps the wd something fierce. Love u guys and my amazing woman for putting up with my shit (she will never read this so i aint kissing ass....) thanks everyone fast responses are welcomed so i can decide what im doing...just smoked about a quarter point now too....ugh. thanks for the help