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(Heroin) First time: I LOVE It

Turns out I could not stay away from it :(
But a month sober isn't bad, and I'm sure I could go at least a month more. Hopefully more. It really is addictive for people like me, though :/
The second time wasn't as good as the first for some reason.. Got sick a lot more, puked a lot. Tar feels really dirty but I still like it too much.
 
Pretty_Diamonds said:
Good report! I liked it. =) Before you puked all over yourself, did you feel nauseous at all?
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Not the first time - it was kind of a surprise. The second time - this weekend - I was definitely nauseous and that was good because I had some warning time to find a bathroom. Almost not enough time, though..
It felt GREAT after I puked! That's when I'd get really high (I think that's how it goes with most drugs)
 
Really well written report.
Your descriptions of when it first hit you I found so very accurate.
But as everyone else has stated, please be oh so careful.
Once a month soon becomes once a fortnight, then once a week, and well you see where I'm going.
Good luck!
 
God, my hungry hungry habit is screaming into my ear that I need a bag or five hard after reading that. Very well put.
 
Nice...can definitley relate..this NW tar sucks but its so good!!!Good luck as I was always relapsing too and I completley agree that you cannot go back to other opiates once you try the H.
 
as some one who doesn't even know you, if you were telling me this in person i would grab you and fucking shake you and scream in your face -- THIS IS NOT TO BE FUCKED WITH... there are some waters you just don't swim in. especially a little white girl?? my god you are gonna get chewed up so fast. getting robbed is nothing compared to being raped by a dealer or serving time for possesion. i see it as a clock. someone tries it - my god they LOVE it, SHOCKING! and 2 or 3 months later they can do nothing but cry on their bedroom floor. even when you HAVE dope, if your still crying, thats when you know its bad. anyway, have fun watching your quality of life plummet
 
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sorry to rant there but as a recovering addict you can't blame me for being passionate. this is an intelligent young girl who could end up sucking dick for a 15 balloon no offense. if anyone wants to try it just go over to the dark side and read some super awesome stories about the totally radical hepatitis c people get and needle damage to veins -- so sweet! how about being hooked up to a ventilator and racking up massive medical bills forcing your family into bankruptcy cause you got h i v --- bitchin'!!!!!! have you ever pawned a family members belongings for a fix??? makes you feel so proud of yourself! seriously girl - don't be stupid.
 
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the second time is never as good as the first... and the third is never as good as the second.

Great report, and be careful <3
 
I'm pretty sure wingnutlives has already encountered problems from heroin. Hindsight is 20/20, eh? :\

But you'll be fine... if you're still having issues, there's always a way out. But the longer you go without trying to fix the problem the harder it becomes.
 
100MillionYearTrip said:
sorry to rant there but as a recovering addict you can't blame me for being passionate. this is an intelligent young girl who could end up sucking dick for a 15 balloon no offense. if anyone wants to try it just go over to the dark side and read some super awesome stories about the totally radical hepatitis c people get and needle damage to veins -- so sweet! how about being hooked up to a ventilator and racking up massive medical bills forcing your family into bankruptcy cause you got h i v --- bitchin'!!!!!! have you ever pawned a family members belongings for a fix??? makes you feel so proud of yourself! seriously girl - don't be stupid.
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I would never ever do any of that stuff. NO way. I've never stolen or done sexual favors or anything like that in my life, no matter how little money I've had or how hungry I was for food or drugs or anything. Also, plenty of addicts take care of themselves and use clean needles, etc.
This is a silly defense, though, because you can never tell the strength of anyone's moral qualities or will over the Internet.
 
Xorkoth said:
I'm pretty sure wingnutlives has already encountered problems from heroin. Hindsight is 20/20, eh? :\

But you'll be fine... if you're still having issues, there's always a way out. But the longer you go without trying to fix the problem the harder it becomes.
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Yeah... The quality of my life is a little worse for wear since I tried it, but really it all started going downhill the first time I used opiates regularly (last October). No one has to worry, though, because my supply is gone, everyone disappeared, and I have ZERO opiate connections now even on the street. It's been about a month now since I had H and I am no longer looking for it either. Drinking a lot to kill the anxiety, though...
 
Another reason why there's really no reason to ever try opiates. Either you feel good for a little while and decide not to keep using them and have gotten nowhere, or you keep using them, slowly increase usage, and eventually realize you have a strong hunger that will never really go away. Which reminds me, I should stop reading this thread because I'm currently not using any opiates and I rather like it that way.
 
I have never been so constipated in my life as when I binged on ninety 5mg hydrocodones over a period of 1 to 3 days. I was so glad and impressed that the toilet could take that much CRAP at one time without clogging up.

And then there was the time that I almost overdosed (inexperienced) on oxycontin.
I threw up right there on the side walk in front of the front door of the gas station and was deathly ill and white as death. It was so embarrassing. People were pissed at me for doing that in public, but I couldn't help it. (I think the ice kept me alive that night, actually.)

Then there was the time PhreeX wrecked his body over a couple of fentanly patches and a half gram or so of Tramadol, but mistakes do happen and I have been spared only by the grace of God many a time, Lord knows.

Verdict: Opiates are seductive but dangerous and therefore suck. But really, the main reason heroin is not higher on my list of desirable drugs is that it really knocks me out as in makes me sleep hard for some reason for like 24 hours after administration. So if opiates are your thing, then I'll say hey well that's all right by me! To each his cup of tea, within reason.

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wingnutlives said:
I would never ever do any of that stuff. NO way.
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but this is what everyone before you said, when they were just starting out and then something changed (basically they liked using more than they liked feeling like they were going to die)

I heard a funny saying on ADH about cravings for heroin, related to me as a first time user a few years ago.

There are two viable possibilities for what happens when you're using heroin (first time or any time , really).

1. You wake up the next day feeling great. Of course, you're not addicted yet, so there's no reason not to do another shot.

2. You wake up sick, at which point, there is a definite reason to do another shot.

I didnt do the quote justice, but, check out adh (alt.drugs.hard) if you want some reading that can clue you in to what messing with heroin is really all about.
 
wingnutlives said:
I would never ever do any of that stuff. NO way.
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It just scares me when people say "never" when it comes to heroin.

It is very likely that you WON'T do any of these things that you probably consider "going to far," but don't be so naive to think that it is impossible.

Countless wonderful, upstanding, thoughtful, intelligent souls have done things they always said they never would when it comes to a drug like heroin.

I said I would never use heroin on a daily basis...WRONG

I said i would never use heroin more than once a day...WRONG

I said I'd never lie to my friends and loved ones about my use..WRONG.

I said I'd never go into major debt to support a habit....WRONG

I said I'd never, never, EVER, IV the drug...WRONG AGAIN.

This isn't a scare tactic; it is your body and your life to do with as you choose. If you can use the drug sporadically without any problems, please do so...it is an amazing high.

Just wanted to offer some perspective. :)
 
SonOF said:
I said I would never use heroin on a daily basis...WRONG

I said i would never use heroin more than once a day...WRONG

I said I'd never lie to my friends and loved ones about my use..WRONG.

I said I'd never go into major debt to support a habit....WRONG

I said I'd never, never, EVER, IV the drug...WRONG AGAIN.
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I co sign on all those too....Never say never....
 
Xorkoth said:
Another reason why there's really no reason to ever try opiates. Either you feel good for a little while and decide not to keep using them and have gotten nowhere, or you keep using them, slowly increase usage, and eventually realize you have a strong hunger that will never really go away. Which reminds me, I should stop reading this thread because I'm currently not using any opiates and I rather like it that way.
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Good Advice........Good Advice:)
 
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