I may have lost a good friend and possible girl friend to my heroin use. And not because I fucked up and stole money or puked on her cat, but because I think I may have had artificial heroin induced feelings start to take over. At some point in our relationship, I started to feel for her a lot more than I had done in the past. It seems like it was around the same time I started using heroin during the week and not just on the weekends. Whether I was fully dosed or not, I feel my thinking was still under the influence. I started to get jealous and started to feel as if I were in love with her. I’ve decided to give up the drug all together and see how I truly feel. This is my first time getting off of it and I feel pretty fucking confident. It was something I never expected. I didn’t think I would fuck up a relationship in this way because of the drug. I mean, I guess it was because of the drug. At this point, I’m not sure if I loved her or not. I guess I’m just going to have to see.
I know this thread may belong in Sex and Relationship or in the dark side, but I’ll try to keep it as a proper topic for this forum and ask this question, is there anyone that has experienced something like I have due to heroin or if someone can shed some light on how H may effect the user’s relationship and interaction with other people, I’d like to hear about it. I’m in some real pain right now over losing her. She went from my best friend, to someone I cared a lot about, to someone I can’t even talk to. I feel like I’m going to have to tell her at some point that I was using if in fact it was the H that aided in me fucking things up. She will most likely hate me more than ever then.
PS: I have never, NEVER shot up in front of anyone. Because none of my friends are into it or even know about it. That’s why I ask these questions here, I have no one I can ask this shit in my everyday life.
I know this thread may belong in Sex and Relationship or in the dark side, but I’ll try to keep it as a proper topic for this forum and ask this question, is there anyone that has experienced something like I have due to heroin or if someone can shed some light on how H may effect the user’s relationship and interaction with other people, I’d like to hear about it. I’m in some real pain right now over losing her. She went from my best friend, to someone I cared a lot about, to someone I can’t even talk to. I feel like I’m going to have to tell her at some point that I was using if in fact it was the H that aided in me fucking things up. She will most likely hate me more than ever then.
PS: I have never, NEVER shot up in front of anyone. Because none of my friends are into it or even know about it. That’s why I ask these questions here, I have no one I can ask this shit in my everyday life.
