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Heroin and Daily Living

PercocetDreams512

PercocetDreams512

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I have been doing heroin for about 4-5 months now. I started doing pills, oxy's and methadone mostly, when i was a freshmen in high school. I stuck to doing the pills and smoking weed. Sometimes i would do coke and maybe some meth, but i have always stuck to the opiates. Now that i smoke heroin, i dont even want to do anything else. The reason for this post, i am curious as to what people do on a daily basis when they do their drug of choice. What do you for fun and such questions like that?

For me, the first thing i do when i wake up is check my stash and make sure i have enough H to get to get me through the day. I then smoke some to get me on my base line for the day, not too much and not too little of course. I am currently out of school so i just chill at home and clean or catch up on doing the chores around the house. I used to work at Little Caesars, but i just got tired of dealing with picky customers on a $5 pizza. If i dont have enough H in my stash, i will go around my house looking for things to sell and such. I am very very close to my dealer, which is amazing, i can ask for fronts and then pay him back of course. This is usually my everyday life. I dont ever go out and party because i just dont like the drama and all the fake people trying to be friendly. I sometimes get high on stimulants as well, but not a lot of the time. I usually get some shards or some white, but usually shards (go big or go home right?) because i end of cleaning the shit out of my house and get a lot done that i wouldnt normally get done.

What does your everyday life look like?
 
Wow.....Idk why, but somehow this reads like an Uncyclopedia entry for "Heroin Addict". No offense but lol.

4 or 5 months huh? Well you're tolerance is still low...probably thanks to all of the dirty-ass American Street Heroin being about as pure as my intentions with any well-built, nearly petite, 6'0 Brunette with upper-end B or C cups. My intentions with a girl like that....are not pure....not at all pure, they're pretty disgusting and perverted, actually.
And however dirty my thoughts of a girl like that could possibly be, they're still nowhere near as dirty as, you guessed it...American Heroin (nothing against America, best place to be, unless you'd like clean Prescription Diamorphine, that is).

If you make it to 5 or 6 years, you'll be tired....most likely of everything...but ESPECIALLY that dirty-ass stomped on dope. What you're gonna do then is up to you, but the feeling you get now won't last forever. Dope will still work, sure, just never like it does now, so I'd enjoy it while it lasts.

And smoking heroin....come on, dude, shoot it, eat it, sniff it, shove it up you're asshole for fucksake. Why on earth people waste good (though filthy) dope by smoking it is beyond me. I mean, if you're gonna fuck with it you might as well fuck with it, ya know?

To answer you're original question though; my everyday life looks like this....I get up early, get on bluelight, and make self-righteous, often hypocritical judgements about all the less than well-rounded junkies here on Bluelight....yes there are many...it's a long days work, criticizing fledgling drug addicts!
 
Yeah the heroin isn't the best but its cheaper than buying all the pills i used to buy. I snort it when its powder, but i have been getting nothing but the tar and i will not shoot this shit up to save my life. My tolerance is really low, but i use it to my advantage and get high as a fucking kite. Regarding thee dope being dirty, it is fine with me, shit gets the job done, i'm not complaining. If i could get some heroin straight from the middle east or some white china i would just stop doing drugs there and OD off that shit. I am a drug addict period lol, but i have my shit together with school and getting jobs and shit. I havent fell rock bottom.. yet.. but until then i am getting all the shit i need to get done..
 
Treefa said:
4 or 5 months huh? Well you're tolerance is still low...probably thanks to all of the dirty-ass American Street Heroin being about as pure as my intentions with any well-built, nearly petite, 6'0 Brunette with upper-end B or C cups. My intentions with a girl like that....are not pure....not at all pure, they're pretty disgusting and perverted, actually.
And however dirty my thoughts of a girl like that could possibly be, they're still nowhere near as dirty as, you guessed it...American Heroin (nothing against America, best place to be, unless you'd like clean Prescription Diamorphine, that is).

If you make it to 5 or 6 years, you'll be tired....most likely of everything...but ESPECIALLY that dirty-ass stomped on dope. What you're gonna do then is up to you, but the feeling you get now won't last forever. Dope will still work, sure, just never like it does now, so I'd enjoy it while it lasts.

And smoking heroin....come on, dude, shoot it, eat it, sniff it, shove it up you're asshole for fucksake. Why on earth people waste good (though filthy) dope by smoking it is beyond me. I mean, if you're gonna fuck with it you might as well fuck with it, ya know?
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Wow, you're telling me that street heroin is, like, dirty? And impure? An illegal narcotic which is controlled from point of origin to point of sale by drug trafficking organizations? You big kidder, I don't believe you! And here I was thinking I took a health supplement every time I shot tar... *sigh*

I'm guessing the reason that the OP smokes his dope is because he lives in Denver and chances are the aforementioned dope he's smoking is tar...which is pretty much made to be smoked...although tar is perfectly good to shoot too. If it's decent enough tar it'll dissolve down into water in minutes with a little swishing/stirring, with no heat required (although impatient tarheads will often heat their shot anyway). Mmm...good tar is awesome...

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Anyway OP, the life you describe does sound a bit like the typical life of a junkie. When I was using tar fairly regularly (smoking originally, then mostly shooting up) my life didn't descend into the abyss or anything, but it was a pretty lackluster life full of laying around on my couch, watching daytime TV as I smoked/shot dope and did nothing with my life. I was ostensibly going to school and living the life of a college student but really all I was doing was wasting my time. I'm not going to lecture you about how you're on the road to addiction, "whattaya doin' using these dirty street drugs ya big dummy?!", blah blah blah. All that shit is pointless because you know exactly what you're doing & you can read a million opiate sob stories on Bluelight from a million former or current junkies. All I have to say about the topic is that it's not a good thing when you have to use dope every day just to feel good. And, as difficult as it may be, it's important to exercise moderation when using opiates. I'm not ashamed of the fact that I used to use heroin but I value other things in my life more than dope or any other drug (which, when you really try and look at the topic objectively, are really trivial & not worth revolving your existence around) and that's why I'm not currently using.
 
heroin and daily living huh? what do i do for fun you ask, i do heroin because that is all that matters to me (when i'm in full blown addict mode) that's the honest to god truth, nothing else matters except getting well or getting high. SAD but TRUE. been dealing with opiate addiction since i was 19 and i'm 37. it only gets worse and worse.
 
mazda01 said:
heroin and daily living huh? what do i do for fun you ask, i do heroin because that is all that matters to me (when i'm in full blown addict mode) that's the honest to god truth, nothing else matters except getting well or getting high. SAD but TRUE. been dealing with opiate addiction since i was 19 and i'm 37. it only gets worse and worse.
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Yeah, it sucks when the high isn't even worth it anymore, but you have to use or get sick :(
 
I would bet all the money to my name that there's not one person who has managed a daily opiate habit without it affecting, usually destroying their life. Six months was enough for me to go from the attitude in the OP to just wanting to get the hell out. I didn't have to lose everything to lose everything, you know? I never got to the point of selling my car or anything like that, I was just dead inside and lost the respect of everyone that mattered to me, and everything that used to matter to me no longer did. If there's one thing I don't ever want to experience again, it's opiate addiction.
 
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It only works if you have access to prescription heroin. Or morphine in injectable form imo
 
Heroin isn't the only drug i do, as of now I've been up a day and half because I smoked some shards. I don't discriminate when it comes to drugs. I have my limits of course.. I know I have a very addictive personality, so I binge whatever drug I do. Money does put a damper on my quest of not being sober, but my dealer is really cool and I'm really close personally with him, so I can get fronts until I get some money. The first time I got high was off of weed and I knew from that day forward I never wanted to be sober anymore, but as stated before I have my limits because I still need to function somewhat in society and around my family.

Today since I have some shards and some black, I will probably deep clean the fuck out of my house and my car as well. I try to be as productive as I can when I'm high for two reasons. One being that's don't want to be a stereotypical addict and just nod off and sleep and the other reason is the tasks or chores I need to finish are 100x more fun to do when you're high as a fucking kite. I can clearly talk someone's ear off when I'm high off the shards. It's a great high, but I have a horrible habit of clenching my jaw and it's sore the next day and it makes eating hard. I've tried chewing gum but I think it makes it worse, chewing the gum at 100mph because I'm just fucking wired. All in all, I never have a boring day being high whether it be off black, shards, or weed I always have a fun and active day. I'm trying to change what an addict looks like lol
 
PercocetDreams512 said:
I have been doing heroin for about 4-5 months now. I started doing pills, oxy's and methadone mostly, when i was a freshmen in high school. I stuck to doing the pills and smoking weed. Sometimes i would do coke and maybe some meth, but i have always stuck to the opiates. Now that i smoke heroin, i dont even want to do anything else. The reason for this post, i am curious as to what people do on a daily basis when they do their drug of choice. What do you for fun and such questions like that?

For me, the first thing i do when i wake up is check my stash and make sure i have enough H to get to get me through the day. I then smoke some to get me on my base line for the day, not too much and not too little of course. I am currently out of school so i just chill at home and clean or catch up on doing the chores around the house. I used to work at Little Caesars, but i just got tired of dealing with picky customers on a $5 pizza. If i dont have enough H in my stash, i will go around my house looking for things to sell and such. I am very very close to my dealer, which is amazing, i can ask for fronts and then pay him back of course. This is usually my everyday life. I dont ever go out and party because i just dont like the drama and all the fake people trying to be friendly. I sometimes get high on stimulants as well, but not a lot of the time. I usually get some shards or some white, but usually shards (go big or go home right?) because i end of cleaning the shit out of my house and get a lot done that i wouldnt normally get done.

What does your everyday life look like?
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I'm moving this to DC, the mods there can decide whether it's appropriate or not. I know your a green lighter, but try to read the OD Posting Standards before you make a new thread.

Your life as a heroin addict sounds a lot like how mine was when I was a bit younger. Chilling and pawning my stuff and my families. It got a lot more exciting for me honestly when I moved to california and lost everything. Coming up with 80-200 bucks every day is a real challenge when you look like a junky but you always find a way. My ex, my friends and I would panhandle up most of our money, or we'd score for rich folks who were afraid of going into the hood. Living with a bunch of junkies and tweakers is hell, but it's kind of fun too, a lot like high school but with hard drugs. There were a lot of crazy adventures and 'missions', and you'd have to laugh about how crazy life had become, but I remember sometimes watching my friends nod out I'd realize how sad and alone the reality really was. I think eventually with dope people just stop giving a fuck completely, I pretty much did, ,as long as I had heroin and meth (and benzos) I could really put up with everything-even when my girl left me for one of our dealers, I was sad as hell but then I'd get high and it would all go away. In a way that is comforting, but it's also sort of chilling looking back on it, now that I'm off the needle-cause I feel like if I go back again it will be for good.
 
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The friggin gummy bears lolz !!!
" I went from nodding off, to nodding yes , to more H "
; ) that's the best shit I've seen all day

OP , pls. Be careful while there's a choice you can ( easily-ish ) make ...... Go read some threads on TDS and hopefully you won't be posting there in a year ( or 20 )
Life is so mf'n short .....
 
Znegative said:
I'm moving this to DC, the mods there can decide whether it's appropriate or not. I know your a green lighter, but try to read the OD Posting Standards before you make a new thread.

Your life as a heroin addict sounds a lot like how mine was when I was a bit younger. Chilling and pawning my stuff and my families. It got a lot more exciting for me honestly when I moved to california and lost everything. Coming up with 80-200 bucks every day is a real challenge when you look like a junky but you always find a way. My ex, my friends and I would panhandle up most of our money, or we'd score for rich folks who were afraid of going into the hood. Living with a bunch of junkies and tweakers is hell, but it's kind of fun too, a lot like high school but with hard drugs. There were a lot of crazy adventures and 'missions', and you'd have to laugh about how crazy life had become, but I remember sometimes watching my friends nod out I'd realize how sad and alone the reality really was. I think eventually with dope people just stop giving a fuck completely, I pretty much did, ,as long as I had heroin and meth (and benzos) I could really put up with everything-even when my girl left me for one of our dealers, I was sad as hell but then I'd get high and it would all go away. In a way that is comforting, but it's also sort of chilling looking back on it, now that I'm off the needle-cause I feel like if I go back again it will be for good.
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^ I've read similar stories like this on BL and, while I know that this kind of lifestyle exists (i.e. every day is a mission to come up with money & drugs in order to prevent "being sick") I can't really relate to it...honestly the very thing that you find appealing about "the life" was exactly the same thing that I LOATHED about it, and that's the petty interpersonal dynamics that result from a bunch of junkies hanging out with each other. I honestly really dislike most other junkies I've known, they're just a bunch of lazy fucks who are obsessed with one thing & one thing only, and that's shooting a bunch of garbage in their veins. What a sad life indeed...

In fact it was probably other users plus the unrelenting message from society-at-large that "you're a piece of shit if you're a heroin user! you're part of the problem and not the solution!" that got me to stop, rather than the destructive impact of an hard opiate habit which went on for years (with breaks here and there). If I were independently wealthy and had access to discrete & secure connections, I would probably shoot heroin every day for as long as I were able to do so. All by myself, with no other goddamn junkie scumbags around. Because honestly heroin = awesome. But fortunately I work a job I'm very proud of and have an active desire to contribute & interact with society in a productive fashion, and that limits my ability to use. I've never understood users who are satisfied with a life of panhandling or whoring (or otherwise being a bum) themselves for dope, honestly.
 
Burnt Offerings said:
^ I've read similar stories like this on BL and, while I know that this kind of lifestyle exists (i.e. every day is a mission to come up with money & drugs in order to prevent "being sick") I can't really relate to it...honestly the very thing that you find appealing about "the life" was exactly the same thing that I LOATHED about it, and that's the petty interpersonal dynamics that result from a bunch of junkies hanging out with each other. I honestly really dislike most other junkies I've known, they're just a bunch of lazy fucks who are obsessed with one thing & one thing only, and that's shooting a bunch of garbage in their veins. What a sad life indeed...

In fact it was probably other users plus the unrelenting message from society-at-large that "you're a piece of shit if you're a heroin user! you're part of the problem and not the solution!" that got me to stop, rather than the destructive impact of an hard opiate habit which went on for years (with breaks here and there). If I were independently wealthy and had access to discrete & secure connections, I would probably shoot heroin every day for as long as I were able to do so. All by myself, with no other goddamn junkie scumbags around. Because honestly heroin = awesome. But fortunately I work a job I'm very proud of and have an active desire to contribute & interact with society in a productive fashion, and that limits my ability to use. I've never understood users who are satisfied with a life of panhandling or whoring (or otherwise being a bum) themselves for dope, honestly.
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I don't hang around a bunch of junkies at all, because you are the company you keep. I have a steady job that pays bills and supports my habit. I try to limit myself on how much H or other drugs that I buy because I still need to have money for food, etc. I also go to college, so im not just getting high and not doing anything. Honestly when I get high I feel more productive and want to do more than just sit at home and nod off like a zombie. I never understood why people just love to get high. Get and high and do something!
 
bingey said:
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It only works if you have access to prescription heroin. Or morphine in injectable form imo
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Well yeah, but most people don't. And even then, there's the chance of your doctor retiring or changing their mind about your script. That's exactly what happened to all the Rx opioid users who ended up on smack or other black market opioids because the DEA basically scared doctors out of prescribing opiates to anyone but those with the most serious conditions. At least, that's how it is in the US.

Edit: I don't mean to sound like I'm just being argumentative bingey, my response was more directed for the OP. IMO Rx heroin should be available to addicts like it is elsewhere.
 
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