I believe the stuff I got was nor-diazepam, which is marginally less potent than diazepam and has a shorter half-life. 10mg was enough to make me sleeply when I first recieved the stuff, it felt like a blue roche to me, with slightly less kick. When I was taking 1000mg+ doses, it took 2-3 days to feel rid of the effects. Taking such a large dose, which is esssentially an overdose, causes paradoxical reactions, such as CNS- stimulation and agitation. One minute i was unconscious, the next i was doing something.
I have limited memory of what transpired between these periods. I'd take it on monday, and suddenly it would be wednesday, and was not sure what exactly happened in the time gap. My family also told me later that I was acting very strange, almost psychotic, and I had some falls and woke up in weird places. I got seriously injured after taking an 800mg dose of the nor-diazepam, lost all inhibitions and even lent my moms jaguar to a drug dealer who messed it all up, and jumped from the roof of my apartment to my balconey, because i thought i had lost my keys (they were in my back pocket), and fell in a strange manner that the bone of my left ankle burst through the skin and broke off. I was in the hospital for a week and had to have two major surgeries. This was the end of my playing with these super high doses.
I was not taking doses of around 1000mg every day, so i never got addicted to this dose. I also worked my way up from 20, 50, 100, 200, 300, 500,800, 1000mg. But I wasnt taking it everyday. The dose I got somewhat addicted to, or took for more than 30 days straight was around 200mg. I have titrated down from this dose to 60mg, which has not been too difficult. Again, I had only been taking the 200mg for around 30 days, so slow tapering was not much of a problem. Im guessing the most difficult aspect will be getting down from 60mg to 0mg. Even the 60mg i take currently knocks me out fast and hard, and I sleep very soundly (something that I never have been able to do). I usually take the 60mg at around 11pm, and dont really feel the onset, and when it kicks in, I immediately fall asleep sitting in my chair and wake up at usually 2am, then go to bed, and sleep well . I plan to slow down my tapering, untill hopefully I reach zero. I have an infinate supply for my purposes, (like another 85 grams) so that isnt a worry. I can take this as slow as is comfortable.
Again, I have not reduced my dose from 1000mg to 60mg, as this would be a magnificant feat. Since i was only taking the 200mg everynight for month (this dose still was high enough to cause strange behavior), but it wasnt too hard to reduce my dose, 10mg at at time. I think it will be more difficult for me to get off this 60mg, which still is no small dose. I simply need to figure out how i'll sleep after I quit taking this stuff.
