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AfterTheAshes

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Hi. Chat GPT recommended this community to help me quit coke, so I’m giving it a try. I simply cannot go back to rehab for the 5th time, so I’m trying all the free resources there are, before I die. I won’t go into all the spicy details of my life story, just know it’s long and tragic. I’m very very very lucky to be alive still, and I really don’t want to die young, so I know I have to stop. I already have mitral regurgitation, I highly suspect if I continue to use I will die the way my uncle did, young and tragically. I really don’t want to throw away the 20th chance I’ve gotten at life, and I’d like to do something with my life. But the truth is, I’ve been doing blow everyday for the past month, before that, I was an occasional user, but now I’m dating a drug dealer so I get free drugs…
I have bpd, bipolar II, CPTSD, anxiety, and adhd, as well as mild neurocognitive disorder—meaning life is already a struggle, drugs or no drugs. It’s no wonder I fell back into it so hard. After the last rehab, I stayed cleanish (continued to use marijuana) for about 9 months. That’s the longest I’ve ever gone. But I always come back. I think I’ll leave it at that for now. I’m just here trying to save my own life. Any support or feedback is welcomed and encouraged. TIA.
 
Welcome to BL, hope you get something here towards what you need.

No point in beating around the bush so am just gonna say straight off that if you want to quit, you are going to have to separate from the dealer first.

If you want to stop and dealer/partner is giving you free drugs they do not have your wellbeing at heart - period.
 
Welcome to BL, hope you get something here towards what you need.

No point in beating around the bush so am just gonna say straight off that if you want to quit, you are going to have to separate from the dealer first.

If you want to stop and dealer/partner is giving you free drugs they do not have your wellbeing at heart - period.
Thank you for your feedback. Honestly, I haven’t expressed to him that I want to stop for fear of him stopping giving me free drugs. But I hear you loud and clear, and know what I need to do.
 

That ChatGP gave solid advice, the reason i laughed,
not about what your going through. I hate Coke,
still let it drain my bank account and be at places i regret being.

Got AD[H]D, yeah MethylPhenidate aka kiddie-Coke.
That didn t help, on dextro-Amphetamine now ☯️

Coke when offered now i would politely say no, thank you,
back then other-way round, but a good GP, seriously.
Which one, i never used one ? Is that allowed to disclose.
On Bluelight, the rules are tightened up.

So before answer i ll check the rules, for sponsor sake, 1-st.

Welcome
 
Welcome to Bluelight, I am going on 6 years free of that stuff and I know very well that the struggle is real. As someone has said we got your back here. I'm somewhat new here also but I wanted to echo that sentiment.
 
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