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[Usmc22]

Good morning/afternoon/evening Sir or Ma'am

I need help and I don?t know what to do. Let me give you a little back story. I was just discharged from the Marine Corps a little over 10 months ago. Everything was great, partying hanging with my girl, and with my family. Here?s where it goes wrong: I have a history of taking pyschedilcs like: orange sunshine(fucked me up when I was 17 - and was hospitalized) Lsd, mdma, ketamine, etc etc basically all of those and is mass quantities. I like to trip and go to shows or whatever. So anyways, Back to most recently, over Christmas break I bought about 5 grams of Molly to share with my family and go to concerts and what not. Anyways everything was great until one night. I took just two finger dips and was expecting to roll just a little for the night as my brother was home from college. Casually feel good while we?re all drinking.

That was December 21st and since then I have been a zombie, lethargic, stopped working out, suicidal, unmotivated, and feel abnormal all the time. I feel like I have this cloud presssing over my head and brain and nothing is real or has no meaning to it. I can sleep 12 hours easily and I?ve been gaining weight. Anyways, I saw an old psychiatrist and he got me back on Gabapentin 1200 mgs 3x a day.

I am seriously messed up all day, I can barely write this but I can?t stand it anymore. If anyone knows how to help me, I?m ready. I?m really sad and it?s affecting all my relationships. I?m getting in stupid arguments with my girlfriend, I?m crying all the time, im trying to exercise and eat write. It?s been 2 months strong, the gabapentin makes it bearable but I?m not the happy motivated person I used to be.

Thank you and have a nice day.

 

[Deleted member 290563]

sorry. You'll see on this board that people do recover from what you are experiencing. It seems to take a long time at least 3 months to years even. You are only 2 months in so hang in there.

How often were you using mdma before this bad roll? had you used this "molly" before, did you test via reagent kit or lab analysis?


I'm thinking the gabapentin isn't doing much for you and could complicate the recover. don't do any recreational drugs including alcohol during your recover.

 

[G_Chem]

Good questions ^^^

I'm also curious, that night, was the experience mellow as expected or was it an intense experience? Also where was this "molly" obtained? Was the molly tested?

We appreciate any answers you can give us as it helps figure out this issue which is plaguing many right now. Thank you,

As for things that will make you feel better. Exercise (especially cardio causes neurogenesis), healthy whole food organic diet (go full hippie on this one, seriously), fish oil (neurogenesis), magnesium l-threonate (many benefits but I believe a magnesium deficiency could be a possible factor in all of this, it also modulates serotonin), no drugs! I also don't like suggesting it as it's risky but those that I've heard try it have only had benefits, microdosing or low dosing psychedelics. Only taking a dose which will help with neurogenesis and possibly reprogram oneself away from the damn near ptsd like symptoms that seem to be associated with this illness. Again that last one is risky, but follow the above even when it feels rough and you'll come out ok I promise.

-GC

 

[indigoaura]

If you have any left, I would start off by sending some of the product off to a lab to see what it was. Who knows what it was if you did not test it. What was your experience like?

Also, a "finger dip" is a really imprecise measurement system. You may have gotten way too much. Hard to really say what your effects are from without knowing how much you took, or what you took.

My recipe for self-healing is vitamin C and methyl B12 (preferably a spray or other sub-lingual product). Methyl B12 (methylcobalmin) is an amazing product. I use a spray from a brand called Garden of Life.

Sorry you are going through this. Just remember, it will get better. This is temporary.