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HELP...Lost the magic!

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mike_y13

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I haven't had E in about 4 years, except one or two times when the opportunity presented itself a few years ago. However, prior to that I was huge into that wonderful little pill and used to take them almost every night for atleast 2-3 months (want to say it was prolly longer but I can't remember how long this went on, however I'm almost certain it wasn't longer then a year). I ofcourse noticed that the feeling started to go away. I'm not sure if it was because the quality of pills I was getting got worse or is I had just built a tolerance but nonetheless I still had some effects. As I mentioned, I quit using, as my dealer got very sick from drug use (I think it was mainly caused by oxys and/or coke) and needed to quit dealing for his health. Being 19/20 at the time and seeing a close friend dying from excessive drug use was enough to keep me off them for a while. However, I did save a few for a rainy day which I did with a girlfriend a few years later who was moving away for uni. Those effected me but if I remember correctly still no visuals. So here we are about four years later; I was giving a good friend a ride and he was on the phone. Turns out it was his dealer calling because he had come into some e. My friend said no then explained to me how another mutual friend owed him some money and had instead tried to give him a number of ecstasy pills he had being trying to get rid of for some time as he couldn't do them (his job drug tests). Seeing a perfect opportunity I paid his debt and took his pills (I got a ton for a really REALLY good deal). I was excited to have them again, planning on taking one to remember the feeling and save the rest for the perfect moments. However after an hour I felt nothing...ok I'll take one more, I thought...nothing....another...still nothing. The next night I decided ok I'll take four at once and they will have to hit me...two hours later I felt absolutely nothing. In fact, I drove over to my friends to prove my pupils were as tiny as can be and I wasn't even jittery. Thinking it must be the pills I bought some of the ones the dealer from the other day had called about...still nothing. I took some of the original ones and handed them out to a few friends. One who had never tried them, and two who had in the past but not nearly as much. All three were high as can be. Is there anyway to find the magic again? This isn't just deminished feelings, I have absolutely no effects from the E. My pupils don't even dialate. I don't wanna go back to abusing them but id love to do what I should have done in the first place and save the ones I have left for years. Taking them on special occasions when the opportunity comes up.
 
Are you on any anti depressants?
How long before, did you eat before you took the pills?
Maybe the pills were duds
 
When I lost the magic I'd still feel something just not any euphoria. It was like I'd still get wired but all the good effects were gone.
 
MDMA is one of the drugs most commonly "faked"- there are tons of colorful little pills that go around with cute stamps on them that are sold as MDMA, but contain something else entirely, or just a little MDMA to fool an initial reagent test kit. I do not know the percentage of pills sold as MDMA that aren't because it's impossible to track- but in some areas it's likely over 50%, others it's likely around 20% (and thats on the low end).

This is why you see so many threads started and closed here asking "what did I take?", and why even in my signature I direct you to a pill testing database.

If all pills were a strong quality dose of MDMA and very little other active ingredients, it would be great, but this is not the nature of something that it illegal. Pills vary GREATLY in quality and contents, this is why most of use the dancesafe or ezTest kits. There is no safe source. Ever. Ever.
 
You don't loose the magic, you get bad stuff. My friends always test first, don't ingest protein powder or take medication that could have a negative side affect. I believe aspirin is the only safe thing to take. My dog likes metholyne, its like a weak mdma, and when he barks he feels great.

So your friends may have had that and never actually tried mdma.
 
I don't think it's fully possible to lose the magic altogether unless you're absolutely foolish with MDMA.

The only thing you can really lose is the element of surprise. Good molly with 2-3 month moderation, is still good molly. A test kit and a trustworthy, intelligent dealer are going to be your biggest allies for regaining the magic.
 
I think you can very much lose the magic. I don't mean they won't have any effect on you because they will. but I mean the real magical feelings you got when you first did them can be lost, forever as far as I can tell. Whether it's just getting too used to the effects or whether it's brain chemistry I can't possibly say. But I don't believe I'll ever feel like I did in the first year of doing E's a couple of decades ago.
 
You can if you use it too often. I started using it when I was about 17 and I completely regret being so wreckless with it. Now when I when I do it, once every few months, I never get back to that place I used to. I think a break of like 2 years could possibly restore you back to normal...i'm only saying that cuz a friend of mine took it again for the first time in 2 years and it was like seeing a kid on christmas morning. Made me wanna stop for a few years too...easier said than done.
 
In the world of dealing, its called you got ripped off. Very simple to do with little pills. I had a friend buy 50 or so pills. I told him it was a terribad idea, to just wait till he found molly. He was so excited he blew two pay checks on 50 pills at a amazing price. (this is where he went wrong, irrestible price means shitty shit.) He took ten in one night and didnt feel anything. Not sped up, or tired, rolling. Next night ate 20. Still nothing. What does it tell you?
 
^ That he's an idiot, anyone stupid enough to neck 20 pills because they don't seem to be working really shouldn't be doing drugs. Maybe natural selection will get him one day.
 
you get dud pills every now and then especially if u get them from somewhere new that u dont know, iv noticed over time that my body has become somewhat more tolerant to pills, i havent lost the magic (im sure thats impossible with good pills) but i do need more pills now to get the high effect i used to get on just the 1 8( lol

id agree the pills u prob got were shitty happens sometimes :(
 
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