First Bad Comedown
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On Halloween I took two tabs, after having taken two the previous weekend. Then the next day, I took a half. My lifetime total is about 30, most of which were spaced out better.
Three days later I freaked out like I was dying. Fever, chills, abdominal swelling, tachycardia, euphoric rushing in my head, extreme fear and immense sadness all lasted 6 hours!
Then the next day it was 4 hours. Then the next day 3.
Every time my freak out seemed to result in the process of digestion. It would happen at night.
After I managed to shit a few times, my freak out abated, each time. After starvation I seemed to level out, but once I started eating again....back to square one!
Now 25 days after, I am still having horrible symptoms from eating any solid food.
Obviously, I have been terrified I have done seratogenic damage to my neurons. The emotional aspect of this is unreal.
But, here is my confession: on Halloween I also gave myself a large-volume enema. No shit.
If you must know, it helps the prostate big time by moving the drug all the way through the digestive tract. It also improves the erection. Moving on...
So I think I used too much water and injured myself! For a few days after I even saw blood in my stool.
I use an unbelievable amount of water, even according to my gay friends. And no....I'm straight.
I believe I may have herniated a part of my large intestines or caused appendicitis!
Either that, or I have MDMA toxicity!
Or both...
I read that 90 percent of your seretonin receptors are in your digestive tract. Also, people with certain bowel disorders are known for having major depression and anxiety. Maybe my injury caused a major drain on my seretonin supply, which was non-existent.
A friend of mine who had a 'telescoping intestine' said he freaked out much like I did. He tried reassuring me that I have not done enough E to hurt myself. But I can't help but believe the worst, because the cerebral buzzing and immense fear hits me like a train! Also, another friend had to have an appendectomy the day after candy flipping, and he too had fever and freakout syndrome.
After losing 20 pounds that I didn't need to lose, I am about to go to the hospital and have it checked out. But I want the most opinions I can get here, especially from people that have had long term recovery.
Big Questions:
When you were bedridden and coming down, was food always the culprit?
When you starved yourself, did you receive complete relief of your symptoms?
Or were your symptoms bad regardless of starvation?
I know many of you have done a lot more tabs than I have, and will likely tell me that I am freaking out over the wrong thing. I really hope you are right. What I have gone through these last three weeks I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy...
If anyone had a long term recovery and their symptoms were tied directly to digestion, I would like to know.
If you can tell me that anxiety and head buzzing occurred anytime, that would be reassuring.
I wouldn't be here if I weren't serious. I would actually say I have had near-death experiences several times this month. At least it felt like it. I am still afraid of the next episode.
I never thought I would be so eager to have surgery, either!
Thanks for all your help, people.
Three days later I freaked out like I was dying. Fever, chills, abdominal swelling, tachycardia, euphoric rushing in my head, extreme fear and immense sadness all lasted 6 hours!
Then the next day it was 4 hours. Then the next day 3.
Every time my freak out seemed to result in the process of digestion. It would happen at night.
After I managed to shit a few times, my freak out abated, each time. After starvation I seemed to level out, but once I started eating again....back to square one!
Now 25 days after, I am still having horrible symptoms from eating any solid food.
Obviously, I have been terrified I have done seratogenic damage to my neurons. The emotional aspect of this is unreal.
But, here is my confession: on Halloween I also gave myself a large-volume enema. No shit.
If you must know, it helps the prostate big time by moving the drug all the way through the digestive tract. It also improves the erection. Moving on...
So I think I used too much water and injured myself! For a few days after I even saw blood in my stool.
I use an unbelievable amount of water, even according to my gay friends. And no....I'm straight.
I believe I may have herniated a part of my large intestines or caused appendicitis!
Either that, or I have MDMA toxicity!
Or both...
I read that 90 percent of your seretonin receptors are in your digestive tract. Also, people with certain bowel disorders are known for having major depression and anxiety. Maybe my injury caused a major drain on my seretonin supply, which was non-existent.
A friend of mine who had a 'telescoping intestine' said he freaked out much like I did. He tried reassuring me that I have not done enough E to hurt myself. But I can't help but believe the worst, because the cerebral buzzing and immense fear hits me like a train! Also, another friend had to have an appendectomy the day after candy flipping, and he too had fever and freakout syndrome.
After losing 20 pounds that I didn't need to lose, I am about to go to the hospital and have it checked out. But I want the most opinions I can get here, especially from people that have had long term recovery.
Big Questions:
When you were bedridden and coming down, was food always the culprit?
When you starved yourself, did you receive complete relief of your symptoms?
Or were your symptoms bad regardless of starvation?
I know many of you have done a lot more tabs than I have, and will likely tell me that I am freaking out over the wrong thing. I really hope you are right. What I have gone through these last three weeks I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy...
If anyone had a long term recovery and their symptoms were tied directly to digestion, I would like to know.
If you can tell me that anxiety and head buzzing occurred anytime, that would be reassuring.
I wouldn't be here if I weren't serious. I would actually say I have had near-death experiences several times this month. At least it felt like it. I am still afraid of the next episode.
I never thought I would be so eager to have surgery, either!
Thanks for all your help, people.
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