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Help - I think I am GOD and thus NOTHING

netcrusher

netcrusher

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I have had the overwhelming notion that I was GOD ( last 5 trips ) and I was playing the ultimate “Joker trick” on myself because I was all that there was and this was the only way to live (thinking I was not GOD). To be amongst all the little people in a ‘duality of life experience’ ! Nonetheless, the only way I could convince myself that I was not GOD was infact to play this horrible joke on myself. Now is there any cure for this feeling as it felt like mystic truth… that was the horrible part. It felt more real… Has anyone felt this terribly egocentric notion that they were GOD, but GOD ALONE vrs NOTHING ELSE… or nothingness and that it was in danger….. H is the only option for me now
 
don't take H. your life almost certainly WILL spiral out of control if you take H to abate psychological issues.

you just have to convince yourself how irrational this idea is dude. realize that if you were God, you wouldn't have to play a trick on yourself, because you wouldn't desire the "duality of life experience." God doesn't desire - God is ultimate, culminated, and perfect in every way. Deceit and lack are not part of God's vocabulary and the fear you're displaying right now demonstrates your mortality well enough.

What I suggest is seriously going to a therapist and discussing these issues. This is clearly a psychological problem and NOT a biochemical one - taking H is one of the worst approaches you can make, and taking other drugs (such as antidepressants and whatnot) doesn't really get at the heart of the issue.

I'm aware that many people are wary of therapy, but really, you need to be to talk this out with someone who is trained equipped to handle this kind of psychological train wreck.

Whatever you do man, PLEASE stop taking the H before you get hopelessly hooked, psychologically and physically (I hope that you aren't already). None of want to see that happen to you bro <3
 
I think it's the same feeling that brings on notions of 'rebirth', 'universal oneness with creation', 'discovering the meaning of life' etc. I had an experience whereby me and the entire human race were reaching the peak of our existence, all merging into one unified being and becoming one with God. The feeling is 100% believable, but you just have to remember after you have come down that it simply just isn't true.
 
It's the solipsist dilemma, is there anybody really out there? Accept the concept of other on faith. If its a trick then you have nothing to lose, but if its not then you have everything to gain.
 
Congratulations, you now know what purpose your physical form serves, to offer home to the divine... it's really a quite common revelation when taking entheogens!

You now will have the task to integrate this revelation into your life for the rest of your days on this planet...



netcrusher said:
H is the only option for me now
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or you can just deny what happened and destroy yourself, have fun!

but really: you can't run away from yourself :) to try tu run away will hurt a lot!
 
This is a perfect example of how psychedelics are completely neutral tools--infinite potential for both enlightenment and confusion.

Here's my take, and feel free to ignore it if it's not helpful to you. Your trip amplifies both components of your Mind (big M)--the transcendent awareness you share with everyone and everything else, as well as your individual ego. In a sense, the former IS god--it is primordial, omnipresent, and the genesis of all things (this is a big concept in Buddhism and a lot of other mystic traditions). But your ego can't really comprehend this, because the nature of this awareness is to be without a distinct self. Ego steps in and says 'hey lemme get some of that,' and the only way it can interpret this is that you and you alone are god. It's an illusion borne out of a deranged ego, but with a kernel of truth in it, which is why it resonates with you, IMO.

I hope this is helpful--I've had similar experiences...feeling like I am creating the universe through my experience of it, and if I just stop playing, everything will disappear. Just ask yourself 'WHO is thinking this?' There's a part of you that thinks you're god, but not all of you, or else you wouldn't be freaked out. You don't have to get rid of that part of you--just acknowledge it's there, and that it is not the whole you, and I think a lot of this fear will subside.
 
RainbowWarrior said:
Congratulations, you now know what purpose your physical form serves, to offer home to the divine... it's really a quite common revelation when taking entheogens!

You now will have the task to integrate this revelation into your life for the rest of your days on this planet...
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This is the key here. Integration.

Take some time away from psychedelics, work on yourself and do some reading into spirituality. The sensation of Oneness with All can result in the rising awareness of nothingness from the perspective of everything. This is Self-Realization.

The loneliness is the all-encompassing understanding that their is only 'you', and you are experiencing this Self from your own unique perspective.
 
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Sometimes I think an LSD can be similar to hypnosis, with the user being the hypnotist. Then the user might take any of the hypnotic commands/suggestions for real, even if there is barely any rational explanation. From what I know in professional hypnosis the hypnotist usually sets a clear end for the hypnosis session, like snapping with his fingers or saying some "magic" words. Then the normal, rational personality of the hypnotized person comes back.

After a trip however no one snaps his fingers, even after a very deep and thorough "hypnotic" session. Usually the hypnosis wears off automatically after a while. Maybe you convinced yourself a little too much, because it all seemed so much more real than reality. But fact is that what you have acquired is not real knowledge. It is just a vision, which may or may not have significant truth behind the mental concept. Maybe you shouldn't overrate it. First of all we are biocomputers with consciousness and self-awareness. And from dreams we know that our unconscious can do some pretty interesting things. What we are beyond our biocomputer (if anything at all) may be envisioned by our creative psyche, but it is not (yet?) known in a really scientific way.
 
Interesting reading these posts.
I have learned that we create our own reality.(To a certain degree.) I'm not one of the millions of drones out there. I'm sure some of u know what I'm talking about.

I then started to think it was positive thinking that would motivate me to drive toward a certain goal and thus be successfull and happy.

Now I'm realizing that we don't create our reality and yes positive thinking does have a lot to do with success and happiness but what is positive thinking. It's called faith.

Faith in god that guides u down the right path. Makes u happy & successfull.

Truly believing in god not being a skeptic that is the best thing u can ever do.
 
Godzilla said:
Truly believing in god not being a skeptic that is the best thing u can ever do.
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By what standard? If your happy living a lie then yeah its probably comforting. A lot of us, not like you, prefer to know/seek the truth though, even if its not as comforting at first, its far more beneficial and rewarding in the long run.

I find it hilarious that monks used to dedicate their lives to whipping themselves and having horrible living conditions for a god that dosn't exist.

Postitive thinking is NOT the same as faith in god. You're ridiculous if you think otherwise.
 
Unfortunately ur confused. I'm not going to argue my point with you. Except just once.
I don't care if u believe or not.
Ultimately life will pass u by. Positive thinking is faith. Faith guides you. All I can say is I'm Probally the only person I know that is extreamly happy. Insanely in love. Wealthy. Very very healthy have a great family. I didn't have those things in the past. There is a reason and its not just positive thinking creating my reality. Evil, darkness sorrow, negativity, absence of faith. Vs light, happiness, positive thinking, faith
Misery likes company ur a perfect example of its best friend. Good luck with ur current way of thinking.
 
and you told us not to tell you because you wanted to forget? ;)
haha, seems you encountered a trickster, but dont worry, we're ALL god.

love ya
 
JSPete said:
I think it's the same feeling that brings on notions of 'rebirth', 'universal oneness with creation', 'discovering the meaning of life' etc. I had an experience whereby me and the entire human race were reaching the peak of our existence, all merging into one unified being and becoming one with God. The feeling is 100% believable, but you just have to remember after you have come down that it simply just isn't true.
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never knew how to describe what i felt on my strongest lsd trip. but i truly felt "rebirth" as if i was experiencing the moment of mans creation. kinda like the big bang.

also felt like i was living the infinite possibilities of lives i could have been born into. they only seemed to last for moments before they passed and i was something else, somewhere else.

i had tried lsd a few times before this. and til then was only able to manipulate what i could see and hear. and thought the whole hallucinating and seeing things that arent there was a myth and over exaggeration created by media and word-of-mouth.

but it is completely possible (with the right amount of lsd) to see things that arent there (for hours.) not like mickey mouse dancing around you (although i dont see why not) but more like- your reality will be in complete distortion. whether it be a evil twisted world or a heavenly world of bliss is quite dependent though upon your perception of your surroundings. which i also felt as if i could slightly control by putting effort into thinking positively.

lsd is a fuckin hell of a drug.
 
7ca5p said:
If your happy living a lie then yeah its probably comforting. A lot of us, not like you, prefer to know/seek the truth though, even if its not as comforting at first, its far more beneficial and rewarding in the long run.
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lol

There is no objective, final truth!

(apart from

"god",if you believe)


So don't go around stating things as fact that are just plain speculation because nobody could possibly prove or disprove a concept like "god"
...

If everything is an ilusion - then what is the ilusion that would make your life the happiest?

I think: That every little thing is meaningfull, makes sense!

If every little thing is meaningfull there is no room anymore for concepts like "coincidence"

but hey, you're free to choose your own ilusion, that's the greatest gift of all, what you make of it is only up to you :)
 
Last note.
Did u know rebirth means baptism.
If u as a adult accept baptism u are literally being reborn.
With a new belief.
Dude and I'm not even a person that ever talks to others about religion.
The thread just made me think.
 
Stop tripping.. Lay off the drugs for a while..

You can clearly see how illogical this belief is.. It is nothing but a delusional idea that you have come to question..
 
netcrusher said:
I have had the overwhelming notion that I was GOD ( last 5 trips ) and I was playing the ultimate “Joker trick” on myself because I was all that there was and this was the only way to live (thinking I was not GOD). To be amongst all the little people in a ‘duality of life experience’ ! Nonetheless, the only way I could convince myself that I was not GOD was infact to play this horrible joke on myself. Now is there any cure for this feeling as it felt like mystic truth… that was the horrible part. It felt more real… Has anyone felt this terribly egocentric notion that they were GOD, but GOD ALONE vrs NOTHING ELSE… or nothingness and that it was in danger….. H is the only option for me now
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If you accept the equal truth that everyone is God, only you can't see their awareness/consciousness (only their bodies)... then it isn't egocentric. Everyone is inside everyone else('s consciousness), and so everyone is everyone else.
The loneliness is the all-encompassing understanding that their is only 'you', and you are experiencing this Self from your own unique perspective.
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Well-said, only the loneliness goes away and turns into "solitude" at some point, with no need for others (but still enjoying other's company).

There's nothing ego-centric about it at all, unless it's an exclusive "I am all there is" rather than inclusive of everyone's bodymind.
 
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