Hi folks, thanks for providing this forum!
About me: 40 yr old male, alcoholic (haven't had a drink in 2.5 years). The only thing I use now is Zolpidem. I get it from my psych, just a 30 day supply of the 10mg, but there is nothing I look forward to every month than filling that prescription. I go through it in like 4 days though. The very first time I took one it was unbelievable, knocked me on my ass, even half of one would do it. Now, it takes at least four to feel _anything_. Up to 10 to really be happy. I'm afraid to look for more in illicit places because (1) I don't want to get arrested, (2) I don't want to be a miserable addict, but still it's the one thing I look forward to the most in my life, and yet I have a fairly fulfilling life otherwise. I wish I could figure out how to reduce my tolerance so that I could take just one every night and be cooooool. The other 26 or so days of the month I struggle to sleep and just count down the days till I get my next rx.
Anyway, really good reading people's questions and ideas here, I really appreciate it. I myself am not interested in escalating to anything else but I like knowing I'm not some sick loser f*ck, that other people just enjoy without judgement.
Thank you!
About me: 40 yr old male, alcoholic (haven't had a drink in 2.5 years). The only thing I use now is Zolpidem. I get it from my psych, just a 30 day supply of the 10mg, but there is nothing I look forward to every month than filling that prescription. I go through it in like 4 days though. The very first time I took one it was unbelievable, knocked me on my ass, even half of one would do it. Now, it takes at least four to feel _anything_. Up to 10 to really be happy. I'm afraid to look for more in illicit places because (1) I don't want to get arrested, (2) I don't want to be a miserable addict, but still it's the one thing I look forward to the most in my life, and yet I have a fairly fulfilling life otherwise. I wish I could figure out how to reduce my tolerance so that I could take just one every night and be cooooool. The other 26 or so days of the month I struggle to sleep and just count down the days till I get my next rx.
Anyway, really good reading people's questions and ideas here, I really appreciate it. I myself am not interested in escalating to anything else but I like knowing I'm not some sick loser f*ck, that other people just enjoy without judgement.
Thank you!
