Hi, I'm here trying to get back on my subutex which I am prescribed by our wonderful nhs substance misuse team. Reading this forum makes me so grateful for the wonderful doctors we have over here!
Ok I'm female, 35 yrs old. I have 3 amazing kids all at home with me, we have a lovely home and I have an amazing partner. They don't know that following 4 years of being clean i fucked up again, well they do know but they think I stopped again
so that is what I'm gonna do!!!
I'm prescribed 10mg subs a day, but I can change that in a phone call till I'm comfortable.
I started my jump back k to my subs from a .5g shit gear habit yesterday with a 20mg dose of subs last night felt shit, had money paid in my bank so got .4g heroin and smoked it this morning, felt absolutely jack shit from it so planning on a big dose of subs tonight. If I can sleep and wake up feeling ok then I know I can do it.
I really didn't enjoy doing gear this morning, I'm off to see my drug help doctor in a minute to see if I can have some buscopan, the clenched stomach is the worst withdrawl symptom for me.
I was stable on my subs for ages and don't know why I messed it up, but then I lost my job because of it and things spiralled sitting at home feeling sorry for myself, well enough is enough!!! I've got a shot at a great job and can't turn up sweating and stinking.
My only worry is the only way I kicked it 4 yrs ago is by going to jail for a year so that scares me.
Anyway, nice to meet y'all maybe we'll be able to help each other out!
Ok I'm female, 35 yrs old. I have 3 amazing kids all at home with me, we have a lovely home and I have an amazing partner. They don't know that following 4 years of being clean i fucked up again, well they do know but they think I stopped again
so that is what I'm gonna do!!!I'm prescribed 10mg subs a day, but I can change that in a phone call till I'm comfortable.
I started my jump back k to my subs from a .5g shit gear habit yesterday with a 20mg dose of subs last night felt shit, had money paid in my bank so got .4g heroin and smoked it this morning, felt absolutely jack shit from it so planning on a big dose of subs tonight. If I can sleep and wake up feeling ok then I know I can do it.
I really didn't enjoy doing gear this morning, I'm off to see my drug help doctor in a minute to see if I can have some buscopan, the clenched stomach is the worst withdrawl symptom for me.
I was stable on my subs for ages and don't know why I messed it up, but then I lost my job because of it and things spiralled sitting at home feeling sorry for myself, well enough is enough!!! I've got a shot at a great job and can't turn up sweating and stinking.
My only worry is the only way I kicked it 4 yrs ago is by going to jail for a year so that scares me.
Anyway, nice to meet y'all maybe we'll be able to help each other out!
