fakeplastictrees4
Bluelighter
Hi, I am not exactly new (been lurking, posted once like a few months ago) but anyways thought I'd introduce myself seeing as im going through a very hard time in my life right now and I feel as though the internet will be a good way to vent because I have problems with expressing my feelings in person to my friends when it gets this bad. *my internet usage tends to spike up when I become depressed 
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So anyways I'm just a 17 yr old girl, highschool student / part time cook. I have probably done a bit too many drugs and I'm paying the price for it now, abusing mdma, dexedrine and alcohol really ends up fucking with you. The other drug use I wouldnt exactly call abuse.... Right now im severly depressed, can't leave the house wont go to school having ridiculous suicidal thoughts. Cant eat, cant sleep. Can't look anyone in the eyes anymore. I have even gotten back to self harm. Which just makes me feel even worse. But I guess if someone wants to know more they could just ask. I really appreciate all the help this board has already given me. the people here on bluelight are among the best on the internet. On no other message board do i see so little discrimination, judgement or pointless internet ego arguments. So thanks for reading if you have, hope to meet u all and get to know u.
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*So anyways I'm just a 17 yr old girl, highschool student / part time cook. I have probably done a bit too many drugs and I'm paying the price for it now, abusing mdma, dexedrine and alcohol really ends up fucking with you. The other drug use I wouldnt exactly call abuse.... Right now im severly depressed, can't leave the house wont go to school having ridiculous suicidal thoughts. Cant eat, cant sleep. Can't look anyone in the eyes anymore. I have even gotten back to self harm. Which just makes me feel even worse. But I guess if someone wants to know more they could just ask. I really appreciate all the help this board has already given me. the people here on bluelight are among the best on the internet. On no other message board do i see so little discrimination, judgement or pointless internet ego arguments. So thanks for reading if you have, hope to meet u all and get to know u.
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