Hi everyone. Used to post here briefly years ago (maybe 10 years or so, has it been that long?) After many years of the chaos of addiction I've finally decided to get clean. For the first time in my life I am not using, nor am I on any maintenance drugs. It took a lot of pain to get here but I feel like it's finally over. I've become somewhat frustrated with traditional treatment models and 12 step programs yet I am still trying to reach out to figure out how to get better as I really don't know how to live clean. Seems somewhat ironic i thought to try coming back to post on bluelight after getting clean lol. Anyway I'll be around here for a bit I've always liked this forum, just saying hi.

