Hello my sweet little bluelighters ^^

[December Flower]

Ah, I see your taste buds are tuned for quality. My current favorites are Graminger Berggeist and Faust Schwarzviertler. The former has a very distinct taste that other dark beers don't have.

Graminger Berggeist Dunkler Weizenbock - 9 Flaschen

Ein dunkles, süffiges Starkbier mit einem Stammwürzegehalt von 17% und einem Alkoholgehalt von 6,8% Vol. Der Berggeist wird nachüberliefertem Originalrezept gebraut. Aus dem Berggeist ist übrigens unser Teufel - Logo entstanden.

www.biershop-bayern.de

Faust Schwarzviertler - 9 Flaschen

Charakter: feurig-dunkle Bierspezialität mit ausgewählten Spezialmalzen. Röstmalzaromatisch, mit leicht rauchigen Karamell- und Bitterschokonoten. Vollmundig mit trockenem Abgang.

www.biershop-bayern.de

Sweet stuff~

 

[Jabberwocky]

Thank you for reading and I hope you tell me a little bit about yourselves too. That goes for both my fellow bitchqueens and the lowly male species in this forum

Thank you for writing! That was awesome! Welcome to Bluelight!

A little bit about me huh? Well, i am very different, when compared to you. A 40 year old male from Finland. I got drunk for the first time at age 15 and basically i have been an alcoholic since the first time i felt the effects of alcohol. I like to smoke cannabis too, but i don't smoke anywhere near as much as i used to. Cannabis is excellent for my alcoholism, though. It helps me to drink significantly less, or to not drink at all. However, i sail between the ports of mental pain and mental numbness. Aiming to be in the state of numbness. That is where alcohol (beer) steps in. Sometimes benzos, doing my absolute best to avoid taking benzos simultaneously with alcohol because that leads to stupid shit happening. Coffee to wake me up in the morning, some more coffee in the afternoon, then coming down from it to at least somewhat be able to try to sleep at night. No coffee if i am drinking alcohol. Strong cigarette addiction. Did a lot of all kinds of drugs for years and years when i was younger, but not anymore.

I am insane. And i am a loser. I try to respect everyone and really focus on not offending people. Sometimes i fail that. Vegetarian. Loner, rarely lonely though. I have only a few friends and i rarely see them. Prone to believing in some conspiracy theories. A total music lover, but not musical at all, i don't play any instrument and my singing voice is awful. I listen to music all the time if i am at home, unless i am in the sauna or shower, cooking, or sleeping. Therefore, i am listening to music right now, too.

That pretty much sums up me. Looking forward to read your posts on the forum, and reply if i feel like i have something to say. Great introduction post from you right there! That really impressed me, i mean it

 

[Hexenstahl]

got drunk for the first time at age 15 and basically i have been an alcoholic since the first time i felt the effects of alcohol.

I hope you can find help and eventually overcome alcoholism. I feel with everyone who struggles with alcoholism because my grandfather shot himself while having a delirium tremens when I was still little. I don't mind the occassional beer, but seeing people get drunk just reminds me of him and makes me sad.

And i am a loser.

I don't know you, but you're not a loser. Everyone has the potential to turn the corner and make their life better. If you ever need to get something off your chest, shoot me a PM and we can talk.

I try to respect everyone and really focus on not offending people.

Being a respectful person is always a good thing...just don't turn into a spineless dood ^^

Vegetarian.

That's totally fine, Hitler was a vegetarian too : = D

I have only a few friends

Better to have a few, but loyal friends than a big social circle of pseudo-friends who cut and run as soon as you have a problem. I only have three people in my life that I would call really good friends and these are my sis and two of my colleagues that I know since primary school.

Prone to believing in some conspiracy theories

Heeeey, then you probably check into bitchute regularly, right? Seems we have something in common ^^

A total music lover, but not musical at all, i don't play any instrument and my singing voice is awful.

My mom gave me harp lessons when I was little. I think i still got it in me...

I listen to music all the time if i am at home, unless i am in the sauna or shower, cooking, or sleeping. Therefore, i am listening to music right now, too.

Whatcha listenin to? What genres?

 

[Jabberwocky]

@Hexenstahl

I hope you can find help and eventually overcome alcoholism. I feel with everyone who struggles with alcoholism because my grandfather shot himself while having a delirium tremens when I was still little. I don't mind the occassional beer, but seeing people get drunk just reminds me of him and makes me sad.

Thank you. I know where to find help from. And i truly hope too, that i can eventually overcome alcoholism. I just can't see that as a realistic thing to happen, at least regarding the near future. I am sorry that i brought such a horrifying memory back to your mind with what i wrote. And i am sorry for your loss. Yes, that was a relatively long time ago, but it was a loss anyway.

I don't know you, but you're not a loser. Everyone has the potential to turn the corner and make their life better. If you ever need to get something off your chest, shoot me a PM and we can talk.

I know a few things about myself. And i am a loser. Thank you for your supporting and encouraging words. You can also shoot me a PM anytime, if you need to get something off your chest, or if you don't.

Being a respectful person is always a good thing...just don't turn into a spineless dood ^^

Yeah the spine thing... There is not much of a spine, but i am not completely spineless.

That's totally fine, Hitler was a vegetarian too : = D

I hear that a lot. The amount of people who point that out to vegetarians is amazingly high.

Better to have a few, but loyal friends than a big social circle of pseudo-friends who cut and run as soon as you have a problem. I only have three people in my life that I would call really good friends and these are my sis and two of my colleagues that I know since primary school.

I completely agree with this one. And i am pleased that you have a few really good friends too

Heeeey, then you probably check into bitchute regularly, right? Seems we have something in common ^^

Bitchute? Next to never. But i see links to bitchute on some conspiracy sites often.

Whatcha listenin to? What genres?

Tons of stuff. Depending on my mood, and if i want to attempt to change that mood into some different mood, or make that current mood even stronger or keep it as it is. Rap. But i don't want the lyrics to include glorification of substance use, glorification of violence, or objectifying women. So a big chunk of rap is gone due to those reasons. Metal. Rock. Grunge. Some well done, well thought pop (but autotune should be eradicated from this universe). Some calm music without any vocals. There really is very much of all kinds of stuff, hard to come up with a good that covers it all.

 

[Hexenstahl]

I am sorry that i brought such a horrifying memory back to your mind with what i wrote.

No don't feel sorry. You didn't know about that.

I know a few things about myself. And i am a loser.

I simply refuse to accept that

I hear that a lot. The amount of people who point that out to vegetarians is amazingly high.

Lol yeah...and he also loved animals.

Bitchute? Next to never.

WHAAAAT?? Don't say you still support YouTube. Censorship has ramped up like crazy since 2020.

Rap. But i don't want the lyrics to include glorification of substance use, glorification of violence, or objectifying women.

Isn't there something called "conscious rap" where they rap about more meaningful and deep stuff like philosophy, spirituality, etc.? That's something you might like.

Metal.

Say no more.

 

[Jabberwocky]

@Hexenstahl

WHAAAAT?? Don't say you still support YouTube. Censorship has ramped up like crazy since 2020.

I listen to lots of music from youtube. And watch music videos. Conspiracy shit is forum stuff, and then checking the claims from various sources. Text sources.

Isn't there something called "conscious rap" where they rap about more meaningful and deep stuff like philosophy, spirituality, etc.? That's something you might like.

I think i have heard that term. I like that "meaningful and deep stuff" but what i meant, was that the rap i listen is very much criticism for the state of society and humankind in general. Pointing out injustice and explaining solutions what should be done about it.

The metal was from your country? I don't understand German Sounded kinda badass though

Here is metal from my country:

 

[Hexenstahl]

I listen to lots of music from youtube. And watch music videos. Conspiracy shit is forum stuff, and then checking the claims from various sources. Text sources.

I prefer reading conspiracy books actually (H.G. Wells' The Open Conspiracy is very eye opening), but most of the time I watch/listen to podcasts. There is also a number of historical papers that I've read and which tell a very different story as opposed to what we learn in school. But this is getting OT here...

he metal was from your country? I don't understand German

Yep.

 

[Mr. Krinkle]

 

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[AbbeyLee]

Kershaws are indeed quite practical for security. When it comes to self-defense however, especially if it's a life or death situation, I prefer a serpentine shiv because the wounds such blades cause don't close easily. I learned this from my superior when I still served in the Bundeswehr. Aside from that they look elegant too ^^
https://ae01.alicdn.com/kf/H0cba491...ser-EDC-Schneiden-Werkzeuge.jpg_Q90.jpg_.webp


Too chaotic and disorderly for my taste. I like something with more rythm and melody.


Low dose dissos feel great actually. Completely forgot to mention that, even though I take them rarely.


No, I'm into what in german is called "Schwarze Romantik" (dark romanticism).
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipe...z_Two_Young_Girls_or_the_Beautiful_Rosine.jpg
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipe...es_-_Witches_Sabbath_-_Google_Art_Project.jpg
https://der-schwarze-planet.de/word...ann-Heinrich-Fuessli-thor-midgardschlange.jpg



I'm planning to create an album of all my knives once I have bought proper glass cabinets to showcase them.

My most recent purchase is a cool kitchen knife with a shark fin aesthetic from FrostFerrumForge:


I actually use this one in my kitchen. It's an absolute eyecatcher when my friends visit me.
I also bought a small and slick version of that knife for decoration.


Long story short: when I started my career in the military, me and a couple of people in our battalion became friends and tried an extremely long acting hallucinogenic drug (can't remember exactly what it was) during a night where we were not on active duty. I was actually suprised that someone offered us psychedelics as it is not really considered to be a "soldier drug". Amps, benzos and opis were common but not psychedelics. Anyway, we became curious and decided to try it out. During that time I had the wrong ideas about psychedelics. I thought it just makes you see cool and outlandish stuff. I wasn't aware that it can actually cause delusions, horror trips and bring subconscious baggage to the conscious mind. I have only hazy memories of that night but eventually something happened, we were seperated and I was suddenly marching with another battalion of sober soldiers (lol) and the sergeant yelling something in a terrifying guttural voice that sounded like a zombie giving orders and the others around me repeating it. They sounded like the zombie hordes in Black Ops 1 (they actually sound funny in the game but not when tripping). I was somehow able to play along and appear calm and collected despite having the most intense anxiety attack of my life. Eventually, after what felt like many endless hours of marching and carrying boxes around, we were finally released and I somehow managed to find myself back in the barracks of my original battalion, took a bunch of benzos and woke up the next night with a halfway clear head.

Words can't really convey the horror I experienced and it took a couple of months until I was completely normal again, but since that event I never touched psychedelics again. Maybe one day I'll find the courage to try out a low dose of lsd or shrooms in a safe setting, but until then I will keep hating hallucinogenics with a passion.


Ofc we are my weird yellow friendo

I love the one in that first link

 

[AbbeyLee]

 

[ghostandthedarknes]

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