Hello and some help please

[Schmeeer]

Hi there..

Thanks for letting me join your forum..
Thought it best to say hi first rather than just Wade in, but I am looking for some advice.

I take 200mg pregabalin 3 x a day (prescribed) for anxiety.

I also have a stash of 1mg xanax (although I have taken my them sporadically In the past and they see to me and friends stronger than normal).
I also have some 5mg vallys.

I have had 5 Stella lagers (5%vol) today.
I had 1 x 5mg vally earlier
Just got myself in a state and took 2 xanax.
I wanna now how much dodgy ground I'm on tbh.
My current mental health issues are terrible if I'm honest.
I do often feel suicidal but not right now.
I want to know how much I can take to knock me out for a fair while, a day or two.

I've had enough and need to switch off.

If this needs to be moved to a different forum let me know..

Thank you in advance x

My apologies, I probably should have just said I am from London and not really a "user" and left it at that hey? ;_

 

[MarshmallowKitten]

Hi Schmeeer. Welcome to BL I'm so sorry to hear that you are struggling right now. A lot of us share the same issues, myself included. So I know how hard it can be. You can find lots of support over in The Dark Side. TBH I don't know a ton about benzos and I am not a doctor so I wouldn't dare try to give you advice on what you have taken today. In general though mixing alcohol and benzos is pretty sketchy. Please don't take anything more today. Although its tempting to wipe away all of our issues by going on a meds binger, its not safe and it definitely doesn't solve any problems in the end. Please check in with your psych as soon as you can and let them know how you are feeling. Best of luck.

 

[Schmeeer]

Hi Schmeeer. Welcome to BL I'm so sorry to hear that you are struggling right now. A lot of us share the same issues, myself included. So I know how hard it can be. You can find lots of support over in The Dark Side. TBH I don't know a ton about benzos and I am not a doctor so I wouldn't dare try to give you advice on what you have taken today. In general though mixing alcohol and benzos is pretty sketchy. Please don't take anything more today. Although its tempting to wipe away all of our issues by going on a meds binger, its not safe and it definitely doesn't solve any problems in the end. Please check in with your psych as soon as you can and let them know how you are feeling. Best of luck.

Thank you for your reply.
I only normally in the past used to use benzos for a come down so I am nor a real regular user.
Due to my condition getting worse and worse, I have no need for that now as I rarely leave the house let alone party.
I have a CPN app on Tuesday but they are pretty fucking useless and I am loathed to mention i use to like the occasional line of coke and a vally after as that s all they will focus on. It will be in my permanent record iyswim? And really it is so little in the grand scheme of things and occasional normally.

Thank you for your answer it's nice to know that someone is listening x

 

[MarshmallowKitten]

Glad to hear you have an app coming up. I have one myself tomorrow. Its always hard to know what to tell them and what to keep to yourself especially when they start jotting all that stuff down in your chart. Its like uh oh, that ones on record forever now! lol But I am learning that the more open and honest I can be, the better they can help me out even if its not always what I want to hear. And don't take any shit from them. If something really is NOT working for you then just be like hey, this isn't helping and I'd like to look at another possible solution. If you don't feel they are really listening then be straight up about it. Its their JOB to listen, respect your feelings and do all that they can to help you get better. So if that person isn't doing it, then you ask for someone else. Someone you feel you click with and can trust. Know what I mean? I've met therapists who seem to think therapy is a one way street. They think that if they tell you what to do and you do it, life will magically get better. But its not really like that. Its a whole process. You are there to work together to sort it all out. Anyway, I hope they can come up with something that will make you feel a bit better. There are lots of folks here willing to talk and listen, including myself. Feel free to reach out.

 

[Schmeeer]

Cheers honey. It's getting a bit difficult type now.
I have told them that I am making a complaint about the very rude reception staff (I am always ultra polite) and the lack of continuity of care. They seems pretty cool with that and gve me the info about how to do it.

I suddenly got a really bad urge but callled the Samaritans and they were lovely and I fell better now.

Sorry this all seems a bit much for my hello thread

 

[bronson]

Your welcome thread is totally fine so you know. The Dark Side as mentioned above is a great place to go for support with feeling down and suicidal thoughts when they occur.

Also check out Basic Drug Discussion for more advice on your medications. Just take my advice, and don't try to use your benzos to knock yourself out. A blackout is something you don't want to experience, and is noted for making bad feelings worse.

I hope you appt goes well, and see you around the forums.

 

[Schmeeer]

Thank you