Why is it so hard to be happy? I have no real reason to be sad but happiness feels unobtainable. I try so hard. I really do. I despair of what is to become of me. Nobody needs me and I feel like I don't have a place in this world. As the months roll by I lose more hope and I don't know what my purpose is. I have managed to fuck up every opportunity I ever had and I only have myself to blame. I am so tired. I wish I could find some meaning and direction.
