heaven knows i'm miserable now...

Why is it so hard to be happy? I have no real reason to be sad but happiness feels unobtainable. I try so hard. I really do. I despair of what is to become of me. Nobody needs me and I feel like I don't have a place in this world. As the months roll by I lose more hope and I don't know what my purpose is. I have managed to fuck up every opportunity I ever had and I only have myself to blame. I am so tired. I wish I could find some meaning and direction.
 
Many a time I have felt exactly the same and still do on occasion. I try to think to myself I do belong here whether the world likes it or not. If I keep on putting myself down and getting stuck in ruts then that only means that everyone else has won. Don't let everything get you down. I'll take on anything the world throws at me. Break things down and they get smaller. I learned this lesson from my plants. They're stubborn, moody, persistent plants.
 
Thank you for reading and commenting on my blog. I am still feeling blue but I will take your advice and see how I go. Sometimes we have to take the hand we are dealt with.
 
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