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Have i fudged myself over?? >_>

balabangla

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I started taking mdma for the first time in summer. Needless to say after my first experience I wanted more, so one and a half weeks later i took some more and it was just as intense and awesome the second time.
Now, I decided to go out the same week 3/4 days after taking MDMA the second time. This time I was really excited to see how my friends would react to me on md, but i didnt seem to feel the MDMA high that i did before, hardly felt anything, and i had consumed around 1/2 a g that night. Was I all washed out of 5HTP from the session in that same week?
After that night ended, I made some new friends and went back to their place, took some more MDMA, to keep me going, still not feeling the loved up feeling of awesomeness. We then carried on drinking, smoking and snorted the day away, and decided to get caine'd that night. That was the last of that weekend.
A week and a half later I got hold of some more mdma and took it, but still only felt vague whispy moments of euphoria but it was too mellow to tell, and nothing as great as the first 2 times. I tried again a week after and still nothing.
I then waited for a good 5 weeks and tried MDMA again and this time i felt the energy and it was slightly different to the first 2 times. It wasnt as euphoric and loved up, but I enjoyed the freedom and loved the feeling it gave me to rave and express myself through dance. It didnt feel like the loved up euphoria that i felt the first two times.
What i wanted to ask is am i losing the magic/ have i lost the magic? Especially the weekend where i rolled twice and took over a g of md. And what easy steps can i take to getting the magic back.

- sorry for the essay.
 
Welcome to bluelight. You made the same mistake I did. Taking more and more ecstacy thinking its like anyother drug with the "more the better". Well it's actually quite the contrary... please allow three months break in between rolls. I suggest you wait 3 months because your on your way to royally fucking your brain and other things up in the process. There ARE ways to find short cuts so you may roll once a month but, not suggested by the creater of mdma... shulgin. SO IN CONCLUSION DONT ROLL FOR 3 months =) oh and exercise.
 
I'd just forget about MDMA for a while, that way when you come to do it again it'll be like `new`. Just because you're with a group and they're all doing MDMA it doesn't mean you have to engage.
 
I took mdma 3 times in one month before i was educated on it, and redosed.

Don't worry, just forget about it as Cz said, and one day you will feel ready again but you may even decide to not take it again. Self Control is an important skill!
 
Thanks for all your replies people, I feel spoilt to have such a nice community to offer me sound advice at a vulnerable time :D

3 months does seem like an eternity right about now, but I will try resist for as long as I can. Ive bought some tryptophan supplements and will be taking them daily now, and will slowly wean myself off them before my next roll, hopefully that will help. Its so hard trying to be prudent like this. Nothing has ever made me plan so far ahead in the future than MD has xD.
 
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