rave_itsrealfun!!!
Bluelighter
^Yeah that's what I'm up to, a reasonably healthy lifestyle.I do think I will recover from the weed exacerbated anxiety (I think it will take years), but I also suffer from chronic back pain which is unrelated (but having chronic pain sure doesn't help with recovering from my anxiety). I'm managing the anxiety reasonably well anyways though.
There are like 4 doctors on the case trying to fix my back, they can't do shit to help me. I've never felt so let down by the medical system. I am much more concerned about the chronic back pain, it royally sucks to live with never-ending back pain and I've been this way for years. It is what fuelled my cannabis abuse, although the weed wasn't helping me keep physically active, it did nothing whatsoever to relieve the pain. I was already hooked when I got injured, so I attempted to treat it with copious amounts of the only drug I ever knew how to use which really didn't end well.
The only thing that helps is 2.5mg oxycodone, some equivalent dose of another opioid or some muscle relaxers but it really is a shame that I had this injury as I used to be quite athletic. I am beginning to get very frustrated about that. I have seen quite a few specialists and it's always the same garbage. I can't say that I have any trust in doctors anymore.
They were trying to push extended release anti-psychotics on me for the panic attacks (ummm I think I need the odd xanax to quickly chill me out when I have a really bad one... I'm not schizophrenic), and they wanted me on SSRI's for the chronic pain. Just how the fuck is that going to help, they can't figure out how to fix my spine problem induced by sports injury so they are going to start tampering with weird chemicals in my brain? Plus, I am far from depressed, I have a great life if you take these couple of issues out of the picture. Until they can stop dicking around and actually treat me, I shall stick to my half-percocets.
I can ride my bike 20km a day. Used to do 10 times that, fuck. Can't even go swimming or jogging anymore... it hurts me to walk or even lay in bed a lot of the time.
There are like 4 doctors on the case trying to fix my back, they can't do shit to help me. I've never felt so let down by the medical system. I am much more concerned about the chronic back pain, it royally sucks to live with never-ending back pain and I've been this way for years. It is what fuelled my cannabis abuse, although the weed wasn't helping me keep physically active, it did nothing whatsoever to relieve the pain. I was already hooked when I got injured, so I attempted to treat it with copious amounts of the only drug I ever knew how to use which really didn't end well.
The only thing that helps is 2.5mg oxycodone, some equivalent dose of another opioid or some muscle relaxers but it really is a shame that I had this injury as I used to be quite athletic. I am beginning to get very frustrated about that. I have seen quite a few specialists and it's always the same garbage. I can't say that I have any trust in doctors anymore.
They were trying to push extended release anti-psychotics on me for the panic attacks (ummm I think I need the odd xanax to quickly chill me out when I have a really bad one... I'm not schizophrenic), and they wanted me on SSRI's for the chronic pain. Just how the fuck is that going to help, they can't figure out how to fix my spine problem induced by sports injury so they are going to start tampering with weird chemicals in my brain? Plus, I am far from depressed, I have a great life if you take these couple of issues out of the picture. Until they can stop dicking around and actually treat me, I shall stick to my half-percocets.
I can ride my bike 20km a day. Used to do 10 times that, fuck. Can't even go swimming or jogging anymore... it hurts me to walk or even lay in bed a lot of the time.
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