I did MDMA for the first time in a club the other day with one friend. I was absolutely loving the high; hugging everyone, loving the music. I really wanted to kiss a girl because I knew it would feel amazing whilst high.
Me and my friend were holding hands and putting arms round shoulders etc and for some reason I stupidly asked if he wanted to give each other blowjobs. I know this is VERY gay but I am certain I'm not gay and have never felt attracted to a guy and the idea of having sex with a guy kind of grosses me out.
At the time I just really wanted to for some reason and when I asked my friend got kind of freaked out and asked if I was gay to which I said I wasn't. I think it was just because I was feeling so happy and in love with life that I just wanted to experience it and getting high for the first time with him made me feel closer to him as a person.
Since then he's been pretty disconnected and I think he's worried that I've got a crush on him or something! I'm really not sure how to handle the situation, any help would be really appreciated.
Me and my friend were holding hands and putting arms round shoulders etc and for some reason I stupidly asked if he wanted to give each other blowjobs. I know this is VERY gay but I am certain I'm not gay and have never felt attracted to a guy and the idea of having sex with a guy kind of grosses me out.
At the time I just really wanted to for some reason and when I asked my friend got kind of freaked out and asked if I was gay to which I said I wasn't. I think it was just because I was feeling so happy and in love with life that I just wanted to experience it and getting high for the first time with him made me feel closer to him as a person.
Since then he's been pretty disconnected and I think he's worried that I've got a crush on him or something! I'm really not sure how to handle the situation, any help would be really appreciated.