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Has anyone ever recorded their psychosis?

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I sometimes turn on a voice recorder when at random times during the day

That way if I hear some weird shît people can't say "Oh WeLL YouR SkitzoFreniC AnD YoU NeeD HelP"

And it does indeed get recorded, tho I'm not sure if there like a secret community troll club that specializes in making people go through a psychosis of some sort and finds it as a hilarious hobby?

I myself have been tru a real deep psychosis and know the real fear behind it, so theres no way this bothers me, tho I'm curious if other users have the same thoughts?
 
I have tried to record stuff i thought i was hearing and listen to walls etc in stimulant psychosis combined with benzodiazepines withdrawal (which really gives you a good feel for what its like to be psychotic).

Interesting to have experienced it, but i can assure you none of it is real.

I had a homeless friend who lived in his truck and was in full methamphetamine psychosis. I used to use a voice changer app, and i would say things like (in a deep intimidating voice), "hey man ive been seeing you in my spot" and other things to antagonize him. Once he jumped out half naked and nearly pepper sprayed me (pepper spray i had given him). You'd think id be more compassionate having gone through it myself, but i am a notorious prankster and could not help myself.

I feel like i could never do this to a schizophrenic however, that is cruel...
 
negrogesic said:
I have tried to record stuff i thought i was hearing and listen to walls etc in stimulant psychosis combined with benzodiazepines withdrawal (which really gives you a good feel for what its like to be psychotic).

Interesting to have experienced it, but i can assure you none of it is real.

I had a homeless friend who lived in his truck and was in full methamphetamine psychosis. I used to use a voice changer app, and i would say things like (in a deep intimidating voice), "hey man ive been seeing you in my spot" and other things to antagonize him. Once he jumped out half naked and nearly pepper sprayed me (pepper spray i had given him). You'd think id be more compassionate having gone through it myself, but i am a notorious prankster and could not help myself.

I feel like i could never do this to a schizophrenic however, that is cruel...
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Yes that's the word "pranksters"

I swear I've recorded some of friends say in a really loud low pitch voice say "I'm a time traveler and I've been following you"

Then to only show them the recording and having a good laugh at it

But fr of they have done that to me before my psychosis I would have already been tripping out and overthinking random paranoid ideas loool
 
I’d be intrigued if people would watch a recording of themselves and it would actually help them.

I have OCD so sometimes if I’m not comfortable I get negative voices and I might sit in that same spot again and I’m fine.
I just also want to laugh at myself when I check things more than once, more than twice, more than 15 times.
 
I once ate too much home-grown Psilocybe Cubensis mushrooms, and became, well, "mad as a hatter."

Every number, like 1,2 3 and 4, would have it's own, hidden and occult meaning. This meant, that I'd freak out when switching the tv channels from channel 1 to channel 2, or seeing that the clock was 4'o clock.

:/
 
yah arnold said:
I sometimes turn on a voice recorder when at random times during the day

That way if I hear some weird shît people can't say "Oh WeLL YouR SkitzoFreniC AnD YoU NeeD HelP"

And it does indeed get recorded, tho I'm not sure if there like a secret community troll club that specializes in making people go through a psychosis of some sort and finds it as a hilarious hobby?

I myself have been tru a real deep psychosis and know the real fear behind it, so theres no way this bothers me, tho I'm curious if other users have the same thoughts?
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My exes mom was a real psycho hose beast who would use the intercoms in the house on super low and whisper shit through them. ??? I recorded it on my phone and laptop and guess what? The audio was still there when I was not high.

That is truly an unlikely scenario, though.
 
not the same, but i've been recorded while in a blackout state of intoxication from benzos & alcohol, scary to watch. though goes a long way to explain things like waking up covered in blood or in a motel...or jail
 
I get thoughts in my head and feel like I have to say them but have to hold back. Feel like my house is being bugged and that I've got an audience. I stopped my benzos but I have mental health problems. I've started a abusing my diazepam again and cocodomal and zopiclone which I saved up. Now I'm wanting to drink again and abuse prescription drugs am I psychologically fucked
 
It certainly in the up coming part has some content you could see has some thing to it.

My close friend had a psychose on more then one account. Got triggered in his adolescence when we where on a short vacation. He kept hearing voices instead of the sound of the train. Evt one of my friends came from the balcony to the coupe we were in. Saying something like '... is acting real weird' with a scared look on his face.

His later ones seemed to contain different plateu's. The upcoming faze was like he was above normal human capacity. Thought's were fast and he was very spot on in seeing through thing's.

Then after his mind racing at highest gear and missing night's of sleep. The once lucid, often theological based remblings started to become chaotic mumbling's. With paranoia setting in the end he could get scary though never dangerous. But a roar next to your ear, climbing a curtain at yo neigbour's place.

He would talk me under the table even when I was amped on sulphate in the start up faze.
 
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during a particularly bad psychotic episode of mine caused from meth making my psychosis a million times worse, a family member recorded my freak out. it was extremely uncomfortable to watch. at least i know what i went through wasnt real, even though it took me months to dismiss the hallucinations of that particular psychotic episode
 
No I don't. I almost wouldn't want to see me in it... Been to phsyc ward 5 times. Sometimes I might seem violant but I'm actually incredibly scared Nd it's fight or flight and I've (in my head) done enough running away... now it's time for all these cunts to fucken get told fuck off away with ya spying or I'm gonna fucken jazz Yas! Yeah it's scary when I'm in it..
 
Jungo871 said:
I get thoughts in my head and feel like I have to say them but have to hold back. Feel like my house is being bugged and that I've got an audience. I stopped my benzos but I have mental health problems. I've started a abusing my diazepam again and cocodomal and zopiclone which I saved up. Now I'm wanting to drink again and abuse prescription drugs am I psychologically fucked
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Dont ever tell anyone what your going through, they will only pass it on to other people and make it worse.

Your house is not bugged, or at least i hope so.

Your mind is an empty field, it doesn't care what you plant on it.

Be sure to always plant positive thoughts not negative thoughts because negative thoughts will only feed my psychosis.
 
I am a real person and im telling you

"Oh WeLL YouR SkitzoFreniC AnD YoU NeeD HelP"

I know you probably dont want to hear this but i think it is important we look at the bigger picture.

I have a love one who recently almost died from psychosis induced self injury.

I am not a doctor but what you are describing does sound like schizophrenia.

If you where my loved one i would strongly recommend you consider going to a hospital. If your fine no big deal you leave and move on. If something is wrong you can get help to avoid potentially life changing issues due to schizophrenia.
 
I've recorded myself explaining the world conspiracy stretching from DNA methylation to the Bank of Vatican. Sleep deprivation for a week while on meth. I bet I've lost half of my grey matter to that.
 
Once filmed 2 of my so called friends outside my old apartment through the keyhole for 11 minutes listening to them, one of them plotting to kick the door down and rob me, one of them saying no, arguing with each other.
I'd been awake for 6 days on a hefty amount of 3mmc, mdma, ket and etizolam.
Of course when I watched it back sober there was nothing there. Just me breathing heavily for 11 minutes and loosing my balance and falling over twice lol ?

Alot more crazy shit went down on that day 6. I think I wrote about it in a thread on TR. Cba to type it all now. But it involved werewolves and clowns with weapons at my window 3 story's up, dead animals in my bathroom and hall, an imaginary 45 min ride in back of a van with loads of ppl, climbing out on the roof with a knife etc, the whole people plotting against me, you know, the usual.

Glad I don't binge on uppers anymore lol
 
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