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Stimulants Handling an Amphetamine Psychosis

Hate the shadow people man...proper dicks.

I loathe those shadow people... I remember one night where I kept seeing 'friends' of mine out of the corner of my eye. Even though I KNEW they were fake, I would actually talk to them and tell them to GTFO in a real calm and controlled manner, haha. The shadow people on the other hand scare the shit out of me, since there is usually no color or face to them and they constantly seem to be darting around right out of sight.

Honestly from my experience once psychosis starts to kick in, its pretty easy for me to lay down and black out for a while. If at worst, I'm aware that I am seeing and hearing things that aren't there. I remind myself of that fact to keep things under control... Course it doesn't mean that one's imagination has to listen... >.<;
 
Its so easy to avoid. One word: Sleep .... yeah i know how tempting it is to keep going and going and going but if you break it up with food and sleep you're pretty much guaranteed to be okay. THats my opinion anyway.
 
What an awesome post...it gave me a laughing fit. I've not tried amphetamines in years but the original post certainly takes me back to the fun and not so fun times. Fortunately for me, the not-so fun times outweigh the fun times and I wouldn't consider touching it again.

I never got to the point of hallucinating but after being up for multiple days I was certainly delusional as hell! Had some hot sex encounters...except for the erectile dysfunction about 90% of the time. It certainly brings a new definition to "fore-play!"

To deal with the delusions, I constantly reminded myself..."YOU'RE ON DRUGS...SO DON'T FREAK THE FUCK OUT!" After a bit practice it was rather effective, but come on....you can only stay up for so many days before nothing is going to work to calm your ass down. I tried to limit my spinning sessions to one trip to the dealer per session, and I would only spend *snip NO PRICES*. I don't remember how much that got though. I do remember a few times of re-visiting the dealer mid-session. It was a bad idea for me! Ended up being bad experiences.

I have to agree with the folks on here too. SLEEP is a good idea. Even if you don't think you can sleep...just give it a shot. Perform your usual routine before going to bed and lay down. Try, as hard as it may sound, to clear your mind. If your body needs it badly enough you will fall asleep even if you just used.

Anyway....best of luck! Stay safe!
 
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funny, amp. psychosis is one of my favorite trips ever. Ive hallucinated 5x more on amps than I ever have on any psychedelic. It's nuts but soo fun

you've either never had a decent psych or your just mentally ill, a psychosis generaly isnt too much fun man.......
 
you've either never had a decent psych or your just mentally ill, a psychosis generaly isnt too much fun man.......

For real. I don't understand how anyone could possibly describe amphetamine psychosis as "fun". Yeah, it's lots of fun thinking that everyone is on to you/out to get you/whispering to each other about you/spying on you/whatever your specific mind comes up with, and having to live with this 24/7... and even though you manage to put together what's actually going on several times a day, you never fail to sink back into delusion less than 5 minutes after the fact. Man, that was a blast.
 
Hell you couldn't have convinced me for 1 second when I Psyched out. I Honestly and Truly thought I was in another dimension and you Could Not have convinced me otherwise. Now that sleep deprivation hallucination where you can tell you're just tripping cause of drugs and no sleep is totally different. Shadow People are my Friends :)
 
More wanking until your dick is sore and the tendons around your wrist are inflamed. Squeeze it till you can't shoot nomore and your balls have shrunken to the size of cherries. If that point is reached, continue to get yourself off through prostate massage. Eventually you'll find some sleep. Btw a fat dose of Diphenhydramine helps me knock my ass out when there aren't any benzos around.

I don't want to advertise or anything, but myfreecams.com has always been of great help in these situations!
 
I've never experienced any psychosis while on meth, aside from seeing shadows, and flashes of light. But the most I've gone without sleep is two days. Me and my wife have tried doing meth several different ways, and when we started bumping it, we were surprised because the high was never as good as when we smoked it. Maybe we just never got "good stuff" but everyone I knew on the shit was telling me about this "orgasmic" experience with the needle. After our second day, and a whole lot of missed veins, we finally said fuck it and decided bumping it wasn't for us. My wifes come down was terrible. She was convinced everyone was staring at her hands, looking for needle marks. She thought everyone knew. This lasted for about a week after we had bumped half a gram. The paranoia was rough. It also seemed like my comedown was twice as hard. I don't know if doing meth certain ways can increase or decrease psychosis, but the only time we've ever had serious problems with it was after bumping it. We've since gone back to smoking and snorting. And the occasional hot rail.
 
I cant describe the stress of sitting in my dark..lonely..locked* room, with my bottle of 45 adderall(10mg) on my desk, and as i take out " the last two ill do tonite" ,,and not understand why the botttle gets emptyer with every passing hour. In tge morning i have 2 leftt...idk what happened..

But this has become a commnplace activity..i kno its coming..n coming hard. Sighh..its like 2+2=5 . In middle school DARE never warned of how good drugs can cover up your problem
 
I work third shift 6pmis 430am and rely on amps to be productive. I have the antidote under my tongue good ol atypical will get rid of them corner of the eye monsters. And I feel it shred one layer of tension real softly, till im nice and relaxed
 
If I start hallucinating, I would "ground myself" to my room. That meant bringing in some food and a bottle of water and not allowing myself to leave my bedroom for any reason. Not even for bathroom breaks (too great a danger of wandering off). And that also meant turning off the computer and my phone, because not all hallucinations will come from the walls and shadows... Some of my memories and emotions would start hallucinating, which would invariably convince me that almost all of my ex-girlfriends want me back and want me to call them and email them and text them for at least four hours.

If it's really bad, I found complete pitch black would conjure much less monsters and people then a well lit room. And for god's sake, have some noise on. Silence is the worst, because then I could tell frankly when I was hearing a hallucination. Music or radio is nearly as bad, because you can easily decipher the hidden blackmail threats contained within in. A TV with nothing on but white noise and that fuzzy black and white screen was the best possible solution I ever found. TV's are designed to assault you with visual and audio disinformation, so it's much less disconcerting when the TV harasses you all night instead of normally more beniegn items like a dark hole in the drywall.

I would repeat to myself my one and only task left to me in that state, usually in a quiet whisper (the voices will talk over you, no matter how loudly you speak, so just save your energy and whisper) "I will sit on my bed until I feel sleepy. I will sit on my bed until I feel sleepy."

Upon completion of that statement, I would check to make sure my body was in a suitable location for that task -- sitting on my bed. And if not, I would return to my bed. And that's it. Usually I spend almost no time actually sitting on my bed. Most of time is spent realizing that I'm caught in some paranoid side-quest that will end up making me look stupid or be stupid and that I need to return to my bed and sit to avoid self-destruction.

I would actually remove the lightbulb from my lamp, so I would get stuck in complete darkness, and remove all my clothes so that I was naked. Because, no matter what insane scheme I was being urged into by the powerful forces behind the psychotic break, I would not leave my house naked, and I could not dress myself in the dark. Since it would take nearly an hour to change a lightbulb in that condition, I would always manage to remind myself that I'm suffering from amphetamine psychosis and would be best served by just sitting on my bed until I felt sleepy before things got out of hand.

Before I perfected this master plan to combating amphetamine psychosis, I engaged in all sorts of bad or dangerous behaviors; I went to my work once and gave my coworker $100 in cash for his coat because I was in dire need of a disguise. He declined, so I just gave him the money and climbed on the roof of the burger king and hid there for 2 hours. Then the shadow people found me, and arrested me, and somehow managed to deposit me in the back of a uhaul truck and shut the door behind me. I awoke 4 hours later, groped around in complete darkness, found my shoes and put them on, and then exited the uhaul and walked home. I discovered I had lost my gloves, my wallet, my coat, my hat, my keys and my cellphone. Lucky I kept $50 dollars in cash hidden in my backyward for "emergencies." I was able to buy replacements everything that same day, and even got my phone replaced thanks to an insurance plan.

Plan and prepare. Plan and prepare. If Batman were a drug he would be amphetamine.
 
After several days of stimulants I would find that copious amounts of GBL and Kratom would help massively. The two of them were wonderful in treating a comedown/insane hallucinations. Be careful with GBL, of course.
 
wouldnt benzos or some neuroleptics combat the temporary issues u r experiencing?


[edit: im sorry, i totally hi-jacked this thread with some relatively unrelated info about my own experience. i was and am totally disorganised, please excuse this one]

i coincidently had my first major stimulant binge with full blown loss of control and fullon mania. i actually wrote a really fucking incoherent emails to a prof of mine (a neurophysiologists) in a spontaneous mdpv induced manic outburst that im having severe regrets about, the mail was probably 4-5 pages in length and basically consisted of free association which i tried to record through the keyboard by just typing down my thoughts as they came, it was a wild and fun process and i had a lot of very sharp ideas (yes even in retrospect some thoguhts were quite impressive). its pretty incoherent for the most part thoguh, even to me looking through it now
i still havent slept. ive never skipped a single night of sleep despite my self medication with ampehtamine for 1yr now and occasional recreational stimulant use throughout the past 12 years

all i could do was work on my aluminum foil vape technique throughout the whole night, i never managed to fit in my masturbating routine or even ROLLING A CIGARETTE OR A JOINT. im a heavy smoker and i dont think ive ever went consecutive 2 waking hours without a cig in the past few years ever. also i smoke pot every single night. this mdpv basing got me so damn manic and focussed on my internal thought processes and (most of all) on getting even half way to where the first hit got me, eventhough i dont even think i felt any sort of actual rush or euphoria i was condemned to chasing after that the whole damn night. i did the same with cocaine freebase (more or less clean a/b extraction with a non polar solvent) when i once in my entire life happened to have cocaine in my possession - 2oz of it unfortunately. but the amount of compulsion and loss of control wasnt 10% of what mdpv did to me last night.
i first sampled it at around noon rectally (5mg if memory serves me right) and shortly thereafter intranasally at about 10mg and really enjoyed the mental clarity it gave me throughout the day eventhough i felt the morish aspects already then. but nothing couldve ever prepared me for the wicked brain twisting self destructive robotic shit i went through last night. all i really remember is starting to write that email, then i went through 1.25g mdpv (yes i guess you could say tolerance developed rapidly, considering 15mg supplied quite the clearheaded calm focus not unlike coke). damn this shit is wicked, a real mind bender, one of the most impressive, scariest experiences ive ever had with any drug. first time im seriosuly scared of what theyre gonna cme up with next... this chem seemignly took sole control over everthing i did.

i ended up smoking pee vee for the whole night, not seeing myself able to give in to the acute sexual desires by masturbating,not seeing myself able to set down the foil for 2 minutes to let my hands roll a joint for my brain like i would on every other day (there was an urge to smoke, just the compulsion to smoke pee vee was dominating EVERY other urge), i abstained from doing ANY hygiene whatsoever (its a very important part of my daily routine and i try to reserve some time for that on other days)
i eventually managed to crawl out of the piles of burnt pieces of foil and was outside on my bycicle like 5mins after my first class had started, feeling nothing but shame and dirt, stumbled into class today with my hands looking as if i had worked in the front yard for a day straight YUK YUK YUK i finally got some real honest insight into what i feel crack addiction must be like.

btw i had a really hard time articulating full sentences throughout the whole day, still havent slept eventhough its 11pm now and im still showing ocd like symptoms, STILL havent managed to smoke a single cigarette since im at this damn boix, not to speak of a joint, disorganized and disinhibited thoguht patterns, whoa, i really hope this wont bounce back into a heavy depressive episode. i have a feeling that what i previously claimed to be slight hypomanic tendencies is turning into a monster that feeds on my stimulant use.


btw i noticed barely any peripheral side effects whatsoever, pretty damn impressive considering the massive dat inhibition and mdpv plasma levels i mustve had at these dosage levels. god how can a drug be so forgiving and so godamn destructive in such a short time span at the same time? im amazed, truly amazed, a unique substance for sure. sorry guzys, i know a lot of what im saying contains typos, is lacking structure and im repeating the same core statements over and over. peace im out, time for POT!

edit: omg 36h after my first mdpv trial i finally managed to roll a motherfucking joint, i just hope im gonna unwind now and wont crash too hard, ive never experienced any reinforcing stimulus close to this. ive had ,y fair share of cocaine in the past 10 years and never spent a dime on it and usually dont even have much trouble passing on free hi grade coke which ive constantly got offered over the past ten years. this stuff HAS to be researched!!! i am gonna restrain myself from talkinmg about all the oh-so-brilliant manic ideas that i had in the past two days, but i did surely benefit from it in that i managed to talk over a conflict with a guy im studying with that had previously caused us to avoid one another completely for what must've been about two weeks. it originally resulted from reciprocal misunderstandings due to the limitations of tele-communication, failure to understand each others situation and intentions, low tendency of deescalating such situations on both sides and a whole lot of hurt pride in consequence. oh my choleric personality and the fact that I had actually pissed my pants because of bad sensory input, probably triggered a lot of anger, eventhough it's just a way I've tried to express myself sometimes as last means.

short summary

pros: potential to induce some sort of change, in my case for the better and in retrospect i could avoid any social disasters to occur (so far).
small to moderate doses without tolerance initially seem to affect ability to focus without any of the behavioural effects becoming apparent



cons: (after first and hopefully last use of the substance!)
-reenforcing it's own use resulting in the constant number one need to redose with NO respect whatsoever for any consequences, just looking at the stuff within it's package now gives me goosebumps
-It immediately triggered a manic episode it seems, I feel strong fluctuations in perceived energy levels, perceived mental clarity, fuck I have no idea if the urge to leave this plane again, get a feeling of control back, get the mental tension down, get any sense for time management back or if the road that leads to an eventual downward spiral with a superinhibited mind and motivation until I somehow hopefully again find the strenght in me or someone else showing any sort of empathy towards my perceived loss of control (the vast majority of people really seem to hate folks who feel they're not in charge of themselves, probably reminds them of their own material limitations)
-i can barely remember gaining any pleasure that'd go past what other stimulants which are all less reinforcing, but also a lot less fascinating as of now
-i do expect some unnoticable to subtle, but in the long run possibly accumulating social sanctions resulting from generally fluctuating behaviour and maybe some more attention and some raised suspicion from the prof - he's not considered an acute threat
it might be the sleep deprivation, but im experiencing a lot of difficulties with verbal communication. I pause befor starting a sentence, think a lot in between, I'm definitely less eloquent when it comes to speaking, but long after this was apparent I still have an extreme manic drive to express myself through typing, it's hard to form sentences nonetheless and theres a lot of corrections necessary to infuse the sentences with readability
- i want to get to fucking bed, hope this is over soon, 6h till i gotta get up, got some forever lasting phnezepam which will cause lingering drowsiness for days that doesnt seem worht anight of sleep eventhough my body really screams for it, im thirsty, got phenazepam, diphenhydramine, also weed ready to be rolled up, got plenty of foods and drinks, but i cant fucking tear myself away from occupying the keyboard. sorry guys if i leave stuff out i gotta interrupt this now. wait im writing ot, its not even an exp report, god this stuff is awful, ive had three bananas in almost 40h, appetite which was not present whatsoever eventhough my body shouldve shown at least a sign of hunger spark up here and there. notjhing. shit i leave now FUKC THIS STUFF NEVER DOSE THIS HIGHER THAN 5-10MG. side effects seem to be a lot more porofound and unforgiving in behavioural and reflective changes than in the few physical adverse short term side effects.
 
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