Hello
Due to my injury I'm in a bit of hurry, so I'm going to keep it short.
I have been an IV drug addict for several years, injecting anything from heroin to mirtazapine/remeron to alcohol. I have never been doing it safe or been trying to reduce harm, but instead I've used dirty needles, dirty fluids and dirty hands. Naturally I have had problems from this many times, but so far I haven't suffered anything permanent. When I have been getting an infection ... sometimes I have let it heal for itself (it does, for me, ussually), but sometimes it has gone too far and I've visited the hospital.
Now, however, I think it has gone too far and I can't visit a hospital without risking everything. At the moment I live in a home for former addicts, and if they found out I've been using ... I'm homeless again, and I surely won't get buprenorphine legally (which I've been promised). I am in the middle of the forest and there is no way I can get to the hospital and back without them noticing.
Hence: the only way for me to get professional help, will at the same time risk everything I hold dear. I will therefore not visit a hospital before it's almost too late.
Two days ago, I used needles in my hands without keeping it clean. Now, my left hand is red, swollen and hurting, and I can't even move my thumb an inch. I have marked the current redness with a black pen, so that I can know if it increases or decreases.
What should I do? What would you do if you were I?
Due to my injury I'm in a bit of hurry, so I'm going to keep it short.
I have been an IV drug addict for several years, injecting anything from heroin to mirtazapine/remeron to alcohol. I have never been doing it safe or been trying to reduce harm, but instead I've used dirty needles, dirty fluids and dirty hands. Naturally I have had problems from this many times, but so far I haven't suffered anything permanent. When I have been getting an infection ... sometimes I have let it heal for itself (it does, for me, ussually), but sometimes it has gone too far and I've visited the hospital.
Now, however, I think it has gone too far and I can't visit a hospital without risking everything. At the moment I live in a home for former addicts, and if they found out I've been using ... I'm homeless again, and I surely won't get buprenorphine legally (which I've been promised). I am in the middle of the forest and there is no way I can get to the hospital and back without them noticing.
Hence: the only way for me to get professional help, will at the same time risk everything I hold dear. I will therefore not visit a hospital before it's almost too late.
Two days ago, I used needles in my hands without keeping it clean. Now, my left hand is red, swollen and hurting, and I can't even move my thumb an inch. I have marked the current redness with a black pen, so that I can know if it increases or decreases.
What should I do? What would you do if you were I?