Fuck I've been reading too much online about dopamine and testosterone production and honestly even if I'm on TRT it's pretty much useless if I'm using meth daily =/ chronically. I will kill myself if I don't quit this fucking shitty drug. I'm not going to desire sex.. I'm going to age even more. It kills me knowing that for a 31 year old I still look good.. and get told by many that I look 25.. but no man I could only imagine how much younger I would look if I never relapsed. Wtf am I waiting for? To lose my teeth or what? Fuck man I need to get locks for the door and lock myself in the room for a week.. 2 weeks till I get better and leave the shit for good wtf why do I torture myself with this bullshit. The happiness I get from it is very very small.. not worth the price I'm paying =/ and I feel like each injection I do is a waste because testosterone production comes from dopamine and meth kills dopamine like a mother fucker! =( fuck my life!
Hmm what are you reading?
I do agree about quitting the meth though. Nip it in the bud early.