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tmuliosis

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Hello All,

I look forward to contributing on forums where I have heavy, applicable experience or other information to share. I have struggled in the past with alcohol, benzos, opiates, stimulants, and hallucinogens (and tend to smoke marijuana daily for close to 15 years now -- but that's calmed way down in the last several years). My current drug of choice, unfortunately, is heroin, which I had never touched or seen until about 2 years ago. It's become a problem over the last year and a half and especially lately with recently being introduced to IV use as opposed to snorting (only the past 6 weeks -- hoping to kick opiates all together before it gets more out of hand than it already is).

In my younger years, I was oblivious to how my substance abuse impacted my life, but as I've grown older I've been forced to realize very specifically how things are being impacted by my substance abuse problems and have been working to get them under control. I desperately want to be rid of my most recent problem -- heroin addiction -- but need to find a reason within myself to do it for me, as opposed to a convenience thing because I don't always have money these days to support the habit (and refuse to commit crime to support my habit -- so occasionally will be very sick and incapacitated for days at a time). I look forward to contributing my experience and knowledge to help and be helped by this community (I've been browsing these forums for months getting familiar with how things work and finally can't resist the urge to participate). I'm a very private person and am generally unlikely to give many details that would reveal my identity or specific location (although I work/worked in IT Security for many years and know certain authorities wouldn't have much trouble identifying me regardless of any attempt to obfuscate my identity).

Thanks for reading.

-TM
 
Welcome to BL!!!

If you any questions about opiates cannabis or cocaine you can always come to me;) I've used heroin for years since I was 15 or so now I'm 22 and got my act together but its a struggle daily.

You will make a good addition to the site I hope you find Bluelight as useful as I have and enjoy your time here.

Good luck let me know if you need anything at all whether its questions related to the site, support or questions you may have about drugs/ how to reach sobriety don't be afraid to ask me:)

These will give you some insight on how the site is run and the rules so you wont get any infractions on the forums-

Green lighters(newbies) guide-
http://wiki.bluelight.org/index.php/Greenlighters_guide

Bluelight user agreement-

http://wiki.bluelight.org/index.php/...reement_(BLUA)


If you want some help getting around the site or a buddy to talk to then you can always message me Im on the list of people willing to adopt you can find the link if you want to be adopted by me or another experienced member here-

Nmi adoption program-

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/...Program-v-2014

Here are some drug forums you may like-

Benzos mega thread-
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...epine-MEGA-THREAD-Direct-Benzo-Questions-Here

Other drugs-
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/58-Other-Drugs

Basic drug discussion-
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/1...rug-Discussion

Sober living-
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/269-Sober-Living

Cannabis forums-
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/70-Cannabis-Discussion

Good luck hope you stay a while and remember don't be afraid to ask for help that's what I'm here for:)
 
Thanks for the warm welcome. I have found answers to many of my questions by searching or stumbling upon things while perusing the forums. I have been on and off (mostly on) opiates for probably close to 15 years now, so I'm no stranger to them, but new to H and must say it's the most addicted I've ever been to anything (and I've had major stretches of serious addiction/abuse with alcohol, benzos, adderall, pills of different kinda, etc) while smoking weed pretty much daily (although cut way back in recent years ... unintentionally).

I sought this forum out as soon as I realized I was in the category of "introduced to IV, can't go backwards now", and this site probably spared me an amputated arm or leg already. So I appreciate all the effort made to spread harm reduction information on this forum very much and hope to give back or contribute in some way.

Just some more about me.. I'm in my early 30's and I live in the New England region (I'll give you a hint: this state is still revolutionary... according to the people in charge of attracting tourists :).
 
I do not have access to a methadone/sub program (which, finding a sub dr in my parts is virtually impossible it seems). I do have access to suboxone itself, and never abuse it (have used it for maintenance in the past two years for up to 4 months at a time, but then run out and relapse eventually it seems). Until I can really work of the drive and energy to quit opiates for good, the harm reduction information found here is extremely helpful for me. In my early twenties I didn't even realize what withdrawal was -- just assumed I was sick a lot. I am obviously much more informed about the ramifications of everything I put into my body these days, but with IV use now! there's a lot I need to learn as quickly as possible before I hurt myself despite best intentions to break free of it ASAP.
 
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