Hopeless got dumped yesterday, nearly didnt wake up this morning

[spypilot]

he said that it was either him or drugs
i sat thinking about it when i already knew the answer
we are no longer dating
that night i did 1.25 to 2mg ativan and drank a lot of vodka
i felt my body winding down, my breathing slowing, my mind slipping away
it wasnt a suicide attempt but i wasnt gonna try to reverse it
i fell asleep listening to "in a silent way" by miles davis
now im here, awake, living, typing this
i wasnt scared of death, just curious what death would entail
i know i can do better than this but will i ?
maybe

 

[neversickanymore]

Sorry you’re going through it.. i’d consider keeping your use in reigns and not spiraling out.

 

[garygroundwork]

One of toughest things you can go through.

Aint worth killing yourself over. Although in the moment it can feel like it.

 

[PtahTek]

i know i can do better

there ya have it.
grieve and move on. easier said than done, yes.

agreed that heartbreak is the most hurtful state i think i have ever endured. i spun out tbh.

she came back and totally fucked my head up worse (in a different way) even to this day but i can deal with it.
i feel ya and sympathize/empathize like a mf/

 

[M!$TER-ED]

Hey I’ve grown accustomed to reading your posts, so stop f…. Around take care of yourself. Don’t want to see in BlueLight Shrine

 

[spypilot]

Hey I’ve grown accustomed to reading your posts, so stop f…. Around take care of yourself. Don’t want to see in BlueLight Shrine

fair enough