I'll start with the good,. Took my underground coal miner exam today, passed it 
. So starting within the next 2 weeks i'll start the 'change' from a nothing to a something. made mamma and poppa proud.. so this is making me feel great inside. I have to relise that i'm doing this for me, and not for them if i'm ever going to make this work.. just like my recovery program.
Went underground today to take the exam, It's a whole fucking different world down there. Took a ride on the man cart from the surface deeper and deeper in the earth's crust. 10mins later here I am, 2/12 miles beneath the earths crust. that chill went up my spine when i saw all the mine shafts. i'll soon be working in one. MAKING BANK!!!
I have to be really fucking careful about this job, this isn't like working at burger king. people are counting on me to not get killed or kill anyone else with stupid decisions.
now for the bad,
RIP Jeannie S.
another close girlfriend of mine overdosed and died yesterday, REALLY fucking hated to hear it. we fooled around back in high school, then everyone got into drugs and either moved away or stayed, I was one of those that moved away..
I'm still upset. i cant believe this has happened. my disease (drug addiction) doesn't discriminate. IT KILLS IT FUCKING KILLS!
thank god i don't have to use over this, i don't have to use over this, i will not use over this, If i use over this, I'll be right behind her.
RIP baby girl, going to miss you
. So starting within the next 2 weeks i'll start the 'change' from a nothing to a something. made mamma and poppa proud.. so this is making me feel great inside. I have to relise that i'm doing this for me, and not for them if i'm ever going to make this work.. just like my recovery program.Went underground today to take the exam, It's a whole fucking different world down there. Took a ride on the man cart from the surface deeper and deeper in the earth's crust. 10mins later here I am, 2/12 miles beneath the earths crust. that chill went up my spine when i saw all the mine shafts. i'll soon be working in one. MAKING BANK!!!
I have to be really fucking careful about this job, this isn't like working at burger king. people are counting on me to not get killed or kill anyone else with stupid decisions.
now for the bad,
RIP Jeannie S.
another close girlfriend of mine overdosed and died yesterday, REALLY fucking hated to hear it. we fooled around back in high school, then everyone got into drugs and either moved away or stayed, I was one of those that moved away..
I'm still upset. i cant believe this has happened. my disease (drug addiction) doesn't discriminate. IT KILLS IT FUCKING KILLS!
thank god i don't have to use over this, i don't have to use over this, i will not use over this, If i use over this, I'll be right behind her.
RIP baby girl, going to miss you
