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Good things about being off drugs/getting sober

Not being reliant on drugs to regulate emotions/being able to actually be in touch with emotions.

Looking forward to that one, fed up of relying on my meds to regulate my emotions/not actually being able to work through them properly because of my meds.
 
Not having to worry about my kid busting in on me at the wrong time. Not having to worry about the cat finding a stray pill on the floor and having a heart attack.
 
Being able to be yourself.:(

Not having to either lie or go through the process of admitting you've fucked up again when you see someone and they ask how you're doing.:(
 
Knowing when I do find employment I won't be posting questions about how to beat a drug screen (actually that may violate BLUA anyways).

Having less regret about what I post on BL cuz I'm not here posting while high as a kite.
 
I've been off dope for a week now. Detox'd w/ trazodone for sleep, subutex, and clonidine.

This is the BEST I've ever felt in a while. I'm really, really, liking this & I have high hopes to stay clean & sober. for a long while. One day at a time, right guys?
Honestly, when I think back about my drug use & the things I've done to get drugs... I feel sick to my stomach, and I want to breakdown and cry.
I know it hasn't been that long. Only a week, but I have my mind-set on staying sober. I got a second chance.. got my life back together.. and it feels fuckin' wonderful.
I didn't know being sober could feel this great. lol. I'm dead serious too, no bullshit, guys.

Sorry for the rant.
 
Having my company trust me enough to give me a key to the entire place, let me do bank deposits on my own, grant me advanced permission in the computer system, and so on. I mean obviously they don't know I'm a recovering H addict. But still, I'm thankful that it's easy for me to keep them in the dark. If that makes sense.
 
Not having to worry about having something to get me thru a holiday or my kid's birthday. ....hunting Easter eggs is a bitch when dope sick; crawling straight back into bed after the kids open presents on xmas morning - never felt so lame in my life.
 
I've been off dope for a week now. Detox'd w/ trazodone for sleep, subutex, and clonidine.

This is the BEST I've ever felt in a while. I'm really, really, liking this & I have high hopes to stay clean & sober. for a long while. One day at a time, right guys?
Honestly, when I think back about my drug use & the things I've done to get drugs... I feel sick to my stomach, and I want to breakdown and cry.
I know it hasn't been that long. Only a week, but I have my mind-set on staying sober. I got a second chance.. got my life back together.. and it feels fuckin' wonderful.
I didn't know being sober could feel this great. lol. I'm dead serious too, no bullshit, guys.

Sorry for the rant.

Awesome rant tbh!%)
 
I have true and legit hope when I am not using, drinking and slowly killing myself daily. That is an incredible thing IMO. Frankly, it is one of the few things I have going for me today, and I have to fight hard to keep that hope going. I am going to get better though, no matter what. Recovery first, everything else second.

In all honesty, my worst day clean and sober is better then my best day loaded. Why? Because I know that when I use I destroy myself and others. Sadly, that isn't enough for me to stop. I really realized this today. My worst day sober I was in better shape in all three dimensions then any day high.

I am real happy to see a post about sober living. I'm 20 and wish I could go back to when I was 15 and so innocent. I would go out and drink on the weekends like a lot of typical highschool kids. My friends at the time smoked pot and i tried it with them and saw no point in it and thought it was a complete was of money. This post made me reevaluate my life and goals. I use to scrapbook a lot sober and had pictures of everytime I went out with friends or family. I miss that. I have lost my "better looking high school days" or at least I feel that way. I use to enjoy spending times with friends doing nothing and having fun. After abusing drugs, that's all I find fun... and still feel that way unfortunately. My boyfriend misses when I'd be clean for a bit and come home from work sober and happy & telling all these funny stories from the dental office. When I was sober for awhile I enjoyed walking through the trails & feeling the fresh breeze. It made me feel alive. Since Chicago has had some messed up weather lately, I hope I can continue doing this because the natural endorphin's released from walking the trails made me feel amazing. Another benefit of being sober is being able to comprehend and understand everything that is really going on. Especially me with work. I have a serious job but while using I didn't care, and being sober I perform better, and ended up getting a raise within 7 months of my first "serious" job, which could technically be a career to some. It motivates me to continue my schooling to become a dental hygienist and move up the ladder instead of being a dental assistant.


For a long long long time I used to say "If I had a time machine, I'd go kick my 15 year old ass". Now I am almost 31 and I realize that such thoughts are not helpful and guess what I do not have a time machine and do not see myself being able to acquire one anytime soon. So I try try try to not dwell on the past, I am doing a shitty job of that today but I am pretty fucking raw when it comes to sobriety right now.

When I was your age I shared very similar concerns, 20 is when my problem drinking escalated big fucking time. I was already an addict looking back on it, but booze brought a whole new ballgame into the mix and lead me to using other shit (but Alcohol is my "ultimate DOC", I have to tell myself that my DOC was anything though). Anyways, if you need to talk, I am here. You are gonna do what you are gonna do, but I pray you do not end up having to feel the pain that I feel now, 15 years later after I started using.

Anyways, overall I am sober and clean today and that is all that matters for me right now. I have a long way to go, but at this point I am willing to try anything because God knows I have tried everything else. I just simply cannot use substances in any responsible fashion whatsoever. I can semi-function still, but I was starting to lose that ability . I was trying so hard to talk myself into just giving up but for some reason I just cannot do it. I want to fucking live more then I want to die I guess.

I am in the Burbs myself. I know how hard this winter was. Straight fucked me up, plus my Grandpa died. Still not a good enough reason to use or drink (there never is for me) but it hurts. Oh yeah, GO HAWKS!!!!!
 
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This is the BEST I've ever felt in a while. I'm really, really, liking this & I have high hopes to stay clean & sober. for a long while.

I didn't know being sober could feel this great. lol. I'm dead serious too, no bullshit, guys.

Grab ahold of this feeling and hold on to it very very tightly. Almost suffocate it if you have too.
 
Getting photographs published in a magazine this June. My photos are the only visual art in the entire magazine: the rest is prose and poetry. the magazine is being sold at bookstores around new york city, online of course, and at a store in Portland that was featured on IFC's show Portlandia.

My 21 year old self has accomplished her dream of having her photos published. I'm 32. Thank you, sobriety.
 
Getting photographs published in a magazine this June. My photos are the only visual art in the entire magazine: the rest is prose and poetry. the magazine is being sold at bookstores around new york city, online of course, and at a store in Portland that was featured on IFC's show Portlandia.

My 21 year old self has accomplished her dream of having her photos published. I'm 32. Thank you, sobriety.
Totally awesome! Thank you for being inspirational. <3
 
^^Thank you, Azure!! I love your name, I've been meaning to tell you. Beautiful.
Thank you Zwanya. I've carried this moniker thru several forums now (well over a decade of online life), just to preserve internet continuity for myself, but for so long I cannot remember the original inspiration.
...though I think it does have something to do with 2 months I spent shipboard in the western Pacific or possibly the eye color of a certain woman I was shipmates with.
 
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Being able to take my family out to nice dinner and spending less money than I would of spent on a single pill.

....man I hated snorting flat screen tv's as well...
 
Reading! I used to spend countless hours reading. And by that I mean books, including works of fiction.

With any luck, I will be able to slow down enough in my compulsions to actually enjoy sitting down with a good book before bed.
 
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