xtcworks4me
Bluelighter
hold your seats, i promise this informative message will be no where near brief.
Ok im going to try to make this short. Im from a suburb on the outside of atlanta called stockbridge. I started using meth about 3 years ago. When all the using started i was smoking the regs off foil. I used continually for a while until it took over my every thought....and i ended up in rehab. Ok well me myself, i am a very outgoing person and i surround myself with tons of people like me. Well in stockbridge the idea of a perfect weekend or shall i say week is to go to a friend of our house and smoke dope all weekend or week. when i was still in school at the beginning of my meth using i smoked it before, during, after and all night until my eyes crossed and i was seeing 10 of everything. Well to make a long story short i went to rehab stayed clean for 30 days, and then i found found my matter was over my mind instead of my mind over my matter. Glass then came around, there is no regs here anymore, if someone walked in where everyone chillled and had regs, we would look at them like they were crazy. Everyone is now spoiled by glass in other words. Ever since the use of glass everyone has become really sketchy...robbing, stealing, **** 's made of people who were your good friends that you would never think would turn their backs on you or your cru......Its amazing everyone is really scandlousand will do anything to get their hands on it. When i say our cru, let me tell you what i mean....large group of kids ages 18-24 that all do dope, all diffrent finical brakets, all diffrent iq types, some come from broken homes some normal. Glass becomning so popular around here has drawn ALL types of people...lately becoming a new recreation for younger girls 15-17,we call them the "little girls" or "dope hoes"...common now you know what im talking about, the girls that are still having to call their parents and say there staying at Amys down the street and they will be home the next day to clean their room if they can stay out...yuck i hate those bitches....well n-e-ways back to the subject at hand...here in stockbridge when u get popped u go to jail or **** and thats it. Its amazing what people will run their dick suckers about when a u-cover says the word "serve time". The shit has made people here lose all their inhabitions, past friends, even parents. Every day u got people calling the jail to see what charges people were booked on in fear of being the next one popped. You constantly are losing friends and gaining friends...that what you one day realize were never friends in the first place. Constantly hearing "well she told me that her brothers, cousins, sisters friend heard u were a **** ". People constantly thinking that they are missing there already slack quarter bags that they sell to the dumb asses, later to find them in their socks or some other place. the funniest thing is you know when your in stockbridge is when u walk into someone's house and you see the fucked up blinds because the all night constant peeping out the blinds every 5 minuets. But if you are honest within yourself than continue to read...glass IS the devil look how much its changed you and me...its okay admit it thats the first step. People become so sketched and greedy and self loathed that nothing matters anymore....but hey you know why dope dealing is called "THE GAME"? Because its about who can get the best shit, the fastest, and the cheapest...and that person of the week/month whatever,they are the one that shines (or becomes the most popular)but at the end of the month alot of the times they are gone, narched on and forgot about, and you continue to move on to the next man/woman of the month. Your own friends become violent towards others espically in relationships (i have a good bit of experience in that department). shit this bothers me so much all these younger people doing the shit, they think its all fun and games, think again your whole world will be flipped after those first few times...you become someone diffrent and if you deny that your a fucking liar. Its not all just having fun for the weekend, its a whole new frame of mind. To be honest with you when the shit wasant popular around here, anybody who didnt do it that asked me about doing it, i would be like lets go get a sac and let me show you rather than tell you. Then when they do it and they get on the shit hard core i looked within myself and said "what the fuck was i thinking"....i felt like i robbed people of their dreams and hopes......i mean do you honestly know what it feels like to get a person you loved hooked on the shit and then look back and wonder why they treat you the way they do? I realized that 1 person can make a diffrence, if i sat down with them and told them all the negative effects from it and obstcales maybe, just maybe it would turn them the way. I felt so selfish....i cant believe that i did that, brought someone i loved into a world that neither i when i started or them were ready for, a world that we should have never had to experience...For you who know what i am talking about, i just want you to know that there is other people out there that do understand. personally i know that i and others alike have a problem, even if they dont want to admit it and we cant just simply say im going to stop, you know the group of us that were not chemically balanced if we dont do dope all day. I dont want to be negative and say there is no hope but i just want EVERYONE to know out there, this shit is not "just a good time" its a long term decision that WILL effect who you become, and who you are the rest of your life....So i know how all u stubbron people are...you think at the time its fun to bring new people into your world....think again about everything that you have been through all the bullshit, sleepless nights, run ins with the law, think of how many times you have been used or used people. If you are a true friend to this friend then you should really think about what you are going to do to them, its so scary it should be a crime honestly. Encourage a person to stay straight and do the things that you could only wish that you would have done, live your dreames through others when you cant live them yourself dont robb them of their TRUE personality and life plans...trust me you will feel good in the long run....just remeber these two things, in the game their are:
1. No such things as friends, they are going to be there when your having problems, there gonna be hitting the chalet with the people that got the dope, they dont want to hear your problems they have your own
2. There can be NO relationship with dope...its not possible
Always remeber that NOBODY WILL CARE AS MUCH ABOUT YOU IN YOUR ENTIRE LIFETIME AS YOURSELF
Ok im going to try to make this short. Im from a suburb on the outside of atlanta called stockbridge. I started using meth about 3 years ago. When all the using started i was smoking the regs off foil. I used continually for a while until it took over my every thought....and i ended up in rehab. Ok well me myself, i am a very outgoing person and i surround myself with tons of people like me. Well in stockbridge the idea of a perfect weekend or shall i say week is to go to a friend of our house and smoke dope all weekend or week. when i was still in school at the beginning of my meth using i smoked it before, during, after and all night until my eyes crossed and i was seeing 10 of everything. Well to make a long story short i went to rehab stayed clean for 30 days, and then i found found my matter was over my mind instead of my mind over my matter. Glass then came around, there is no regs here anymore, if someone walked in where everyone chillled and had regs, we would look at them like they were crazy. Everyone is now spoiled by glass in other words. Ever since the use of glass everyone has become really sketchy...robbing, stealing, **** 's made of people who were your good friends that you would never think would turn their backs on you or your cru......Its amazing everyone is really scandlousand will do anything to get their hands on it. When i say our cru, let me tell you what i mean....large group of kids ages 18-24 that all do dope, all diffrent finical brakets, all diffrent iq types, some come from broken homes some normal. Glass becomning so popular around here has drawn ALL types of people...lately becoming a new recreation for younger girls 15-17,we call them the "little girls" or "dope hoes"...common now you know what im talking about, the girls that are still having to call their parents and say there staying at Amys down the street and they will be home the next day to clean their room if they can stay out...yuck i hate those bitches....well n-e-ways back to the subject at hand...here in stockbridge when u get popped u go to jail or **** and thats it. Its amazing what people will run their dick suckers about when a u-cover says the word "serve time". The shit has made people here lose all their inhabitions, past friends, even parents. Every day u got people calling the jail to see what charges people were booked on in fear of being the next one popped. You constantly are losing friends and gaining friends...that what you one day realize were never friends in the first place. Constantly hearing "well she told me that her brothers, cousins, sisters friend heard u were a **** ". People constantly thinking that they are missing there already slack quarter bags that they sell to the dumb asses, later to find them in their socks or some other place. the funniest thing is you know when your in stockbridge is when u walk into someone's house and you see the fucked up blinds because the all night constant peeping out the blinds every 5 minuets. But if you are honest within yourself than continue to read...glass IS the devil look how much its changed you and me...its okay admit it thats the first step. People become so sketched and greedy and self loathed that nothing matters anymore....but hey you know why dope dealing is called "THE GAME"? Because its about who can get the best shit, the fastest, and the cheapest...and that person of the week/month whatever,they are the one that shines (or becomes the most popular)but at the end of the month alot of the times they are gone, narched on and forgot about, and you continue to move on to the next man/woman of the month. Your own friends become violent towards others espically in relationships (i have a good bit of experience in that department). shit this bothers me so much all these younger people doing the shit, they think its all fun and games, think again your whole world will be flipped after those first few times...you become someone diffrent and if you deny that your a fucking liar. Its not all just having fun for the weekend, its a whole new frame of mind. To be honest with you when the shit wasant popular around here, anybody who didnt do it that asked me about doing it, i would be like lets go get a sac and let me show you rather than tell you. Then when they do it and they get on the shit hard core i looked within myself and said "what the fuck was i thinking"....i felt like i robbed people of their dreams and hopes......i mean do you honestly know what it feels like to get a person you loved hooked on the shit and then look back and wonder why they treat you the way they do? I realized that 1 person can make a diffrence, if i sat down with them and told them all the negative effects from it and obstcales maybe, just maybe it would turn them the way. I felt so selfish....i cant believe that i did that, brought someone i loved into a world that neither i when i started or them were ready for, a world that we should have never had to experience...For you who know what i am talking about, i just want you to know that there is other people out there that do understand. personally i know that i and others alike have a problem, even if they dont want to admit it and we cant just simply say im going to stop, you know the group of us that were not chemically balanced if we dont do dope all day. I dont want to be negative and say there is no hope but i just want EVERYONE to know out there, this shit is not "just a good time" its a long term decision that WILL effect who you become, and who you are the rest of your life....So i know how all u stubbron people are...you think at the time its fun to bring new people into your world....think again about everything that you have been through all the bullshit, sleepless nights, run ins with the law, think of how many times you have been used or used people. If you are a true friend to this friend then you should really think about what you are going to do to them, its so scary it should be a crime honestly. Encourage a person to stay straight and do the things that you could only wish that you would have done, live your dreames through others when you cant live them yourself dont robb them of their TRUE personality and life plans...trust me you will feel good in the long run....just remeber these two things, in the game their are:
1. No such things as friends, they are going to be there when your having problems, there gonna be hitting the chalet with the people that got the dope, they dont want to hear your problems they have your own
2. There can be NO relationship with dope...its not possible
Always remeber that NOBODY WILL CARE AS MUCH ABOUT YOU IN YOUR ENTIRE LIFETIME AS YOURSELF
