Glad to finally be an acitve user on BL:

[coco2002]

Hello all my name is Nicole, but I go by COCO. I am excited to finally be an active user on BL now instead of just coming on and getting to read the very useful forums and things. I am excited to now have the ability to create my own posts and actually have interaction with others. I am looking for a community of people who are dealing with similar obastacles in their life so I can gain a sense of understanding and belonging and support instead of constantly being surrounded by family I love very much but want to scream at a few of them yes I am the junkie and although you may think you know what addiction is or what an addict goes through Unless you are one you have absolutely no idea what any of it is like or how it is a daily struggle. You also don't understand how sometimes it's not a choice, addiction is a disease and sometimes it is a terminal disease and there is no hope for a cure for certain people I amneeds it. Maybe get some inside support to help in my recover/ hoping to be aboe to share some of my experiences I've had in this horror movie titled My Whole Life, gain some knowledge from others experiences / offer support to anyone that I really would just like to make some friends that have at least some understanding of what I am goi through each and every day as a addict trying to liive a sober and productive life. Oh I guess I could let you in on the fact that I have a severe Methamphetamine IV Addiction and I am addicted to the needle as much as I am the ICE. Ok so now you know a luttle aobut me and why I am here. I look froward to meeting some new people so p;ease do not be shy

 

[Smoky]

Hi Coco,
This is the place indeed for people dealing with similar problems as you say, or obstacles. Bluelight has been tremendously supportive since I joined. Opiates are my DOC, did em for years, stims prior. Please don't hesitate to ask me any questions.

 

[coco2002]

Thanks for your encouragement Smoky. I donl't know why it took me so long to register, especially seeing how I used this site daily for going on 5 years. I guess my addiction was keeping me from really doing anything but getting spracked out and sitting in front of the computer for hours reading the differeent forums. I find more and more things everyday that I allowed my addiction to keep me from, so many enjoyable and fun things, but I am working on fixing that now.

 

[sweelup]

Hi Coco,I'm a "Greenlighter" too,but all I have to offer at this stage is:Thank your lucky stars that you are at located in the US[I have zero knowledge of the quality/versus cost of "things"in Pensacola]because being located in Australia,is utterly dismal if occasionally one would like to partake in something that is ANYTHING other than stupidly overpriced meth,which Iv'e never done,as I used[in the good old days] to do pharmaceutically as correct as was possible [and it certainly was very close] to good old standard amphetamines,that would dissolve in hygienically clean water easily,and not keep you up for days,with a come down SO BAD,the only option was to do it again,umm no thanks.

Unfortunately in the mid 90's Australia had what can only be described as a Heroin Epidemic.It became so cheap was every where in the capital cities,that due to an ear affliction I'll call it, I got caught up in,until 4 months of use I realised it wasn't working the way it did at first,and I was a"constantly waking up sick"Full On Junkie,so then successfully weened my way down to the minimal amount one could purchase every 4 days[back in 1994],at which point I thought I could "handle whatever cold turkey" there would be since I was spending so little.

Big Mistake,it turned out the "gear " I apparently was so fortunate to use[?],was absolute pure China White" or very close to it,so after buying so little in terms of amount,I was also "cut off" from that supplier,and could not get past day 2,the horrible eventuality,was I was forced,and had to plead my guts out to be accepted,to get the FAR WORSE DRUG Methadone,a far worse drug in so many ways[that most Dr's Do Not Have A Clue About!] than the diacetyl morphine[chemical name for heroin] I was addicted to,and it started at 50mg,and without even trying I was up to 120mg,and it's now been 19 YEARS,i have barely any teeth,and had I been in a Place like the US,I Know I could have just kept my "scrupulous weening" of the Heroin and been rid of it, in stead of this life where a little more than 120mg of horrid Methadone doesn't even touch the sides[near maximum allowed in this locale].

Australia without fail,has to have the lowest quality illicit drugs,for the HIGHEST prices anywhere in the so called 1st world,and way back then,when our "Epidemic" shut down,and became totally dry quicker than it started,being stuck in Australia,was not a good thing.I'm sorry if this comes off as a"rant" but this country's illicit drugs trade basically consists of ICE/meth at insane prices,with a smidgeon of hydro pot.also expensive.

I think I liked the old days better,when we had it all ok,but the US was going through the exact meth problem that's happening here lately,and to think the "Authorities"had "10 years to prepare" for it all happening here,only worse,as everything is of LOW quality,and High prices,I mean "points" the corner of a re-sealable deal bag for a measurement....give us a break![not you Coco!],I was referring to whoever came up with this ridiculous "points" thing!

Ain't life just full of fun!