Giving up using benzos recreationally

I've decided to stop trying to get high on benzos. I've been on a weekly dispense program for the past month (where I have to collect a new refill every Monday from my pharmacy, instead of getting a whole month's worth at a time) to stop me abusing them - or overdosing.

But today I found a couple of half-filled bottles in one of my bedroom drawers. One was clonazepam, the other diazepam. I decided to see how much it would take to get me high, and ended up taking 16mg's of clonazepam and 60mg's of diazepam. The results? Nothing. Well, I felt a bit slow, but it wasn't anything to write home about.

So now I'm just gonna stick to my prescribed dose of 6mg's clonazepam and 20mg's diazepam a day (which probably needs to be increased soon, cos I'm starting to notice some tolerance withdrawals). I guess that's what happens after taking them daily for 6 or 7 years... you can no longer get any recreational effects from them at all.

 

Hi Sweet P.........I just wanted to tell ya that I read a few of your blog enteries and that I enjoyed them. You are an awesome writer!

 

^ Aww thank you. That means a lot to me. I've been wanting to write more longer and deeper stuff... stories about my life, my addictions, my dodgy past, and so on. But unfortunately my foggy brain won't let me at the moment.

 

That's a good move P! Benzos are better taken medicinally anyways.

I would love it if you wrote about your past P, I think you're a great writer too.