Giving it a try

[Freon]

Well after over a 100 days clean off my long time DOC (methamphetamine), I've relapsed pretty bad in this last week and my life has already spun out of control and I just can't do this anymore. It's time I got clean, if I don't I'll be dead.

I've put it off for far too long now. I had convinced myself that drugs help me when in reality they are the #1 problem in my life without a doubt. I can't use meth responsibly. Should've been obvious right? Well everyone thinks they are different until it happens to them.

I've called a sober living house and I'm currently on the waiting list but could possibly get in very soon, like this week and I'm going to do so. Wish me luck guys, this will be a drastic, long change and it's scary but some things need to be done.

 

[herbavore]

Good luck, Freon. You are making a good and courageous choice. Give it everything you've got and don't close any doors on support. You don't have to buy into anyone's dogma 100% to get a lot of good solid help from it.

 

[twistedhunter]

im in a halfway house no congrats. admiting you have a problem and wanting to do something about it is a huge deal. good luck man

 

[RDP89]

Wish you all the best. I was in a sober house after rehab up until a couple months ago when I relapsed. Just got clean again and Its tougher when youre not in a setting with rules and such so make the most of it.

 

[Nnonovia]

Pure will power. If my chest wouldn't have started hurting, I would be getting high right now. Ain't that something, the only thing that is stopping me from getting high is my health. When you say, if you used again, you will die...do you know for certain, because I KNOW, without a shadow of doubt, I'll die. So these days, I try to not to be mad at that fact of that my heart is letting me know after 17 yrs. of cocaine use, it's time to stop. I am only 33, I am not suppose to be having coronary artery spasms, and had I not made it to the hospital to get nitroglycerin, I would have had a heart attack or stroke. By all means, if you are younger than myself, make up now what it is because eventually using will take a toll on your overall health, and sanity. Continue to do good, and express that desire, because it's healthy to let it all out, and not keep it in your head. Don't Stop posting, it's motivation for me as well. Wishing you the best!!