Zonxx
Bluelighter
good on the doc & i wanted to share that, i wasn't entirely 100% on the whole story, but you should know that, while i believe you should be as giving as possible to some extent, you have to understand that theres somthing to drugs that, while a person may still look at you like you're their entire world, the drugs have a pull like no other, and at some point whether the person means to or not, they'll just think of themselves attaining the drugs than what's actually going on/what theyre doing. this is what causes alot of problems for relationships involving drug use, this is why you see couples fighting, taking breaks time and time again, but always ending up back together, its most likely not that she intends to act the way she does, but as human beings, we're hard-wired to seek out what we like, be it drugs, candy, or sex. and when this occurs, whatever else happens between acquiring the drugs or whatever else, the person doesn't even see until afterward, she's clearly either.. slowly descending into the pit of destruction via begging for drugs, but you're there you see whats going on. now, you have to explain to her that she's been over-using your drugs like you did before, and explain you understand why she's the way she is, and tell her there's nothing wrong with it, but you have to open her mind to the fact that, you're in need too, without making it seem like she's a villain out to eat your meds, because she probably doesn't realize what she's doing until after the fact, and even then she may not, thats what addiction is, i've only briefly ever descended into the addiction hole myself and i can tell you... it's exactly how i put it, it's not that i didn't care what i was doing, being out for days at a time where i dont want to get into how hardcore i was going at it, but when i finally realized what was going on, it gave me perspective, now i'm in no way shape or form sober or ever will be. I don't ever plan on becoming drug-free. I do believe in moderation, and that it is key, that doesn't mean limiting my use, it means that while i don't give two shits about how hardcore i go at anything, in the end, i make sure that safety is my priority, and that drugs are always 2nd to everything else. now i'm not the average person, i use quite alot of dangerous drug cocktails that would surely put an end up alot of others that tried to keep up to my levels of use, but it takes alot of will-power for me not to just dive into that hole and letting an addiction take hold, some might say this is 'denial' i disagree, i'm comfortable smoking 20 grams of coke a month, eating enough addy and meth to kill an elephant, at the end of the day, i'm happy and whomever i'm surrounded by is alright too. but if they weren't i wouldn't be either. so it's a give-take but in a situation like this, there is no villain, the villain is the human brain if anything, it's just a matter of making someone understand, without accusing, villainizing or criticizing their want/ use of drugs. drugs are great and always will be. but respect is somthing of paramount importance it's so important in a way that both the drugs, and people around you NEED TO BE RESPECTED. and it doesn't work well when there is a lack of it toward one or the other, i'm glad youre getting her a doctor, where she can get these things on her own. but. it is up to you to watch out for her if you truely do love her, because.. she may be in for trouble if she doesn't respect the drugs. its not like the drugs are somthing bad as the media and society thinks, its the want for them that needs to be understood. when the perspective that drugs are drugs and will always be there, and that if you give the drugs control of in this case her life, surely no one's gonna be happy at the end of the day. i'm currently kinda phasing in and out or i'd continue but i'm gonna trust in you to have a day where the two of you have a good day and discuss the love-hate of everything towards the drugs, while making it clear that, no ones to blame, because no one genuinely is, sure you can say she does this and that and ignores you and just wants the drugs, but thats the nature of drug use, take away a coke-users bags and see how fast they smash a bottle over your head to take those bags back but end up apologizing and making sure you're okay afterward is a mediocre analogy but you get the point. i gotta go lay down now, i wish you two the best, you can maybe show her my post? perhaps she will get more perspective that way.
best of luck, Stay safe!
~Zonxx
