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I will just self medicate with stuff from the grey market that acutally helps.
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well don't do that.

out of curiousity which RC's help? i've found 3-fpm to be outstanding for getting shit done and being motivated, but looking back at all the texts to friends/facebook shit i've written under the influence of it i cringe a little now i'm on break from it.

you're british right, ceres? we're all depressed. that's why our comedy is so good but no-one else really gets it. maybe you can take some solace in that?
 
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http://waterfordwhispersnews.com/20...oss-any-dmt-gissa-shout-pleads-waterford-lad/

Fucking lol
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Pretty amusing, a bit of digging around on that website showed it to look very fishy & then I clicked on "Disclaimer":

Disclaimer said:
Waterford Whispers News is a fabricated satirical newspaper and comedy website published by Waterford Whispers News.

Waterford Whispers News uses invented names in all its stories, except in cases when public figures are being satirized. Any other use of real names is accidental and coincidental.
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Still, gave me a good chuckle anyway... I'm sure there are really some tits out there just like that. :D
 
smackydowners said:
well don't do that.

out of curiousity which RC's help? i've found 3-fpm to be outstanding for getting shit done and being motivated, but looking back at all the texts to friends/facebook shit i've written under the influence of it i cringe a little now i'm on break from it.

you're british right, ceres? we're all depressed. that's why our comedy is so good but no-one else really gets it. maybe you can take some solace in that?
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I find 3fpm does get me doing housework, but I really should stay away from stims, it's nowhere near as bad as mdpv but just a once in a blue moon kinda thing. What really helps is MXE or 3-MeO-PCP - get stuff done without the grinding teeth and edgyness of DRI stims, small doses, its like it just animates me a bit and gets me back into life.

You are right about the comedy, been watching some stuart lee, at least he sounds as pissed off as I do.
 
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sublingual 3fpm seems ok, vaping duration is too short. Benzo underneath helping me stay away from anxiety and getting stuff like housework done, things I have been putting off for weeks.
 
Evening EADD <3 Bluelighteeeees <3 <3 <3 <3

I've this new Eminem song on repeat cause it's aaaaaaaace so what ye all doing?

Had a house inspection today n wasn't bad as I thought (they're not going to evict me lol) but thank **** that's over with. They mentioned this universal credit. Apparently single claimants are getting it. They always seem to be changing the benefits because apparently DLA is changing to PIP. Any on DLA been changed to that? Role on 2020 :D lol

Ceresy I do worry about you with this 3fpm cause of you being addicted to stims in the past but can understand needing relief. Is there not a way you could see someone else who may help you more? As someone else said, if you have SAD (seasonal affective Disorder) there are special lights you can get n people have reported improved. Maybe google SAD n special lights.

Try to get out as much as you can to get vitamin D n look at the foods you ate. Salmon n foods with B6 n B12 will improve mood or B12 vitamines if you don't the foods that contain those vitamins.

Evey
 
Yeah my diet is gradually improving. TBH I don't like this 3fpm enough to get a habit, it is noway near as compulsive as MDPV or mephedrone. More like ritalin tbh. After 4 years basically completely away from stims, I feel ok dabbling here but I know very well the signs of when it is time to stop.

I really just needed something to break the deadlock in my mind, I have been feeling totally emotionally and mentally paralysed all week, something like 3fpm just changes the psychological scenery a bit which is a relief. Getting some essential housework done because of it is really good, I have just been sitting around listening to music in the dark thinking negative thoughts for a whole week. That has stopped now at least.

I do have a SAD light, it is really bright tho, smoetimes it's a little too much to handle first thing in the morning. It does help though.

DLA changed to PIP a while ago. You have to apply over the phone, the info is on the gov website. I was on DLA when I broke my arm and was in hospital, but after a few months they asked me to reapply and I didn't bother as my arm was usable again.

I am probably entitled to PIP but the process of applying freaks me out, I have been too worried to do it. Also the thought of an ATOS/MAXIMUS grilling by some fake doctor terrifies me.
 
Stimulants are the worst for escapism, you WILL pay.

(thought I'd bike in to brighten the mood again)

Been getting 575mg dex every two weeks and it's fantastic tho I dread the dopamine bill

But yeah, CATWEAZLE is good :D
 
I'm am DLA n am dreading when I have to change to PIP. All that stuff freak me out. My mam got DLA for me in 182 I think. I was about two so didn't really know. I don't if when it finally change I'll go straight over or have to go through similar to the ESA. I haven't looked as too petrified to as the idea of losing £307 a month is scary. I was told I'd be entitled to DLA for life cause my disanility wont change n even had it when working because youncan work n claim DLA. n now the Torys change everything.

Any the good that you are no longer thinking negative thoughts. You're welcome to pm me if you ever feel down n need a chat with someone. I've heard that that pv stuff is real addictive - someone posted on Bluelight that they found it more addictive that heroin. So I can understand you getting addicted with that being the case.

Not trying to lecture or sound patronising just take care cause addictions can creep on you without realising - it just takes one thing - a stressful event, for instance. We all care about you here n want to see you well, Ceresy <3

Evey
 
Yes MDPV is extremely habit forming, moreso than cocaine, I abused it daily for 2 years and landed up in the psychiatric hospital in a locked ward for 2 weeks. I will never touch the stuff again. After a few days on MDPV, I realised this was the first time I'd taken a drug and thought 'this drug is stronger than I am, and I have no willpower atall over it'. That was quite frightening, but I ended up caining it day after day, staying awake for a week at a time, not eating, it really ruined my life and I was very, very lucky to recover, lucky to be alive, lucky to be able to say 'never again'.

Lurching: I know it is bad escapism, but this 3fpm shit doesn't feel anywhere near as rough as cathinones on the comedown / day after. I just feel a bit depleted the day after. My rule is to always go to sleep every night, and that keeps me on the right track. It isn't too difficult to sleep after 3fpm either, not like the laying in bed for hours awake and paranoid that drugs like 4-FA and MDPV cause.

Eveleivibe: I am dreading this conversion to universal credit, it is really horrible to not know what is going to happen, these tories are fucking heartless bastards.
 
Tell me about it. Transferring from IB to ESA was stressful enough. They really don't understand the full on fear n anxiety we go through when they change these things. The CAB helped me fill those forms (which were mighty confusing). I remember switching off during that meeting n my mind just going "want codeine now!" How I got that form filled cause my mind litterally switched off. I'm good at denying / escaping / 'switching off' when stuff stresses me. One does what one needs to, n only knows how to, in order to survive.

Do you have a cab near you? Karma comes round n hopefully Tories will get theirs one day for all the lives they've messed up - or are about to mess up.

Evey
 
Not used the CAB but I have an occupational therapist who helped me apply for ESA and get the right stuff I'm entitled to, they know the system inside out and have been great for navigating through it. It is definately made as difficult as possible and the DWP try everything they can to make it a complicated process with all kinds of barriers to disuade people. It doesn't help that TV and papers are filling peoples heads with the idea anyone on benefits is a lazy scrounger, that poverty porn is sick and designed to malign and dehumanise people on benefits.
 
Hi Bearlove, weekend started yet?

I managed to get to sleep last night and leave the 3fpm alone, although I was doing a bit of frantic speed talking to people for a while.

Feeling much better today, might actually get something useful done.
 
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