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Giblets CLXXXII - Tree worship time is almost upon us

I know the services are stretched everywhere, but when you need to see a psychiatrist, a psych nurse won't do. Is it something urgent you need to see her about? Hope not, but if the worst comes to the worst I hope you get the attention you need.

My next appointment is in a couple of weeks, for which I'll need lithium levels taken. Trouble is that getting an appointment with a phlebotomist is harder than getting one with my GP, but they have a new one starting next week who may be able to fit me in.

It's full time work, this mental health outpatient lark. I'm convinced that I'm being edged ever closer to hospital for some reason, but then maybe that's just my shrink being overprotective with me, which is how she tends to be.
 
Sammy G said:
I know the services are stretched everywhere, but when you need to see a psychiatrist, a psych nurse won't do. Is it something urgent you need to see her about? Hope not, but if the worst comes to the worst I hope you get the attention you need.
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I need to get off my antipsychotic. I find it intensely dysphoric. I take it as an injection, and my mood improves rapidly towards the end of each fortnightly injection. I just had it today and am being shored up by loraz and DHC. Will probably hit the cheap white wine later.

My next appointment is in a couple of weeks, for which I'll need lithium levels taken. Trouble is that getting an appointment with a phlebotomist is harder than getting one with my GP, but they have a new one starting next week who may be able to fit me in.

It's full time work, this mental health outpatient lark. I'm convinced that I'm being edged ever closer to hospital for some reason, but then maybe that's just my shrink being overprotective with me, which is how she tends to be.
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I'm on depakote and lamictal rather than lithium, but that's mostly because I need seizure control, too. I've been in psych hospital six times, totalling about two years, and it was a waste of time. I spent most of my time asleep to pass the boring hours. The CAMHS one I was in was the worst - all the kids competed to be sicker than one another. It was chaos. I just hid in my bed all day.
 
Kota said:
I need to get off my antipsychotic. I find it intensely dysphoric. I take it as an injection, and my mood improves rapidly towards the end of each fortnightly injection. I just had it today and am being shored up by loraz and DHC. Will probably hit the cheap white wine later.
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Ah, I see. No wonder you're so keen to get off it.

I'm sure you will be, and again I don't wanna sound like some overbearing tosser, but try to be as sensible as you can with the loraz, DHC and white wine. It's not the most dangerous combo in the world, and I know the wine isn't till later, but with antipsychotics in your system as well... just be careful, alright? Promise? I'll shut up if you do. :D

Kota said:
I'm on depakote and lamictal rather than lithium, but that's mostly because I need seizure control, too. I've been in psych hospital six times, totalling about two years, and it was a waste of time. I spent most of my time asleep to pass the boring hours. The CAMHS one I was in was the worst - all the kids competed to be sicker than one another. It was chaos. I just hid in my bed all day.
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Christ, that sounds horrible. About two years in total? :|
 
When I was in hospital because of MDPV I just slept, smoked and waited to be let out while they fed me benzos for a few days. Avoided most interaction with anyone except the nurses/psychitrists, who were mostly really nice people.
 
Sammy G said:
Ah, I see. No wonder you're so keen to get off it.

I'm sure you will be, and again I don't wanna sound like some overbearing tosser, but try to be as sensible as you can with the loraz, DHC and white wine. It's not the most dangerous combo in the world, and I know the wine isn't till later, but with antipsychotics in your system as well... just be careful, alright? Promise? I'll shut up if you do. :D
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I don't intend to go nuts on them. In the interests of HR, I'll wait until the loraz has worn off before I start the wine.

Christ, that sounds horrible. About two years in total? :|
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It was pretty awful. I was bullied viciously in the CAMHS place for being weird, i.e. not borderline or a chav.
 
Ceres said:
When I was in hospital because of MDPV I just slept, smoked and waited to be let out while they fed me benzos for a few days. Avoided most interaction with anyone except the nurses/psychitrists, who were mostly really nice people.
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Most of the nurses in my hospital were nice, apart from a few old Ratchets. The psychs were a bit crazier than most of their patients.
 
Sammy G said:
I'm convinced that I'm being edged ever closer to hospital for some reason, but then maybe that's just my shrink being overprotective with me, which is how she tends to be.
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Aren't you feeling much more stable since you started taking the Lithium? It would seem like a strange and very bad decision to hospitalise you when you seem to have 'turned a corner' and seem to be getting much better. I think hospitalsing people on mental health grounds is a total last resort, and you just dont seem any where near insane enough for that. You dont seem insane atall infact. All of your posts and the things you post about what you're getting up to iin your free time are highly coherent and rational etc.
 
Kota said:
I don't intend to go nuts on them. In the interests of HR, I'll wait until the loraz has worn off before I start the wine.
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Good. I'll stop nagging. ;)

Kota said:
It was pretty awful. I was bullied viciously in the CAMHS place for being weird, i.e. not borderline or a chav.
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Urrrggghhh. What can I say? That shouldn't happen. So sorry you went through that.

mydrugbuddy said:
Aren't you feeling much more stable since you started taking the Lithium? It would seem like a strange and very bad decision to hospitalise you when you seem to have 'turned a corner' and seem to be getting better. I think hospitalsing people on mental health grounds is a total last resort, and you just dont seem any where near insane enough for that. You dont seem insane atall infact. All of your posts and the things you post about what you're getting up to iin your free time are rational etc.
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Aye, I don't think it's a serious possibility. I just think my psychiatrist is anticipating a major festive wobble, hence the extra appointments and such.

I'm glad my posts appear rational. Remember that I've had a pretty bad year though, and there's stuff under the surface that I wouldn't really talk about much on here.
 
By the way, I'm sorry if I'm a bit reckless. I'm all for HR, and would encourage anyone to take care with their substances. I'm just feeling better than i have in a long time, and with that comes disinhibition.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
hmmm, yeah. Christmas can be one of the most depressing times of year for many people. I hope it doesnt hit you that way this year.
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Last Christmas depressed me. I was alone for most of the festive season, got a leave from the hospital for the day itself, saw a couple relatives in a sad little house with a mini plastic tree, then had to listen to all the other patients enthusing over how great their Christmases had been with friends. I had no friends in that area. Thankfully I'm letting myself look forward to this year's, as things have improved so much. The one drag is that I can't afford presents for most of my family.
 
Gonna bust out the speed in a bit and then head up to bham for some messy-ness =D
 
Yeah mate a few days ago, underwelming so gonna try it again in the next few days and up it. Did 0.6, then waited 2 hours and did 0.8
 
Well im a G noobie myself, but i think you can now safely take 0.8 as your starting dose, knowing you wont feel much from less than that, and then gradually work up from there. You're doing it the right way by carefully and gradually increasing your dose until you find your 'sweet spot'.
 
Kota said:
By the way, I'm sorry if I'm a bit reckless. I'm all for HR, and would encourage anyone to take care with their substances. I'm just feeling better than i have in a long time, and with that comes disinhibition.
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No need to apologise at all. :)

Sorry if I ever come across as being all sanctimonious. That's not the intention, it was just genuine concern. Especially as I know all about the disinhibition thing.

Besides, you don't have to hang around here long to see that I don't always practice what I preach, to put it mildly.
 
Scotsman said:
I'm not a huge fan of it on it's own but goes great with most stims.
Have you tried that combo yet ??
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yeah the euphoria with G + stims + music = amazing.

G on its own is harder for a noobie to find the sweet spot without falling asleep, im still very new to it, but overdid it slightly one day, fell asleep for a short time, woke up very fucked, but in a state of complete bliss, rolling around the setee and rubbing myself all over (no not there) everywhere but there.
 
Sammy G said:
No need to apologise at all. :)

Sorry if I ever come across as being all sanctimonious. That's not the intention, it was just genuine concern. Especially as I know all about the disinhibition thing.

Besides, you don't have to hang around here long to see that I don't always practice what I preach, to put it mildly.
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Ah, no, I don't find anyone here sanctimonious. I was just worried that I was kind of going against the HR ethos.
 
who needs stims when you have NMDA antagonists. I have got so much done today thanks to mxp.
 
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