🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 Gibberings ver. CCXIX - "what's new, c*nty chops?"

[BadBoy377]

Morning all,

5g of phenibut for breakfast for me and a pot of Scottish blend.

@elgoucho9 I thought you said you were gonna leave the Diaz? Whatever though. Shame about the driving n the car n that. See what happens. Maybe you'll be lucky. Good that you're off the rock n broon. Sometimes when I'm feeling really shit I tell myself I'm lucky cos I can walk and talk and I'm no in the jail. Cos I know a few folk that cannae say that.

Have a good day, folks.

BB

 

[Pissed_and_messed]

Life is fucking torture

 

[BadBoy377]

Sure can be. Hope it gets better soon, pal.

 

[l41n]

it is if u want it to be.

edit: thats too harsh actually, what i'm trying to get at is that life can be positive and hopeful and don't give up on that idea brother/sister.

just trying to chill rn, late

 

[l41n]

ohh speaking of elimination..



yh..==

 

[l41n]

this more kalm

 

[BK38]

I've been on valium between 20-40mg for the past year as well as codeine (120mg per day - double my alloted dose. Running through my scripts 2x too fast). I realised I've been abusing my codeine script and stopped cold turkey, was a rough week and so I was using my full 40mg valium per day for just the one week. I'd previously been keeping my valium dose around 20-25mg per day and sleeping just fine/low anxiety and this one bastard of a week seems to have shot my tolerance way up and I'm getting major rebound anxiety/sleep issues holding at 35mg!

I think it must be kindling from abusing my gaba receptors with gabapentanoids in the past. I want to stomp my feet I'm so annoyed at how my tolerance jumped like 15mg, just from one week of elevated dosing. I'm like a bloody zombie, can't get more than 2-4hrs uninterrupted sleep even at 35mg! I tried jumping down to 30mg after that week of 40mg per day and it was unbearable.

Hope everyone else is having a nice weekend, just needed a wee vent.

 

[l41n]

i just smoke weed, drink alcohol, take nicotine and a mood stabiliser, antipsychotics when manic, which is a lot of the time

i don't think the weed helps lol

starting to think i have some bp2 as well as 1, or its gone from 1 to 2... curious

 

[l41n]

i've heard that taper can be brutal, yeh take it as gradually as u can manage.. much love to your way.

 

[BK38]

i just smoke weed, drink alcohol, take nicotine and a mood stabiliser, antipsychotics when manic, which is a lot of the time

i don't think the weed helps lol

starting to think i have some bp2 as well as 1, or its gone from 1 to 2... curious

Weed can definitely induce mania/paranoia in susceptible individuals. You'd fall into the category of susceptible individuals if you have BPD1 or BPD2. I suspect I might have undiagnosed BPD2 myself. Have a confirmed C-PTSD diagnosis though and if I have an episode I may sometimes need anti-psychotics.

 

[BK38]

i've heard that taper can be brutal, yeh take it as gradually as u can manage.. much love to your way.

Good advice, benzos are no joke. I'm planning on seeing if I can cut 2.5mg down every week until I'm back in the 20mg range. Rapid cessation would be dangerous af after a year+ of daily use at moderately high doses.

 

[BadBoy377]

I've been on valium between 20-40mg for the past year as well as codeine (120mg per day - double my alloted dose. Running through my scripts 2x too fast). I realised I've been abusing my codeine script and stopped cold turkey, was a rough week and so I was using my full 40mg valium per day for just the one week. I'd previously been keeping my valium dose around 20-25mg per day and sleeping just fine/low anxiety and this one bastard of a week seems to have shot my tolerance way up and I'm getting major rebound anxiety/sleep issues holding at 35mg!

I think it must be kindling from abusing my gaba receptors with gabapentanoids in the past. I want to stomp my feet I'm so annoyed at how my tolerance jumped like 15mg, just from one week of elevated dosing. I'm like a bloody zombie, can't get more than 2-4hrs uninterrupted sleep even at 35mg! I tried jumping down to 30mg after that week of 40mg per day and it was unbearable.

Hope everyone else is having a nice weekend, just needed a wee vent.

Hopefully you're over the worst of it.

Tapering is definitely a lot easier but requires discipline. Kratom helps a lot I think. Lope for the squirts and buscopan and benzos for the cramps. High dose zop has kept me sleeping through the night.

But yeah. You probably don't want to add anymore GABAnergics in there.

I too want to stomp my feet and punch the walls. If I had the fucking energy...

Best of luck to you. Sounds like you're almost there.

 

[BadBoy377]

i don't think the weed helps lol

Sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't. Less is definitely more.

 

[BK38]

Hopefully you're over the worst of it.

Tapering is definitely a lot easier but requires discipline. Kratom helps a lot I think. Lope for the squirts and buscopan and benzos for the cramps. High dose zop has kept me sleeping through the night.

But yeah. You probably don't want to add anymore GABAnergics in there.

I too want to stomp my feet and punch the walls. If I had the fucking energy...

Best of luck to you. Sounds like you're almost there.

Definitely do not want add Z-drugs, booze or other gabas into the mix. I'm over the hump with the codeine withdrawals, which sucked, but as a former heroin addict it was a cake walk WD wise. It's just these damn benzo handcuffs that have me annoyed. I do like Kratom, maybe a little too much - feels like Tramadol-lite to me and the WDs are kind of weird. So that's why I opted to just tough it out cold turkey re codeine. All good advice though. Tx for the encouragement

 

[BadBoy377]

Definitely do not want add Z-drugs, booze or other gabas into the mix. I'm over the hump with the codeine withdrawals, which sucked, but as a former heroin addict it was a cake walk WD wise. It's just these damn benzo handcuffs that have me annoyed. I do like Kratom, maybe a little too much - feels like Tramadol-lite to me and the WDs are kind of weird. So that's why I opted to just tough it out cold turkey re codeine. All good advice though. Tx for the encouragement

Yeah, you got it sorted.

Guess you're just gonna have to go the gentle taper on the benzos. Keep up the good work

 

[BK38]

Yeah, you got it sorted.

Guess you're just gonna have to go the gentle taper on the benzos. Keep up the good work

Cheers mate, just gotta keep that discipline. I'm taking some magic truffles tmrw probably for a cognitive reset hopefully. We'll see how I'm feeling and ill decide if it's a good idea or not then.

 

[BadBoy377]

Yeah that sounds perfect. Hopefully you're feeling good tomorrow

 

[elgoucho9]

Morning all,

5g of phenibut for breakfast for me and a pot of Scottish blend.

@elgoucho9 I thought you said you were gonna leave the Diaz? Whatever though. Shame about the driving n the car n that. See what happens. Maybe you'll be lucky. Good that you're off the rock n broon. Sometimes when I'm feeling really shit I tell myself I'm lucky cos I can walk and talk and I'm no in the jail. Cos I know a few folk that cannae say that.

Have a good day, folks.

BB

I only had the Diaz mate because someone owed me money and gave me a stropm I am aware it does me no good and in general oll take it now and again and mostly bosh it have it done and leave it alone for a good while. I find with Diaz one night even high doses are OK, but if I take it daily by day 3 I'm I'm massive asshole.

 

[Pissed_and_messed]

well, I figured out one thing
There will be mental dissonance
But I can pursue for reassessing its location

 

[Pissed_and_messed]

I am pleased for your empathy, I don't always know what the fuck am I doing.
I am reverted into dualism of koyaanisqatsi and with-holding interpretations.