I've drank coffee n green tea. I'm off swimming in a bit.
Y'know I've all these PTs n fitness experts on Facebook n they confuse me because some say "listen to your body when you feel run down n rest to let your muscles heel" etc. then there's the other lot who say "no excuse do it regardless" all have good bodies.
I've all this fat on me that needs to come off n if I stop now I'm scared I'll lose my motivation, stop exercising, put lots of weight back on.
And ive this anxiety that wont go away. I keep thinking about the future. I feel pettrified, trapped, scared, like I'm in a hole I can't get out n useless n just like an endless void. I keep thinking these thoughts n they wont go away.
I've messed up, am a useless joke n waste of space n don't know what to do anymore. Wish this anxiety n negative thoughts will just get away but they keep coming more n more
Evey