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Prozac (fluro wahts its name) has quite a long half life, it's been used to get people of Venlafaxine and is supoosed to be one of the better ones for withdrawal....makes me projectile vomit !

I found CBT very useful, it's not silver bullet but it definitely helped me move on a bit and help myself more.

I was reluctant to go back on as they do make me feel a bit emotionally numb on top of a few other physical side effects but I had started obsessing about suicide again and getting generally very low.

I went back on and felt 100% better within a month, longer term I'd like to not need them but for now I'm better off taking them. If I did try and stop again I'd need to work harder on other aspects of my life around looking after myself better physically and mentally.
 
Ooh, projectile vomiting, sexy :D I have to say it never helped my actual symptoms but for withdrawal it was a godsend. And yeah CBT for me seems to be very very good at getting me sorted, but find myself lapsing after a while so when I move I'll be on the look out for someone who can help me out. It's a very stressful process - to me, anyway - but it definitely works.

It's the emotional numbness that gets me most; recently when I've been happy I've actually felt it and it's wonderful. It's just the lows that make me reconsider it. Fortunately never had to deal with suicidal ideation, at least not for a good near decade. But yeah, same as you, it's not something I want to be on forever and that's why I'm trying to work on the aspects of life that cause me anxiety, OCD flare ups, etc.

Brains are a fucker. Though they can also be very fun. Also how the hell is it 4pm?
 
Just woke up at about 3:15pm :( Better than yesterdays 9pm I guess, so the trend is in the right direction. Not sure why I slept so long, I'm guessing 525mg of pregabalin and 3.5mg of pyrazolam had something to do with it. But if you've just slept for 16 hours and you want to go back to sleep you're going to need assistance, eh? So I'll either be drug-free for sleep tonight or maybe cut down to 100mg pregab and 1mg pyrazolam.

Had a very fuzzy head but 120mg ethylphenidate has cured that. Got plenty to do today but a lot of it involves making phone calls to people wiho are available during traditional office hours so I'm not sure how that's going to go. Need to dig out my todo list (first proper todo list I've done in 2 years! Pretty chuffed about that!)

<3 Hope everyone in EADD land is good! Haven't read anything yet so I'm about to find out. <3
 
*just nodded off* woke watching some child birth show. Urrr I know it happens, I know where they come from but FFS a warning?
 
I am (dubiously) proud of the fact that I have never actually seen a live child birth. I know how it works, I know what happens, but goddamn if I ever have to go through it myself I do not want to know what it looks like
 
some women use mirrors to see. that;s odd. doesn't make me feel sick or anything. folks find it odd my dad was in the room, he didn't lift his head from the news paper though, well i don't think he did i doubt if he did coz i remember him lifting it up after my son was born and had gone to have his mouth hoovered out saying "oh, has she had it?"
 
At colddan - Munich is cancelled :D so Its China - I think in reality I'm going to have to dodge it :( (ARRGGGGGHHH ) - It would be five flights /three cities and would cost a fucking fortune - I could go but spend about 10k or stay at home and send bf.....
 
I am (dubiously) proud of the fact that I have never actually seen a live child birth.

I don't think that's unusual if you're not a mum or a dad. Is it? Am I just not getting invited to them?

I heard my neighbour giving birth one night which was kind of mental. She was well pregnant (obviously) and had told me she was going to try and have it at home in one of them paddling pools all full of shit. I was just hanging around stoned and pissed one evening and I heard a kind of struggle next door, could hear that the dad was yelling something so I pressed my ear to the wall just in time to hear the baby make its first shriek at the world. They didn't even have time to phone the midnight never mind erect the pool.
 
So this brings my perception of yanks to a whole new level of daft, theres a bridge. The big scary bridge has only 2 lanes, dun dun dun. There is an official companys that drives you across this bridge, whilst you sit in the seat next to them, because its so fucking scary. Some guy pays them twice a day and has done for year, so dam scary take a look.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-23887805
 
It's pretty vile if you ask me - if you knew (lets face is you have 9 months [or is it six?]) anyhooo you have time to trim your lady garden before going into hospital. If your going to show your fanny on screen for the world - trim it first!

(Im having a laugh- I know the need , desire to have children - just shave your fannies if your going to broadcast it OK)
 
I never work. A gentleman of leisure, I am.

I agree, I would class myself as a man of leisure & sophisticated vice.

Afternoon folks, I hope everyone is doing well :)
Had a nice day myself, a day spent smoking nice tobacco, drinking tea & smoking very nice quality smack (like usual)
nodded out in the chair & only came round about 30 mins ago but have hurt my neck from having my head tilted back for several hours.

I am looking at going back to college & have been finding out about courses today but i'm not 100% sure what I want to do sadly, i've got to the age where I have got to do something really soon or I will be on the scrap heap for the rest of my days & I know alot of you think I am some dumb fuck chav, waste man but it may shock 98.9% of you but Bodda aint as dumb as you think I am.

Hope everyone is doing well, the sun is been blazing today, cracked the windows in the yard & had a nice bit of wind coming through, seen so many dogs out for a walk today, I think dogs can tell I like them as they always wanna sniff me or look at me & give me nice vibes which lifts my mood a bit.
Still got the ex chasing me sadly, she doesn't seem to grasp Bodda is done, there is NO way I am going through that much pain ever again, no woman is worth those dark weeks where your thinking of shooting a gram of b to end it all, bun that for a idea.
 
It's pretty vile if you ask me - if you knew (lets face is you have 9 months [or is it six?]) anyhooo you have time to trim your lady garden before going into hospital. If your going to show your fanny on screen for the world - trim it first!

(Im having a laugh- I know the need , desire to have children - just shave your fannies if your going to broadcast it OK)

Both mine were delivered by C section, I stayed firmly at the other end as I'd have been even less useful laying on the floor. The first C section was planned and they ask the lady to trim said garden prior, they even provided a little set of clippers....I did a fine job if I do say so myself:)
 
Woke up still feeling the 10mgs of lorazepam I ended up doing last night, quite and chilled, then stupidly drank two espressos and rebound anxiety hit me like a tank, tremors and eveerything, took some valeriand and passiflora and 5htp, then went to see my therapist, had a chat. Now I'm gome with a fag and a tea.

Does anybody esle get a taste ofr fags while on benzos? I usually like them much better, I can even "feel them sort o speak.
 
Both mine were delivered by C section, I stayed firmly at the other end as I'd have been even less useful laying on the floor. The first C section was planned and they ask the lady to trim said garden prior, they even provided a little set of clippers....I did a fine job if I do say so myself:)

Picture or it didn't happen! (actually NSFW it).
 
two espressos

<3 ssssoooooo much :)

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Never knew you smoked MK, just curious how much 20 fags is in Italy?
 
Just found out my mates been banging my ex. I always figured this is one of those things that would drive me mental, but I actually couldn't give a fuck. I don't know if that's a good thing or not :\ haha
 
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