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Gibberings CLXXXIX - Squirrel Nut Zippers, the Albert Hall and going cookerless

Eveyvibe said:
Out of curiosity why's this forum called Bluelight? It's a lovely name n all but why?

Evey
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One of my favorite site names (and sites in the past) was / is Squatjuice, it was a fearsome place to post though, makes TL look like mums net
 
Falling asleep with a shower cap on and coconut oil dripping down your ears and cheeks isn't so much fun D:
 
Eveyvibe said:
Oh im a member of that I talk to another Bluelighter there.

Evey
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Squatjuice ?? really back in the day it was a place of total anarchy, funny though :) I still have an account there but havent posted in a long time. Does Richie Freeway still run tings ?
 
Kota said:
Got a couple new revision books in the post. More reminders that exam time is coming close. I have until the end of the week to finish off a couple sciences assignments and I'm terrified. Hope I can pull myself together in time. Somehow I don't see university on the horizon any more.
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Evening! Out of lorazepam again, but I have 150mg pregabalins and, er, 5mg Libriums. Eh, I'll get by.

Oh, Kota <3

Don't give up on yourself now. You can always re-sit your A-levels, if the worst happens. Even if it means starting uni a year late, you'll have an extra year of life experience under your belt, and that will be Which subjects are you taking to get on a pharmacology course, if you don't mind me asking? Maths, chemistry and biology?

Stay strong. Concentrate on what matters. Where there's a will, there's always a way. Feel free to drop me a PM anytime you're feeling in need of a little support
 
Ughhhhh why does getting up in the mornings seem like the biggest chore / effort in history??? Is this what it's like when you get older? It's horrible. My Nain used to say "give me a while to wake up!" I looked at her soft at the time but she was in her 80s ffs! I'm 35! Is ut meant to be a major effort to function in the morning at 35???? Seriously???? At 32 I was getting up 5:30/6:30 each morning now this?!?!?!

Please tell me this doesn't get worst? I'm literally dreading every morning.

After a few hours, I'm feeling ok. Normal. But in the morning it's bloody unbearable. What the HELL am I going to feel in my 80s? If I ever get there.

Ahhhh starting to feel okish now, yea now I've taken lilvibe to brekkie club.

Oh I'm so tired of this bullshit n I don't even like the word bullshit. Sorry for the downer people!

But any advice would be very much appreciated!!!!!!!!!

Evey
 
Mornings are glorious. Best time of the day by far. I always awake with the morning star, and watch the sun begin to bleach the sky. This time of year is very special to me, as I get to do that and not be late for work.

I used to hate them, but now I'm in the routine, I really appreciate the peace and quiet of those early hours. I'm thirty-four, so it isn't an age thing.

Green tea and a decent multivitamin will also work wonders.
 
Lol that was why i wanted to try it. Yes I should know better etc etc but everyone tries things once don't they n I'm so sick of looking n feeling like an old woman in my mid 30s. Its really getting me now. Three years ago I felt young n healthy now this????? I was expecting to start feeling n looking this way in my mid 50s not 30s.

And before anyone mention diet, exercise, hydration - I'm doing those things. I've a post grad qualification in weight management so I know all that but something isn't right n it's really getting me down.

Sammy G said:
Mornings are glorious. Best time of the day by far. I always awake with the morning star, and watch the sun begin to bleach the sky. This time of year is very special to me, as I get to do that and not be late for work.

I used to hate them, but now I'm in the routine, I really appreciate the peace and quiet of those early hours. I'm thirty-four, so it isn't an age thing.

Green tea and a decent multivitamin will also work wonders.
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I used to feel the same. Was the best time of day. Best time to exercise too. Would have three hour endorphin rush then would feel ace for the whole day.

Edit: im taking green tea tablets. I cant stand green tea though ive got the apple n pear version here. Will force it down me I think.

Evey
 
Sounds a little like depression to me, Evey. I felt like an eighty year old man for a lot of my late teens and twenties because of it. Some of my thirties too.
 
I hope not. I tpok myself off citalopram 30th December. It made me suicidal. Well I'd be ok on it but if anything happened it was like a major catastrophe. And on Mirtazapine I threw a toaster across the room in a rage on day 7. Never going on antidepressants again.

Come to think on it I used to lecture everyone on Facebook about antidepressants n then went on them myself for two years so im a hypocrite.

Edit: I'm learning Welsh tomorrow (ugh) with the recovery group at 9:30 am.

Evey
 
There are plenty of different antidepressants out there, and I don't think seven days is long enough to be feeling the benefits of mirtazipine. I'm a bit of a hypocrite, because I went off my own antidepressants at the age of nineteen, but that was because they'd made me feel good (i.e. manic).

Routine did a lot to help me through the unmedicated times, but then again I was always self-medicating anyway.
 
I was stopping the citalopram the time I started Mirtazine so that may have impacted on me feeling angry. Was on Bluelight at that time though was on TDS not EADD. (I didn't find out about EADD until months after I'd joined. I saw someone called Effie in the grief thread.)

Yea a lot have said that, that routine had helped them.

Evey
 
You're dead right - it was probably the citalopram withdrawal that caused your toaster rage.

Someone called effie? She's a wonderful person, and one of my all-time favourite Bluelighters. I remember getting through four cans of Tennents on the phone to her once - both of us quite impaired - and she let me nip out to the shop for more before calling back. Good times. :)

I hope she's doing okay. <3
 
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