Hi FG, im glad your latest disociative experience got your mind into a better place this time round. Is it like you have somehow managed to press "reset" and managed to "find yourself" and clear out some of the unwanted cobwebs & baggage, which is an ideal result of such trips?
It's a bit like Russian Roulette though if you're mindset is a bit haywire to begin with ime. It can often make things much worse, and you've been lucky to have one that has yielded a positive outcome. I hope you quit them now, whilst you are ahead. I swear the states of minds disocvs and psyches can leave in you in can last for weeks, if not several months. I agree with Sam that you are a fucking gent when you're not fucked up, i wouldnt go so far as to say you are a fucking idiot when you get fucked up, but i doubt you'd pass the military "psycholigical fitness' tests when you get yourself in those midsets. :D
A weird thing happened last night after i took a load of etiz, flubroz, and red borneo kratom. I was expecting to drift off into a pleasant haze, but instead i ended up brimming with energy and ideas, writing feverishly long "To Do Lists". All meant to be done today, or during my midweek days off next week. Im blaming it on the flubroz that i have FA motivation to do barely any of the things on the list today.
One thing i need to do is find my posts in the cannabinoids threads in the cannabis subforum about the ratios of noids to smokable herbs that i calculated that i needed to use. I have quite a lot of powders left over from the second generation ban give-away sales. My current homemade 50g (or was it 25g i cant remember ) herbal mix has lasted me about 2 years, but is almost all gone now. I think im missing one of the 3 herbs that i used, ive got mullein and damiania, cant even remember what the 3rd herb is called, but it will be there in my posts. BL has come in useful several times as a kind of online diary of where ive kept notes of my experiences and trials and errors. I spose i could add and mix in the third one later if i get it ordered off ebay today. One of the big noid baggies just has powder clinging to the inside of the bag, there is no way of extracting it and weighing it, ill just have to swill it out with acetone and spray it onto the herbs, or mix it into the herbs using surgical gloves, as the spray thingie always gets cloggd up
!), and hope for the best
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Sorry if all this is tl;dr. Its that LTP kratom, fucking good shit, so it is. :D Rotating strains ftw, thanks for the tip Mental Kenny.
