Just been reading some stuff about benzos causing depression and rebound anxiety I suspect it must have some basis if I could be fucked to look harder. I can't stop crying been about 6 hours now..I am actually OK ish and I knew there would be an almighty pay back after last weekend and further ongoing through last week shenanigans..then I actually did fruck my back on Thursday which is hardly surprising after running around like a loon cleaning and tidying which then led to this weekend being a right off..a planned weekend off wonderous ness and road trips and old friends and getting geting dressed up etc etc..I couldn't even stand up..so I being me hit the diaz and the codeine and the etz and the xanax..not exactly one to do anything by halves.
So worked out about 22 diaz over 26tish hours yesteray..tha is rather a lot..I have stopped a while ago I just feel so sad..and der dumm derrrr feel like taking a xanax or 3..oh fuck it can someone have a word?
I need spanking and taking in hand (and not in a pleasurable way) just ..any chance of someone in a less terrifying and yes you should know better and what did you expect type way..than the word I am currently having with myself.