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If my parents ever found out I took drugs my life would literally end.

Sounds like you had a lucky escape though spliff, can't believe it hasn't crossed your mind again considering you were injecting too. Very lucky indeed.
 
The loss of money would be more devastating than what they would say tbh, what with my parents being the 'don't really give a shit' types. I'm pretty careful still, only had a few close calls. Had one the other day actually, had a fat line of coke on my desk which I'd hidden under a tissue box, mother comes into room, sees that the tissue box is empty and reaches for it saying 'do you want me to put that in the recycling'. So like a coked up ninja I leap in with the excellent response of 'leave it, I'm going to put stuff in it'... which she accepted, backing away and leaving my cokehead status preserved for now.

Another funny one was when I was buying coke at uni, not really a close call situation because the person wouldn't have cared but I was taking a wrap of coke off my dealer (from his car), he drove off, I turned around and saw one of my housemates literally right behind me. I closed my fist around my ill gotten gains, we exhanged a knowing smile and off I went to test out my purchase.
 
Spliff Politics said:
The police officer actually found a loaded syringe on my bed. Had only been injecting for a week, so in all honesty im lucky it happened when it did. I have absolutely no desire to go near them again; although it was nice to experience it. Im surprised really; it hasnt even crossed my mind since it happened.

Basically she was actually really really safe about it. Shes knows that ive been plagued with horrible anxiety most my life, so she was very understanding why i was using. Ive said that she can check my statements to account for where my money is going to prove that im not still buying anything. The worst thing wasnt the fact that i was going through this ordeal; its that she had to find out all this shit. She then gave it thee old "Im sure it must have been something wrong with my parenting" which i tried to put a stop to, but im sure shes always going to blame herself to some degree.

Apart from me being left with more anxiety and apathy from both the GBL wd and Heroin wd; i think its probably for the best that it happened tbh. My mum may not think that way, but it could have easily snowballed and become a much worse problem.
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It sounds like you have a great mum there. Yes mums especially will think they must have done something wrong while bringing you up for you to have turned to drugs,heroin especially.
From what you have said it sounds like you are quite pleased in a way as it has helped nipped things in the bud.
Luckily you had only been injecting for a week so you didn't have achance to get addicted to the rush & the needle.
Every cloud has a Silver lining as the saying goes and this looks like it may have helped you out in the long run.
 
Haha you're lucky Summer!

My biggest slip up was when my mother found a SYRINGE FULL OF HEROIN in my room when I was 17 and getting ready for school one morning. Oops.
 
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Haha you're lucky Summer!

My biggest slip up was when my mother found a SYRINGE FULL OF HEROIN in my room when I was 17 and getting ready for school one morning. Oops.
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Ha,that certainly pisses all over most school kids who are worrying that their parents may find their cigarettes
 
Yeah, I think that'd do it. I've got quite a few pieces of drug paraphanalia that I probably ought to conceal better. The hiding in plain sight hasn't failed me so far but really, some of them are just sitting in the fucking jiffy bags they came in lol, all together in one big box. Most of them are pretty innocuous, but as a package they're more than incriminating. I should just put my drugs on top and really complete the picture.
 
maxalfie said:
It sounds like you have a great mum there. Yes mums especially will think they must have done something wrong while bringing you up for you to have turned to drugs,heroin especially.
From what you have said it sounds like you are quite pleased in a way as it has helped nipped things in the bud.
Luckily you had only been injecting for a week so you didn't have achance to get addicted to the rush & the needle.
Every cloud has a Silver lining as the saying goes and this looks like it may have helped you out in the long run.
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Yeah i mean it really could have gone a lot of ways, but thankfully it all turned out okay. I may not have become addicted to the needle, but i know fully well that i am psychologically addicted to not just one drug in particular, but drugs in general. At least with physical addiction you know roughly when its gonna end, but the psychological aspect hasnt eased up in the slightest. I know at the end of the day, it is the users choice to pick up and use the drug, but sometimes it really does feel like a irresistible urge. I think the best option is finding a hobby, but i really dont know what would interest me enough.

I know this is all horribly self-indulgent, but cheers for the support everycunt :)
 
SummerSerenade said:
Yeah, I think that'd do it. I've got quite a few pieces of drug paraphanalia that I probably ought to conceal better. The hiding in plain sight hasn't failed me so far but really, some of them are just sitting in the fucking jiffy bags they came in lol, all together in one big box. Most of them are pretty innocuous, but as a package they're more than incriminating. I should just put my drugs on top and really complete the picture.
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Buy a donna kebab and just store your drug beneath all the rancid meat, mayo and chili's. Then just pop the kebab in the corner of your room and if anyone goes to throw it away just snarl at them "Lay one fackin' finger on my donna and youll be through the fackin winda"
 
I didn't even take drugs until I was pretty much 19. Such a little angel I am ;)

Can't believe you didnt get addicted to the needle after a week though spliff, I know I would after only one time really which is why I've tried so hard not to go down that path yet. Came within inches of it the other day so I suppose that was a lucky escape for me too. Totally get the feeling of having an irresistable urge to do something, was exactly how I felt, fuck knows how I resisted it really. I guess there are still reasons not to be a complete mess even if they are stupid ones :P

And the kebab suggestion is inspired, I'll keep it in mind next time I get some lurvely drugs in.
 
SummerSerenade said:
Yeah, I think that'd do it. I've got quite a few pieces of drug paraphanalia that I probably ought to conceal better. The hiding in plain sight hasn't failed me so far but really, some of them are just sitting in the fucking jiffy bags they came in lol, all together in one big box. Most of them are pretty innocuous, but as a package they're more than incriminating. I should just put my drugs on top and really complete the picture.
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Yeah you're probably fine if they don't invade your privacy excessively. I used to have so many hiding places for my drugs and I was always changing them so I could never remember where I actually left them and a few months later when the drugs are long forgotten about one of my parents would stumble across them and world war 3 would break out. I was in a constant state of anxiety worrying that I had left some form of evidence somewhere. And then on a few occasions they'd find weird tablets and ask me what they were and threatened to have them checked and I'd be like "please do, I have no idea what they are but I would only love to know as I've definitely taken them." =D

Jesus I was a nightmare of a child.
 
Spliff Politics said:
Yeah i mean it really could have gone a lot of ways, but thankfully it all turned out okay. I may not have become addicted to the needle, but i know fully well that i am psychologically addicted to not just one drug in particular, but drugs in general. At least with physical addiction you know roughly when its gonna end, but the psychological aspect hasnt eased up in the slightest. I know at the end of the day, it is the users choice to pick up and use the drug, but sometimes it really does feel like a irresistible urge. I think the best option is finding a hobby, but i really dont know what would interest me enough.

I know this is all horribly self-indulgent, but cheers for the support everycunt :)
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I can understand the psychological aspect of drugs.When I was in my twenties I loved drinking,speed, acid, Ecstasy and coke just because I loved anything that changed the way my mind felt. I enjoyed being able to take a drug and within a short space of time totally changing the way my head felt.
All those times were fun as there was no real consequence to their usage.
It was only when I started to use heroin on a full time basis that using drugs became more than just a fun thing to do at weekends and became a full time preoccupation with scoring just to stop myself becoming sick.
Years of heroin abuse appears to have robbed me of the ability to get pleasure out of anything in life anymore.
Been off it since 2012 and still can't feel real joy, just hope one day those emotions do return to me.
 
SummerSerenade said:
I didn't even take drugs until I was pretty much 19. Such a little angel I am ;)

Can't believe you didnt get addicted to the needle after a week though spliff, I know I would after only one time really which is why I've tried so hard not to go down that path yet. Came within inches of it the other day so I suppose that was a lucky escape for me too. Totally get the feeling of having an irresistable urge to do something, was exactly how I felt, fuck knows how I resisted it really. I guess there are still reasons not to be a complete mess even if they are stupid ones :P

And the kebab suggestion is inspired, I'll keep it in mind next time I get some lurvely drugs in.
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Im not too sure either tbh. I think it may because there is no 1 drug that i adore the most (of course have ya favorites) and i vary what i take as much as possible.

Your thinking of injecting coke though, right? I think that the rush of that, even compared to heroin is in a different league. If you do do it (because no amount of someone telling your not to is gonna actually stop you) just be prepared for the absolute worst. Well, the absolute best, swiftly followed by the worst. Im sure you already know this as well, but IV'ing coke, there is a very thin line between a bellringer and a OD, so doubly sure that your scales are correct. Good on you for resisting though. Just think that each day you do that is another day that your life isnt potentially dictated by the needle.

If you do end up doing it, try and time it perfectly with having a orgasm. Would love to hear if anyone has actually done this hah. Apparently IV meth can cause men to ejaculate which sounds quite enticing.
 
SummerSerenade said:
Can't believe you didnt get addicted to the needle after a week though spliff, I know I would after only one time really which is why I've tried so hard not to go down that path yet. Came within inches of it the other day so I suppose that was a lucky escape for me too. Totally get the feeling of having an irresistable urge to do something, was exactly how I felt, fuck knows how I resisted it really. I guess there are still reasons not to be a complete mess even if they are stupid ones :P
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You're tempted to shoot coke, is it? Although I injected a bit when I first started using heroin it was a little too intense for my liking due to my almost nonexistent tolerance so I went back to smoking and I haven't been tempted since. I figure that if smoking is good enough for me I may as well stick to that ROA rather than move up to injecting which will inevitably be even more pleasurable than smoking. I don't hear of too many people going back to smoking after injecting unless all of their veins are fucked.
 
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