Gibberings CLXXIV - Cock Piss Partridge

[Eveleivibe]

I go through phases.... sometimes I'll have writer's block n not write a thing for months and then suddenly I'll just spout out louds within minutes, I tend to do better when feeling low or listening to music... but music kinda enhancing emotion... just poiwerful tunes are way too intense, which I love suboxone for, kinda tones it down somehow...

Opiates are like the devil in a way; seductive and powerful; intensive, magnetising, warming, soothing and protecting with that heavy, warm blanket....
yet manipulative, deceitful, controlling, giving a somewhat falsification of reality itself to suck in, to magnetise, to deceive, to brainwash, to give a somewhat deluded images of security and to suck n magnetise in closer and closer before spiting out like a piece of desolated dirt, along, deserted and unwanted.... judged and misinterpreted, fragile yet so very needing to be wanting and included...

EDIT: I'm fucked..... wish raas was here..... EADD is always exciting when raas is here, isn't it people?????

Evey

 

[Raasyvibe]

I go through phases.... sometimes I'll have writer's block n not write a thing for months and then suddenly I'll just spout out louds within minutes, I tend to do better when feeling low or listening to music... but music kinda enhancing emotion... just poiwerful tunes are way too intense, which I love suboxone for, kinda tones it down somehow...

Opiates are like the devil in a way; seductive and powerful; intensive, magnetising, warming, soothing and protecting with that heavy, warm blanket....
yet manipulative, deceitful, controlling, giving a somewhat falsification of reality itself to suck in, to magnetise, to deceive, to brainwash, to give a somewhat deluded images of security and to suck n magnetise in closer and closer before spiting out like a piece of desolated dirt, along, deserted and unwanted.... judged and misinterpreted, fragile yet so very needing to be wanting and included...

EDIT: I'm fucked..... wish raas was here..... EADD is always exciting when raas is here, isn't it people?????

Evey

That's a very nice analogy of the accrued effects of Suboxone addiction. Now you are aware of what it is; work yourself out of it.


Here's a song for you - St Etienne - He's on the phone

 

[Eveleivibe]

That's a very nice analogy of the accrued effects of Suboxone addiction. Now you are aware of what it is; work yourself out of it.


Here's a song for you - St Etienne - He's on the phone

Eh?????

Evey

 

[Raasyvibe]

Nope. Only people who "don't think it's funny who have a laugh about abusers of children when they know fuck all what they're talking about" are currently online.

What's up?

 

[Eveleivibe]

Nope. Only people who "don't think it's funny who have a laugh about abusers of children when they know fuck all what they're talking about" are currently online.

What's up?

How you doing, Raas, how's work? How's the spiritual sites? I'd give you a link but I don't know if it's allowed and I'm not sure if it's still working.... Have you checked out BL's stuff yet? Some extremely good debates there.... I'm too f****d to go there though on the JD... Ace stuff....


I love my child more than life. I may moan about her but if anything ever happened to her I'd kill myself, she's the loveliness, most beautiful, amazing person in my life and no one else compares ever.... When she smiles, makes everything worthwhile; seeing her face at Christmas, birthday; whenever she's happy... She has tantrums but she's an extremely talented, beautiful, loving, living, bright child. I really DO NOT understand how anyone could ever hurt a child... I admit that before I had my baby girl, I was not maternity n had my issues, but I don't understand how ANYONE can hurt a child and furthermore how ANYONE CAN JUSTIFY it by saying these monsters needs rehabilitating.... NO, they need eradicating like a vicious disease is what they need... OUR CHILD ARE FUCKING INNOCENT AND ASKED FOR NONE OF IT!!!!! They should come first, every time....

Evey

 

[ColtDan]

Nice long chat with the lovely hairdresser lady... and finally not looking like such a funky haired mess. then the other hairdresser bloke turned up, chatting for awhile and gave me a number for a company looking for a crane operator and some other recommendations. result. mashup tonight with zoe. tis gonna be a good day

 

[Sammy G]

I really DO NOT understand how anyone could ever hurt a child... I admit that before I had my baby girl, I was not maternity n had my issues, but I don't understand how ANYONE can hurt a child and furthermore how ANYONE CAN JUSTIFY it by saying these monsters needs rehabilitating.... NO, they need eradicating like a vicious disease is what they need... OUR CHILD ARE FUCKING INNOCENT AND ASKED FOR NONE OF IT!!!!! They should come first, every time....

Evey

Attitudes like that, which foster a climate of fear and instil in every child a sense that every adult (aside from maybe family members, who happen to be the most likely perpetrators, in fact) hurt children, and society in general, far more than the occasional atrocity which happens to make the news; usually due to an element of social care 'neglect' rather than the severity of the incident.

But hey, enjoy the rage, and enjoy the ignorance. I hear it's bliss.

 

[ponch]

Are you a crane operator by trade? Pretty sweet job, especially if you are on sites that are behind schedule and pay you to keep craneage going for extended hours.

 

[Eveleivibe]

Nice long chat with the lovely hairdresser lady... and finally not looking like such a funky haired mess. then the other hairdresser bloke turned up, chatting for awhile and gave me a number for a company looking for a crane operator and some other recommendations. result. mashup tonight with zoe. tis gonna be a good day

I had a strange dream a few years back about those cranes. They were in a field n someone called Michael died. Freaked me out that did.


Evey

 

[mydrugbuddy]

It's moderated, so you won't find it... however, maybe MDB can fill us in on how it went, although I suspect he won't remember all of it.

Moderated? Does that mean vanished? I dont remember that thread atall, probably for the best, was i getting angry and upset and typing with caps lock on throughout? It sounds embarrassing w/e the case. I read some of my pms from that time the other day, i was mad as a hatter, so i was. Sending multiple deranged pms to ALL the mods.

 

[mydrugbuddy]

OI!!!! *SMACK!!!!* Enough of that, Mr!!!! You got that job fair n square... you did your research, you searched for jobs over and over.... hell once you sent 50 CVs / applications out in one weeks.... that's a helluva most than most... They've taken you on because you're GOOD AT YOUR JOB!!!! No more putting yourself down... be proud of your achievements and own them... Read The Four Agreements and please don't sell yourself short,MDB, also you're very much respected on here....

And for what it's worth, you're one of the members I contact the most to talk to because I find you interesting and for your advice, which I think is TOP QUALITY advice and have taken it on numerous occasions.... so it's not "If I can get a job anyone can..." they chose YOU over lots of others and they are STILL choosing YOU so that speaks volumes.... How long have you been there now? Is it coming to the three month mark????

Good luck, MDB, you just need a bit more confidence in yourself and your abilities and capabilities!!!!

EDIT: Chatative that's perfectly understandable and yes you're right it's up to MDB if he wants to tell us... Right Facebook msger, MDB! JK :D

Evey

thanks Evey, my confidence issues were one thing i didnt get properly ironed out with my counsellor. It is something i am working on though, being more level headed and grounded, and have made quite a lot of progress, i seem to be a bit flawed in that i sometimes dont develop a healthy self confidence when things go well or im good at something, it can go over the top and turn into an arrogant grandiose egotism quite easily, especially when drugs are involved. This obviously doesnt sit well with other people so it all falls down a bit when i meet with some resistance from other people. I suppose its a good thing that im aware of this at least.

Yeah the 3 month mark is coming up, they have already told me that they will be keeping me on. So unless i majorly fuck up in the next month with multiple absences and latenesses I'll be OK. Ive made the last 6 weeks or so with no more of that, so i have no reason to think im gonna slip up again now.

One of my colleagues is like OCD, the way he sets up his screens, and he's always having a go at me for something or other, the latest was that i didnt set up my screens in the OCD way that he does, and that he told me to, as his way was best. 8) He doesnt seeem to factor in that everyone has their own prefered style of working, and what works for him may not work for everone, i told him calmly that "this is what works for me" the way i am doing things, which is plenty clear and organised enough. No one else sets their screens up like him. I dont have to be his clone. If he keeps going on about it, it's going to become an issue.

 

[Sammy G]

Before you come up with a reply like that, SammyG , have you any idea as to why I'm so angry on the subject matter????

The revelation about a paedophile you once knew, do you mean? Yes, you've alluded to it both in public and PM.

Wanna know how this whole business is much, much closer to home for me? Do you really? Well trust me, it is, and I'm neither going to expand upon it by PM or otherwise, because it ain't your business.

So please, no attempts at emotive one-(wo)manship, because in this instance you're dealing with the wrong (wo)man.

Neither of us has a moral highground on this issue. So stop grasping.

 

[mydrugbuddy]

Nothing you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.

It's easy.

All You Need Is Love?

 

[ponch]

The paedophile witch hunt that goes on is pretty worrying and is also quite sad.

Last summer there was a little boy in the park that looked as if he was lost and I felt I couldnt approach him to help incase someone got the wrong idea. Just had to keep an eye on him to make sure he was alright until his dad showed up. Maybe i'm just being paranoid but it seems to me there is a bit of an unhealthy obsession with their being a paedo on every street corner.

 

[Eveleivibe]

As you have pointed out we both have emotional reasons for our opinions but leading to name-calling is rather petulant n unnecessary. We differ it happens but there is no need to get funny with
Me over a drunken post that I have deleted.

But without saying too much a certain person was "rehabilitates," walked the walk n talked the talk. He was believe ny many. He then went on to get two women pregnant under false pretendses, then move in with a family with austistic disorders n abused one of the child. So there is a child's life ruined now because he was "rehabilitated," plus two children who have to be told one day. Imagine how the mother feels with that burden n guilt? Plus they are unaware they have a brother/sister.

So kindly don't call me names for feeling sore over the subject.

Whatever you've been through I am deeply sorry for.

Evey

 

[Chatative]

Morning all...

Moderated? Does that mean vanished? I dont remember that thread atall, probably for the best, was i getting angry and upset and typing with caps lock on throughout? It sounds embarrassing w/e the case. I read some of my pms from that time the other day, i was mad as a hatter, so i was. Sending multiple deranged pms to ALL the mods.

Yeah, just means the thread was 'unapproved', so vanished as you say. Unfortunatly the means by which it is vanished does not involve a wand.

 

[ColtDan]

Are you a crane operator by trade? Pretty sweet job, especially if you are on sites that are behind schedule and pay you to keep craneage going for extended hours.

Nah but 10 years experience with gantry/overhead cranes, certified operator & slinging/banksman

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handling 50ft lengths of steel was some dodgy shit at times. especially 5tonne packs of it

 

[Eveleivibe]

Moderated? Does that mean vanished? I dont remember that thread atall, probably for the best, was i getting angry and upset and typing with caps lock on throughout? It sounds embarrassing w/e the case. I read some of my pms from that time the other day, i was mad as a hatter, so i was. Sending multiple deranged pms to ALL the mods.

Multiple PMs to mods??? i can't imagine you doing that lol

Morning all...

Yeah, just means the thread was 'unapproved', so vanished as you say. Unfortunatly the means by which it is vanished does not involve a wand.

Morning, Chatative. Hope you're doing good

The paedophile witch hunt that goes on is pretty worrying and is also quite sad.

Last summer there was a little boy in the park that looked as if he was lost and I felt I couldnt approach him to help incase someone got the wrong idea. Just had to keep an eye on him to make sure he was alright until his dad showed up. Maybe i'm just being paranoid but it seems to me there is a bit of an unhealthy obsession with their being a paedo on every street corner.

Yea I do agree with this. I too wont go near other kids for fear of it. Blame the actual pedos for that one.

Evey

 

[ColtDan]

I cant find the theology thread or whatever it was so im gonna dump this here

 

[Sammy G]

As you have pointed out we both have emotional reasons for our opinions but leading to name-calling is rather petulant n unnecessary. So kindly don't call me names for feeling sore over the subject.

Whatever you've been through I am deeply sorry for.

Evey

I haven't 'called you names'. I've criticised your attitudes and opinions, which is part and parcel of a discussion. It's a distinction I believe you continually fail to make, and it's to the detriment of your standing on this forum and the positive contributions you have to make.

Thank you for your expression of sympathy. It's appreciated, despite the heated exchange.