Nice - It seems to skip quite a bit though (could be my awful internet)
Anyone else shot up tequilla? don't, sends you all spinney in about 10 seconds
Brothers and Sisters,
It is with great regret and heartfelt shame that I declare that, last week, I have succumbed to my own inherent nature and fallen for the great snare of spirit, that is Sin.
I have been punished with exclusion from this site. Yet, during this time away... it has given me an opportunity to re-evaluate my own consciousness and bring awareness to it's very nature. By confronting and recognising the beast that lurks from within, is the only way I can admonish it and give way to my true beauty...
My spiritual state has shifted and I now see and hear things in a different way. I will now post less frequently in EADD, but give utterances of wisdom where necessary for the benefit of you all.
Erm... yeah, anywayz, I would also like to reveal that last week I spoke to BRIMZ.... on the... PHONE!
Yes that's right. BRIMZ... ..... Brimz.... ON THE PHONE!!
I spoke to Brimz on the phone last week. The phone call was unprecedented, as i became the first ever member of Bluelight to ring up Brimz and NOT try to score gear off him in the same call*
He was going through very heavy heroin withdrawal and claims to be taking 1 gram a day. I asked if he was injecting it, he was confused and quickly corrected me, "I've been banging it mate". Brimz's use was certainly extreme as the withdrawls were so bad he had difficulty even putting a sentence together. Certainly puts the rest of us to shame with our stupid little rants about the trivial issues in our lives.
Like him or not, and yes sometimes those oldskool rave youtube videos are annoying... Brimz is proper hardcore drug-wise.
Despite his severe addiction problems, in his stuttering words you could still sense a very heartfelt and sincere tone when he described how he felt this site had let him down. He nearly died and may never be the same again, due to drug solicitation through this site. The contemptuous and mocking treatment he received by senior staff as it's attempted to be swept under the carpet, is stomach-churningly atrocious.
Brimz has suffered serious addictions for years and is demonstrably, very vulnerable towards drug problems. So introducing him to a range of new drugs and supplying him with sources to them is MADNESS. In this case, nearly killed him.
I'm not writing this to stir animosity, I'm not naming people publicly or trying to show them up... but to make a very needed point: BL collects many troubled individuals who have varied drug problems. Due to the anonymity of the Internet, you may not be aware of how vulnerable a person is... so PLEASE keep your drug usage to yourself and don't try to get others caught up in it!
I'll probably get infracted again, for speaking out an opinion.... so read up while you can... But whatever happens, it needed to be said.
Erm, other news....I'm a week or 2 out...but Evey has told me that she will never use the site again, thanks to the negative comments she constantly receives! And believe me, if she says she'll never use the site again... she certainly means it! We've lost a great member for good... jus' think about that...
OK, that's enough for tonight
Bless all of you, follow your hearts...
Raas
*This is a lie, I did attempt
RIGHT!
Time for MY SAY!
Rass, How DARE you use ME as a way to cause drama? You call me a friend and I read this????
Have you not, for once, thought that myself or Brimz may deserve the respect of privacy in things we tell you privately?
You've used me here as a pon in your stupid game and I don't appreciate it! I've taken a break from Bluelight for my own reasons - which I do not wish to disclose here. But HOW DARE YOU USE ME LIKE THIS??? And I actually thought I liked you? Kindly DO NOT use me like that again!
I have not read any personal messages I've received here yet (received notifications) I've taken my own break n it's NOTING to do with Brimz, you or anyone else. I can speak for myself.
If in future, you wish you wish to stir shite or cause drama keep my name out of it I've enough stuff going on - I don't need this.
To the rest of you, I wish you all well, and please ignore this BS from rass, you know full well if I had an issue I'd air it here myself. I just need, right now, to deal with stuff in my own, life. I'll be back once all that is sorted.
It really is a DAMN shame that I have to test people as I really thought raas was decent.
Evey.
PS: Please don't pm me with things I've done wrong I really don't need it right now. Please can you all take care, be happy, and believe no shit raas tells you about me
Evey xxxx
raas said:Erm, other news....I'm a week or 2 out...but Evey has told me that she will never use the site again, thanks to the negative comments she constantly receives! And believe me, if she says she'll never use the site again... she certainly means it! We've lost a great member for good... jus' think about that...
Just booked my vacation - heading to cooler climate this time, Stockholm, Helsinki, Talin and then Amsterdam (first time for me in Amsterdam so no doubt I will be digging out the Amsterdam thread and asking the usual questions).