Morning all,
Only just read the last few pages of this thread trying to catch up. We all use drugs , whatever that drug happens to be for a reason and I would suggest many people
are self medicating. It is though impossible without knowing a person's full history if a mental health problem is the reason for 'medicating or the mental health problem is the result of drug use. We are all different. Some people even have self control and rationale! The general consensus amongst many Mental health professionals I worked with - is that weed does exacerbate pschosis or possibly even cause it. The same with stims and in particular Khat was thought to be a major culprit in the areas it is mostly used. Evidence changes all the time once Schizophrenia was thought to be caused solely by a per-disposition already brought on by some form of emotional trauma and all of a sudden now we have 'evidences' of a direct genetic link-that the NHS I hasten to add denies..sooooo..
I have never been able to smoke weed or solid, of however a low or high alleged potency. It makes me full on paranoid. Even with the people I trust the most in the world 2-3 drags and I am hiding under a duvet thinking they are plotting to kill me, rob me etc. The answer-I just don't ever smoke weed. I tried again after about 10 yr break..and yep same thing.
If some of the threads are triggering..just stay off them? We all ended up here for different reasons. I came because I needed information as to,if I was going to lose a limb after taking stupid (I had no idea how much to take) amounts of branded research chemicals. I now do not take branded research chemicals.
In fact with the exception of 4-FA (which has been around since the 70's and in use by a few since then??) My use has changed ..mostly for the better. I stick with "the old school" drugs for the most part now and in actual fact the drug I hammered (and in my view it is a drug) ALCOHOL, and my use of it is nominal now. I could and did often drink a litre of spirits in a session. Then again the coke fuels that.want/need.
I actually think overall my drug use has changed for the better since coming here. Therefore at least form of the 'Harm Reduction' ethos of this site have filtered down. Yes, I will still push it too much sometimes and yes I am only human, fallible, have a compulsive and slightly obsessive nature anyway. BUT still I think I am in a better and safer place in terms of educating myself before shoving unknown things down my gullet or up my nosal.
We make choices many of them emotionally charged and or based on our individual personalities and mental states.
Thank god for the peev threads I now know it is one drug a long with a few others that for me personally would be the beginning of the end..but that's just me.
Over and out...use the bloomin social threads if you're struggling, post some music, come to the sabbatical thread or just have a good rant in the angry thread. Bluelight has many outlets.
