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mydrugbuddy said:
... after getting so used to the instant fixes of substances it takes more time and effort to try things the other way, like eating and sleeping well...
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Ain't that the truth :|

Even in my situation where there's not even pressure to be seeking employment in the immediate future and literally nothing I am expected to do besides an occasional brief appointment with one agency or another - and with a complete absence of social life in any form - I'll make and take any possible excuse - however slight - to take the instant relief hit of energy and motivation despite having no specific need for either. Even with nothing to do it feels shitey having neither energy nor motivation to not do it.

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I keep sabotaging myself after completing the difficult bit, i make myself go through it all again and again. Must be a glutton for punishment or something. :\
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Another thing I can closely relate to. I'll go through the initial phases of w/d endlessly but once the genuinely unpleasant part is out the way and is down to the mere niggling irritant stage I'll cave time and time again. Not by much admittedly, but enough to know I'll have to do much the same again. There is a world of difference between 12mg of bupe and 0.5mg (or somewhere in that region - certainly sub mg levels anyway) but it's still quickfix energy and motivation that does nothing really beyond keeping the cycle going. I used to do much the same with heroin - go through the initial stages of intense physical w/d then cave once it was starting to fade. I suspect it was just the fact it was fading which made actual complete sobriety and absence of chemical assistance a very real possibility - and one close at hand too. Wanting to quit is one thing, being perfectly capable of doing "the hard bit" is one thing, the actual hard bit tends to be not quite what you'd expect it to be and is quite another.
 
Sounds good

Car MOT bill... plus other bills and shite... cheap quiet-ish weekend for me i think
 
ColtDan said:
Sounds good

Car MOT bill... plus other bills and shite... cheap quiet-ish weekend for me i think
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Just had mine serviced :( - add to that I'm desperately trying to save for holidays (trying to go US for a month) . Had another meal out of the depths of my freezer - have a few bags of some sort of curry and a few boxes of soup to go (got a few bags of prawn heads n shells so thats the basis of a nice Thai soup).
 
What car you got mate? Service yourself... so much cheaper. what part of the US you going?
 
ColtDan said:
What car you got mate? Service yourself... so much cheaper. what part of the US you going?
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Mazda Cx9 - yeah not the sportiest of things but a nice drive. I often service myself thanks (once looking at your pictures) wait what :p. Looking to arrive LA [have friends that I need to visit and then take a leisurely drive up towards San Fran [within California] :) - yeah if you hit the highway you could do it in three days but looking to take a lazy trip over a few weeks.

Not set in stone yet - travelling next month and need somewhere cheap or it will fuck my plans for July as my trip to the US will not be cheap.

You travelling this year ? (Do you like to travel or prefer to spend you money locally clubbing etc?)
 
Ahaha do ya ;p

Nice motor, anything jap or german im keen on, reliable and decent. infact keen on a lot of cars that aren't jap or german but would only buy them these days, always done me proud. known a lot of people buy french cars and end up with loads of problems

Sound good, you'll have a wicked time :)
 
Dan they look a bit 'clumpy' but I have the 3.5 and its fucking quick :D - yeah Ive had quicker but this just sorts of works for me.

We love the US - been a few times before and always had a few times (even after getting arrested in the airport with machine guns etc :D)
 
3.5 straight 6? v6? bet it sounds nice. Would love an old school american car, late 60s or something, art on wheels. Haha what machine guns did you have? would love a go on one at a shooting range or something
 
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3.5 straight 6? v6? bet it sounds nice. Would love an old school american car, late 60s or something, art on wheels. Haha what machine guns did you have? would love a go on one at a shooting range or something
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v6 -Its fun :) nah we just got arrested for shits n giggles. This guy that pulled me to one side - I was naked and poised waiting for the glove of love
 
Greatest day in a long time for me. Sweet meeting a friend written with 3-4 years over skype all most everyday for the first time. And tons of other sstuff todday. Me happyyy. Keep it going people, all the best. =D
 
Bearlove- have you done the drive from LA so SF before? A few weeks is crazy talk! It's an 8 hr drive, and even if you take the uberscenic 1/101 combo (do, it's the only way) it is still a days drive. But it is great to take a few days, visit Big Sur, go across the golden gate to Marin and point Reyes, etc. Now, a few weeks on the entire California coast on the 1/101 is absolutely stunning....camp the whole way, Redwood forests, the pacific ocean....ahhh I miss it...

Have fun <3
 
Go to sleep at 22:00. Wake up at 3am wide awake with fitful dreams. Had fitful dreams all night last night too for no reason. Gonna watch some Breaking Bad and teach my body a lesson.

I think I might be having a bit of a manic episode. I noticed I had one a month back, a couple of weeks after the MDPV fiasco. I stayed up every night for a week with a couple hours sleep each morning - had boundless energy that never seemed to dissipate. Since then I've really felt like total shit, but a lot of that was down to dissertation woes. But a little before that was due to hand in I perked up again, and now earlier on I cleaned my entire room for no particular reason, from top to bottom. I felt like I was rushing. Figured I was tired afterwards so I went to bed but my body is saying it has energy and now I feel like I'm rushing again.

Aside from now and the other time a month ago this has not really been a thing in my life. I'm not manic/depressive afaik. I think maybe I'm just stressed, and exhausted.
 
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Is there a way to make stress/exhaustion just keep to the manic side? Cos that is useful, and more than a little fun.

I suspect no.
 
Maybe if you up the stress load and invest in tranquilisers. I suspect stress is more likely to equate to manic than exhaustion which mainly equates to driving you nuts if for extended periods. Or just invest in tranquilisers, skip the added stress factors and catch up on sleep. Sleep (and probably good diet, I wouldn't know about that though) does work wonders for all kindsa mental woes.
 
I dunno, I've never figured that one out. Good luck though!

I am now going to sit and play World of Warcraft in bed til the heating comes on no I'm not bollocks I forgot I was gonna do the washing up no that can wait til 8 when the kitchen isn't glacial. For all its (massive, massive) flaws, I miss my old shared house with such a tiny kitchen that it felt like walking into a sauna when the heating was on.
 
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