So ive just had a pipe of changa, just as it starts to take me under I have a thought literally smack me in the brain, just how fuckin selfish I and my drug taking has become. I didnt even try and sit there to enjoy the trip, I stood up and started smashing around and bumping into things fighting the buzz...
Im done with drugs for a while, maybe forever. Im sick of them having a detrimental effect on my life, which is all they seem to do these days.
thanks kenny. I've checked it out. Fake it till you make it, and then fake it until you become it. I suspect my interview failures were because i failed to effectively express how keen i was on the jobs and how much i wanted them. Im never going to fake enthusiasm and 'bubbliness' to the horrificlally false levels of people like anthea turner and aneka rice, i find them sickening tbh. I dont do that level of falsness and wouldnt be able to without embarrasing myself and the interviewer. There is a middle ground of enthusiasm and positivity and i will be trying harder to reach next that week. Im going to prepare my answers far more so that i can speak fluently and in a well structured way.
Yeah when it gets to that stage its time to reign it in. Been there a few times
That changa is DMT right? i find it teaches me stuff, pretty enlightening stuff when broken through
This ket i've got is magical funky
Its told me i need to stop drinking and stuff, infact i stupidly smoked it a few times when drunk before and i had these messages "never come here whilst drunk again" and it was wild as fuck, then i came out of the trip feeling like a naughty school boy and felt sick. and it told me everything is connected and its all love. profound beautiful amazing stuff, its beyond a "drug" it feels like a gateway or something, some of the breakthroughs ive had have been so intense, messages about all sorts of stuff that i couldnt comprehend, all too fast. its always been this female loving guide and this budda type guy. ive also seen people fight treat DMT like weed, i had a pipe loaded up at a house party once, some hammered dickhead pops in and was like whats this? is it weed? and i was like "no, its DMT, its got parsley ontop" and he was like What are you on about and i said ".... take a hit and find out if its weed or not" so he did... and fucking LOL he was flapping about and making weird noises for 5 mins then goes What the fuck was that????!?! scared the shit out of him and he ran out off up the road
People have done that with MXE thinking its ket before as well, drunk people who wouldnt listen, taken that stuff to a few house partys before in the past, bad mistake lol
Hehe Dmt does the habbit of doing that, I was told by it that I need to stop the tablets as my liver was starting to get fucked and low and behold my next liver function test confirmed it. It also told me I need to stop smoking bag bongs as my chest would be ruined when older and I have not touched one as of then and feel a lot better for it. It is horrible if you fight dmt, I saw a lad treat it like crack and he paid the price, was thrashing round in hyper space -we had to stop him banging his head and limbs -pretty disturbing to watch. I thought he would have some amazing insight when he came round but I asked him and he said he cant remember jack squit. Did you have the Shamen examine you? That freaks me out as is so real and you can feel his power.
So ive just had a pipe of changa, just as it starts to take me under I have a thought literally smack me in the brain, just how fuckin selfish I and my drug taking has become. I didnt even try and sit there to enjoy the trip, I stood up and started smashing around and bumping into things fighting the buzz...
Im done with drugs for a while, maybe forever. Im sick of them having a detrimental effect on my life, which is all they seem to do these days.
Aye fake it like a cunt. Join the ranks of false arseholes. Great plan. Part of the reason why the "business world" is so shitty. Full of false, vapid, wankers.
Not you btw MDB, you seem to have realised that.
@ Dan yeah you were right with the 0/3 call. I did a meph all nighter last night after going out last night and hadnt read the latest posts on this thread. I wont be doing anymore meph until after the interviews and have 3 full days and nights to clear my head. Obviously Id have been better of not doing this atall last night as Im fucked today. My head should have cleared by Tuesday though for the open day.
There is no such thing as ' gibbering' in here anymore - if you / your comments do not suit Ali then they are simply removed / edited etc.
Did anyone ever figure out how to get rid of the shitty mobile site? I reset my phone and now I'm stuck with it.
Aww mateI wish everyone the best; I hope this forum can stop tearing itself apart and find a common ground to focus on. That common ground ought to be HR, and we should never forget that.
I wish Shambles and Josh and Snolly the best of luck, and whichever new mods choose to pick up the reigns, but for now, it's sayonara from me, Peter Wood, aka Albion.
Peace and Love to each and every one of you that I have gotten to know over the years
This is for you, Michael: Imagine (for a new, better, and loving EADD).
Brutal stuff aint it that meph, been ages since ive done it, i miss that buzz but deffo not feeling shite for days