Gibberings CLX: Gibberings Unplugged

[ColtDan]

Waking up suddenly with a racing heartbeat and wondering whats happened is weird, all confusing

i remember awhile ago i had this long deep lucid dream where i was playing with my old dog downstairs and then we cuddled and went to sleep... so real it was like i'd gone back in time. then i "woke up" straight into another lucid dream wondering where the dog was, walked downstairs and he wasnt there, then saw the room was different (the dogs been dead for 10 years n i loved him to bits) and i started to feel sad and started crying like i did when i found out he'd been put down all those years ago, then i realized i was in another dream and woke up confused and the emotion stayed with me for a lil while after, it felt like he'd just died. infact it was confusing like his spirit had come to visit me or something. although im not sure what to make of "spirits" and shit like that. though i felt his presence, musta been partly sleep paralysis or something. i hate sad dreams like that. lucid dreams can be amazing though if your in them and realize your dreaming but dont wake up, can do all sorts of wicked stuff

 

[Eveleivibe]

Have you seen the rest of the members?!?

Cos somebody asked me nicely. Twice. Different people though.

Also, monitor just died on me repeatedly triggering a mild-moderate panic attack. Can't be doing with sound and no pix and I doubt I've got a functional spare. Apparently I needed to wiggle summat and poke it in harder. Which seems to solve many a problem.

Tips please Shambles. I want to be a mod lol.

 

[Uncle Robert]

Waking up suddenly with a racing heartbeat and wondering whats happened is weird, all confusing

i remember awhile ago i had this long deep lucid dream where i was playing with my old dog downstairs and then we cuddled and went to sleep... so real it was like i'd gone back in time. then i "woke up" straight into another lucid dream wondering where the dog was, walked downstairs and he wasnt there, then saw the room was different (the dogs been dead for 10 years n i loved him to bits) and i started to feel sad and started crying like i did when i found out he'd been put down all those years ago, then i realized i was in another dream and woke up confused and the emotion stayed with me for a lil while after, it felt like he'd just died. infact it was confusing like his spirit had come to visit me or something. although im not sure what to make of "spirits" and shit like that. though i felt his presence, musta been partly sleep paralysis or something. i hate sad dreams like that. lucid dreams can be amazing though if your in them and realize your dreaming but dont wake up, can do all sorts of wicked stuff

Yeah dreams can definitely effect the mood you'll be in for the morning, if not longer.

I dreamt of my old dog (not too long after we put him down) and felt two emotions at once cos I was happy to see him again and give him a cuddle, but at the same time you wake up knowing you won't see him again.

Was a double whammy when our dog of 10 years died, cos 3 months later our cat of 18 years died. The cat was 6 months older than me as well so it had literally been part of me my whole life.

In some ways my cats death wasn't as hard cos it had had a full live and lived to a good age, but our dog's life was cut short. It has been notably ill all summer and turned out he had cancer.

My parents asked if I'd like to be there when we put them down and yeah I definitely did want to be there.

 

[swampdragon]

i remember awhile ago i had this long deep lucid dream where i was playing with my old dog downstairs and then we cuddled and went to sleep... so real it was like i'd gone back in time. then i "woke up" straight into another lucid dream wondering where the dog was, walked downstairs and he wasnt there, then saw the room was different (the dogs been dead for 10 years n i loved him to bits) and i started to feel sad and started crying like i did when i found out he'd been put down all those years ago

 

[Nicklazz]

fuckin drinkin crap beer, because of low cash. hell they taste like cat pee or sum thing, I even think cat pee may be better than this beer.

In south park they get high on cat pee, maybe I should try sum of that. LOL

 

[Eveleivibe]

Evening EADD!

How you all doing, eh?
Took little one for her swimming lesson earlier n did this n that. Evey xxxx

 

[Raasyvibe]

I've been having the freakiest dreams this week. Freaky and persistent. Wake up at regular intervals cos they're kinda disturbing and I seem to wake up regularly with heart hammering out of chest. Don't really recall much in the way of specifics but I do seem to do a lotta running away from various people and things. Hence hammeryheart presumably. Thing being that even if it takes me ages to get back to sleep it's straight back to where it left off. Odd. And quite annoying. Probably a w/d thing. Hope so cos don't fancy putting up with 'em any longer than that.

BLers are sometimes involved, although I'd be buggered if I could recall who. Pretty sure they are though.

Do tell man.

On topic, A couple of weeks before Knock died, I received a really vivid dream about him. So much so, as I woke I had to post about it on this gibbering thread.

THIS IS IT

I find it quite freakish reading it now, because in the dream it was my "last chance to speak with him"... at the time I didn't understand why... But post-death it all seems more relevant.

Most of you will find it hogwash, but EVELEIVIBE might find it interesting as she believes in psychics/God/Supernatural.

 

[Eveleivibe]

WOW raas..... That was extremely interesting... I've had prophetic dreams in the past n 'tis really freaky when it happens...

Wasn't that strange that you dreamt that about Knock, not long before he died?????

Very, very interesting.

Do tell man.

On topic, A couple of weeks before Knock died, I received a really vivid dream about him. So much so, as I woke I had to post about it on this gibbering thread.

THIS IS IT

I find it quite freakish reading it now, because in the dream it was my "last chance to speak with him"... at the time I didn't understand why... But post-death it all seems more relevant.

Most of you will find it hogwash, but EVELEIVIBE might find it interesting as she believes in psychics/God/Supernatural.

 

[ScotchMist]

Evening one and all...

 

[Eveleivibe]

Evening one and all...

Evening, ScotchMist, how's things? xxxx

 

[ScotchMist]

Pretty shite tbh Evey..! Only way is up though ay..! How about yourself?

 

[Eveleivibe]

Pretty shite tbh Evey..! Only way is up though ay..! How about yourself?

Awh sorry to hear that, hope things get better soon. I'm ok thanks. I wish this place would liven up where the hell is everyone?
You know my PM is always open if ever you need anyone to talk to.
Evey xxxx

 

[ScotchMist]

Thanks Evey, just time and a lot of effort on my part should see me right..

I wasnt going to carry on posting here as I felt it was triggering me a bit, ive just been pulling the trigger myself if im honest.

It has been pretty slow here of late hasnt it.. swings and roundabouts im sure..

 

[Shambles]

*waves at scotch mist and welcomes him back - bl is a beast of an addiction*

Do tell man.

On topic, A couple of weeks before Knock died, I received a really vivid dream about him. So much so, as I woke I had to post about it on this gibbering thread.

THIS IS IT

I find it quite freakish reading it now, because in the dream it was my "last chance to speak with him"... at the time I didn't understand why... But post-death it all seems more relevant.

Most of you will find it hogwash, but EVELEIVIBE might find it interesting as she believes in psychics/God/Supernatural.

That really is a bit spooky actually. I'm not half as dismissive of "weird shit" as I used to be having had quite extensive "weird shit" experiences myself these last few months. None that I have any interest in discussing at the moment. Actually, you can have one dream incident cos it was so random, seemingly innocuous, and spot on accurate...

Was just a short dream wherein I went to pickup my script as usual but got served by one of the women instead. Nothing odd about it other than the assistants never give out scripts. Especially not CD ones. Next morning it happened precisely as the dream went. Was so gobsmacked I kinda had to explain to the woman cos I was just kinda stood there dumbfounded. Very odd, but also (seemingly) utterly irrelevant to anything. Pretty sure it wasn't irrelevant to everything in hindsight but that really is stuff I'm not delving into at the moment.

Same goes for recent dreams, not cos of anything spooky or sinister or even particularly odd so much as that I just don't recall any details beyond lots of running away from people/things and a general sense of missionhood being involved. It's mainly the persistent nature of them that I'm finding especially strange. That and the fact they're quite unpleasant to wake suddenly from.

I wish this place would liven up where the hell is everyone?

Dunno 'bout anybody else but I'm zonked in front of PooToob docs laid up with brainzaps. Driving me nuts so they are. Not as intense as they have been but just going on and on and on and on and on and... mostly one double whammy one about every minute. Making my ears pop. Well, not quite but a similar feeling. Not conducive to being overly sociable anyway. Do hope they've finished tomorrow. Three days or so is usually the limit so should have restocked a few brainchems by then. Hopefully

 

[Eveleivibe]

brain zaps?????

 

[Eveleivibe]

Thanks Evey, just time and a lot of effort on my part should see me right..

I wasnt going to carry on posting here as I felt it was triggering me a bit, ive just been pulling the trigger myself if im honest.

It has been pretty slow here of late hasnt it.. swings and roundabouts im sure..

Has you tried the recovery forums? They might help you if you're feeling triggered.
If I feel triggered ie if people going on about getting high off codeine I go to TDS n try help some people out there for a bit and come back when I'm feeling better. Maybe that may help you?

 

[amanitadine]

That seriously freaked me out you saying this. I think you need some serious help MDB not trying to be mean but come on....,

I know your intentions are good Evey, but this line of thinking, as hilarious as it is, isn't too uncommon on a forum of drug users and abusers. Or as I prefer, drug addicts But seriously, I could make you quiver with the amount of sheet rock or gravel or sum such I've picked up off the carpet thinking just maybe it might be some missed crack at the end of a binge! Or throwing all my needdles in the dumpster and then fishing them out a day later to use them.* Those years are behind me, thankfully, but we think and do some crazy stuff when freaking out...

And to MDB's defense, he is seeking help and meets with workers and such. Addiction isa bitch!

*not good harm reduction in case anybody had any doubts!

 

[ScotchMist]

*tips his cap to shambles*

It is an addiction for sure and if theres one thing I can do, and do well is addiction...! If I can drop my chemical dependency for a forum one I could live with that..

You going through a detox MrS?? Im one day in... This one should be a walk in the park compared to previous turkeys, im just full of fear for when its over with and I have to deal with my head...

Hope your symptoms ease up soon..

 

[5StarSquatHotel]

I know your intentions are good Evey, but this line of thinking, as hilarious as it is, isn't too uncommon on a forum of drug users and abusers. Or as I prefer, drug addicts But seriously, I could make you quiver with the amount of sheet rock or gravel or sum such I've picked up off the carpet thinking just maybe it might be some missed crack at the end of a binge! Or throwing all my needdles in the dumpster and then fishing them out a day later to use them.* Those years are behind me, thankfully, but we think and do some crazy stuff when freaking out...

And to MDB's defense, he is seeking help and meets with workers and such. Addiction isa bitch!

*not good harm reduction in case anybody had any doubts!

Yeah was going to say that's very tame as far as addiction goes. I could tell some fucked up stories about stuff I have done and seen. Having to use puddle water and sock fluff for a shot being the least troubling of things. I would not believe half the things had I not experienced or seen them for myself.

 

[Eveleivibe]

I know your intentions are good Evey, but this line of thinking, as hilarious as it is, isn't too uncommon on a forum of drug users and abusers. Or as I prefer, drug addicts But seriously, I could make you quiver with the amount of sheet rock or gravel or sum such I've picked up off the carpet thinking just maybe it might be some missed crack at the end of a binge! Or throwing all my needdles in the dumpster and then fishing them out a day later to use them.* Those years are behind me, thankfully, but we think and do some crazy stuff when freaking out...

And to MDB's defense, he is seeking help and meets with workers and such. Addiction isa bitch!

*not good harm reduction in case anybody had any doubts!

Amanita I understand what you're saying n I was not judging MDB I am actually friends with him n we PM each other n stuff. I am just concerned about him n feel it's best to be straight with him about that. If I had not conversed with him I would be far gentler in how I approached this but he has said in the past he likes it straight up n I'm trying to honour that. I wouldn't be much of a friend if I sat back n said nothing.

As addicts, we often get thoughts such as this and we resist them many times but eventually they become stronger and stronger and we act on them (I'm not saying that MDB will do this) but thinking HR in mentioning he seeks help about these thought he is having now while he is still able to resist them. Currently he is still able to purchase the substances but he is using his life savings (he's stated this many times on here or I'd not mention that) so I am extremely concerned that if one day he was not to have much money he's act on this.

With losing one person lately I certain am not prepared to lose another friend on EADD and sometimes stating the obvious to someone and being blunt is best when looking out for them n hoping it would possibly prevent them in harming themselves.

MDB - Sorry for talking about you like you're like here. I wish thought I needed to give an explanation.

Take care n sorry if I've caused any offence

Evey xxxx