Eveleivibe
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Hiya snolly. Just come back from a kids party. Oh dear I had a little laugh when you say they're doing DIV at the library n your Dad saying fuck a pig. Hope you get some peace soon tho x
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something to make you all feel better about yourselves:
Had a night out last night. Got dancing with a super hot girl. We get talking, one thing leads to another, and I offer to walk her home. Realizing that i'm hideously drunk and have been eating etiz for a few days now, I pop a 100mg Kamagra. Does fuck all, might have been a dud, or I didn't leave it long enough to kick in, anyway I have this amazing sexy girl naked in front of me and I can't get a solid erection to save my life. Sildenafil, which has always loyally served me when i've been too drunk/ high/ etc to fuck, you have let me down.
Not sure if this is tmi but fuck it I'm still drunk/ horny/ annoyed : P
Had a night out last night. Got dancing with a super hot girl. We get talking, one thing leads to another, and I offer to walk her home. Realizing that i'm hideously drunk and have been eating etiz for a few days now, I pop a 100mg Kamagra. Does fuck all, might have been a dud, or I didn't leave it long enough to kick in, anyway I have this amazing sexy girl naked in front of me and I can't get a solid erection to save my life. Sildenafil, which has always loyally served me when i've been too drunk/ high/ etc to fuck, you have let me down.
Not sure if this is tmi but fuck it I'm still drunk/ horny/ annoyed : P
Shambles
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Ouch. I surprised myself and just had the one bottle of 13.5% red wine without clearing the fridge of beer and cider (not that there's many in there but the fact there's any in there after having started drinking of an eve (no pun intended :D) is pretty damn impressive by my standards).
*whips out his screwdriver and socket set*
*fnarrs*
Shambles
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Not really TMI - you have to reveal some seriously freakish stuff to make it to the TMI stage around these parts
I doubt there are many fellas who can't relate to that situation or one rather similar. Nothing worse than getting a bad case of the floppies with somebody you don't know that well. Probably several worse thing actually but that particular thing is bad enough. I'd add an anecdote of my own in solidarity but that would be nothing but an excuse to add a pisspoor pun to the post which would be beneath me.
brimz
Bluelighter
i is slept n has 3 massive cakes from farmers market
para a wee bit no i was more erratic n maybe para but tis odd cos i never get para just a worrier me maybe i am worried ?
all that Hip Hop made me ga ga
para a wee bit no i was more erratic n maybe para but tis odd cos i never get para just a worrier me maybe i am worried ?
all that Hip Hop made me ga ga
Shambles
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If you get to three days up on peev and are not entirely sure whether you are paranoid or just a wee bit erratic you're doing pretty damn well, Brimz. Most folk wouldn't even question the fact cos they know fine well that it's both in spades :D
The combination of an opi to partner it up with and, I stronglt suspect, not vaping the stuff (plus being EADD's resident hardcore mofo, of course :D) seems to be sitting nicely. And to have slept too?!? The Brimz dun good is all I can say. Admiring your running action
The combination of an opi to partner it up with and, I stronglt suspect, not vaping the stuff (plus being EADD's resident hardcore mofo, of course :D) seems to be sitting nicely. And to have slept too?!? The Brimz dun good is all I can say. Admiring your running action
All quiet now. Would think they'd put the fucking heating on in here. About to go check out the seventh floor because legend has it (well the note in the lift said) that it has an observatory now.
brimz
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If you get to three days up on peev and are not entirely sure whether you are paranoid or just a wee bit erratic you're doing pretty damn well, Brimz. Most folk wouldn't even question the fact cos they know fine well that it's both in spades :D
The combination of an opi to partner it up with and, I stronglt suspect, not vaping the stuff (plus being EADD's resident hardcore mofo, of course :D) seems to be sitting nicely. And to have slept too?!? The Brimz dun good is all I can say. Admiring your running action
my woman is not !
Yes, I can't deny it was a little comforting to watch Shammy have an outburst and have to apologise the next day. When the mighty falter and show fallibility, it makes the rest of us feel a bit better about themselves.
I'd be more inclined to retaliate your cynicism... but must admit the term "Drunken gobby yob" made me smile
Afternoon all. How are we all doing?
Just had at my mullet with the clippers. Last time I shaved it all off was March last year. I can't be bothered to cut my hair any more frequently than that and it means I get a range of styles through the year - plus extra insulation in winter. Grade 0 all over time! My hat sticks to my head like velcro now hehe.
Sounds weird but I also feel like there is quite a powerful psychological push every time I lose the barnet. I'm really hoping that this will put an end to the way I've been feeling with regards to my health this last few weeks, I'm sure my current problems are at least partially pschological (there's even loads of anecdotal evidence - which I'd be inclined to agree with - to suggest that the colitis in the first place was caused by stress, although the docs all say there is nothing medical to back this up etc etc).
Just had at my mullet with the clippers. Last time I shaved it all off was March last year. I can't be bothered to cut my hair any more frequently than that and it means I get a range of styles through the year - plus extra insulation in winter. Grade 0 all over time! My hat sticks to my head like velcro now hehe.
Sounds weird but I also feel like there is quite a powerful psychological push every time I lose the barnet. I'm really hoping that this will put an end to the way I've been feeling with regards to my health this last few weeks, I'm sure my current problems are at least partially pschological (there's even loads of anecdotal evidence - which I'd be inclined to agree with - to suggest that the colitis in the first place was caused by stress, although the docs all say there is nothing medical to back this up etc etc).
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Good on you. As long as you can control it n do something about it if you feel you're getting dependent/ addicted again.
Why are you telling your key worker that you are taking other drugs? Of course they'll tell/want you to stop taking them. It's their job n they wouldn't be doing it if they didn't say anything.
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Sammy G
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Exactly when and how do you intend to use this 4-FA, MDB?
You've not given your brain chemistry the chance to return to near-normal levels yet and you're already looking for another way out of feeling sober? Seems like a step back to me. Let's not forget that you're still taking hefty enough doses of benzos for your typing to be noticeably impaired. It's not like you'd be abstaining from drugs altogether were you to forgo the 4-FA for now, is it?
Maybe total permanent abstinence isn't for you, but maybe a period of abstinence would give you some much-needed perspective? It seems as though you're falling into the trap of trying to work against your drug workers again.
You've not given your brain chemistry the chance to return to near-normal levels yet and you're already looking for another way out of feeling sober? Seems like a step back to me. Let's not forget that you're still taking hefty enough doses of benzos for your typing to be noticeably impaired. It's not like you'd be abstaining from drugs altogether were you to forgo the 4-FA for now, is it?
Maybe total permanent abstinence isn't for you, but maybe a period of abstinence would give you some much-needed perspective? It seems as though you're falling into the trap of trying to work against your drug workers again.
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
I've a friend who was on sub that long too.
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
theres no point seeing them if im gonna lie to them IMO. Id rather dissapoint them with the truth than tell them a crock of shit to make them happy.
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
that old sam spanner in the works again. And its even more annoying because i can see you are right. Last night i said that as it seemed a good way to prevent taking kratom too often. It may or may not be. I probably need to lay off everything for a while. As you know, it isnt easy.
i was on kratom yesterday, the etiz does not impair my typing.
My drug taking choices have nothing at all to do with my drugs workers, its not like im thinking 'theres a rule that i must not take drugs therefor i must break that rule just on principle just to annoy them' That is not my thinking or the trap im falling into at all.
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Shambles
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Not wishing to make it seem like folk are "ganging up" or owt but I gotta third that, MDB. You're an intelligent fella - you know yourself that swicthing back and forth between mini-binges on one drug to another round and round trying to "balance out" or even counterract the effects of each other and/or the comedowns and rebounds from it all is a hiding to nothing. All you're doing is storing up a very nasty crash indeed cos it's just not sustainable. You can only get away with that kinda stuff for so long - believe me I know and have tried to wriggle out of it every which way and more but it ultimately all comes down to that piper demanding payment cos he will only take IOUs for so long ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Drugs are great but I think you ("you" meaning all of us "yous" in similar positions) need to work with them and give your body a chance cos they won't. A period of abstainance - or as close as possible whilst still being heavily addicted to benzos - is not the same thing as going all 12 Step on us. Drugs are great but we don't need to be taking all of 'em all of the time - if body, mind and soul are given a chance to get back on more even keel you reap the rewards in very many ways. One of those ways being that you get more from those luvverly, luvverly droogies and minimise the shittiness of addictions and dependences and tapering plans and withdrawals and rebounds and... You get the point
Just to point out this is not some kinda lecture aimed at you as such - I totally include myself in all of that along with anybody and everybody else who has these kinda issues. Not for one moment suggesting it's easy cos I know damn well it isn't, but I do think it's something worth trying for. I'm even trying for it myself
Drugs are great but I think you ("you" meaning all of us "yous" in similar positions) need to work with them and give your body a chance cos they won't. A period of abstainance - or as close as possible whilst still being heavily addicted to benzos - is not the same thing as going all 12 Step on us. Drugs are great but we don't need to be taking all of 'em all of the time - if body, mind and soul are given a chance to get back on more even keel you reap the rewards in very many ways. One of those ways being that you get more from those luvverly, luvverly droogies and minimise the shittiness of addictions and dependences and tapering plans and withdrawals and rebounds and... You get the point
Just to point out this is not some kinda lecture aimed at you as such - I totally include myself in all of that along with anybody and everybody else who has these kinda issues. Not for one moment suggesting it's easy cos I know damn well it isn't, but I do think it's something worth trying for. I'm even trying for it myself